No more toilets challenge

My birthday is coming up in 4 weeks. I already got a birthday present from daddy, it was that Game Over onesie. Amazon came and dropped it off and I got a email about it but it wasn’t at either door. I got scared someone had stolen it already or maybe the carrier did. So I went to my account and tracked the package and I saw the package was on our patio and they had just tossed it on the ground next to the busted frog which my dad said he would clean up the other day. So I went out there and got it.

I had decided on something. Since I have always wanted to be fully dependent on diapers and do everything in them, I had decided I will mind as well start bringing some extra diapers with for in case I have to do a bowel movement when I am out of the house and then go change. I am already carrying a diaper bag around and the other day I had used my hiking back pack because I had decided to carry one extra diaper so I put my other stuff in it too I keep in my purse.

At work yesterday I had used my regular diaper bag again because I only had one extra diaper and I decided to not change into a fresh one before work so I put on my Hello Kitty plastic pants and wore them to work. I had a slight leak when I got off the train after work and I didn’t know I had badly leaked until my husband took them off for my diaper change. They were dripping and the diaper was wet and on the outside too. I did wash the pants in the sink after the sex and diaper change. Then I just hung them up on the hanger above the sink and then turned the washer on because I had clothes in it that needed to be washed and I am washing my work shirts and my skinny jeans I leaked on.

I decided after my birthday, how many days can I go without even using the toilet. That means possibly going through some extra diapers a day due to poop. I put a clean diaper on and then I already have to make a BM a few hours later or even an hour later. If it gets too expensive, I can always just go back to using the toilet again for number 2’s to save on diapers and I only mess in them if I am going to change it anyway or have had it on for too long so I would have a reason to change. Daddy won’t know I am breaking the rule. I am supposed to be doing everything in them and not ever use the toilet. I also don’t want to be taking Nullo or Devrom because of how expensive they are and because you have to take so many of them a day for them to be effective. They are also used for body odor too, some people have very bad BO when they sweat so they might take those pills too.

Last time I did something like this was when I was 19 ( I might have done that same challenge again in later life but can’t remember) and it was with an eating disorder when I was throwing up my food but that is another story. I will say I haven’t done that in a real long time and my teeth are fine but maybe that is why they are yellow now. I sometimes worry it will come back so I work out and just control my food portions and limit sweets and I feel more empowered that way. Eating disorders are no fun.

Figuring out my diaper preference

I started wearing diapers again when I was 17. I just randomly bought a pack and it was Western Family Sure Comfort. They were $11.99 per pack. Then the store stopped selling them and had them on sale for $9.99 I remember how noisy they were and I wondered how incontinent people wore them without anyone noticing and they made by bottom look fat. Looking back, I would say they were fair diapers and I would go through 4 a day if I wore full time for the weekend. That is about average use for diapers.

Back then, it was just a diaper so it didn’t matter what kind they were and how thin they were or how they felt, at least it was a diaper. I would also buy the cheapest cases out there and I always wore different ones back then too. I would also use plastic pants over my diapers and they often wore out because I always bought generic plastic pants and they were cheap. It took me a while to figure out what diapers I preferred and starting to become picky about how they feel and fit. I also used to go to thrift stores and just buy diapers there and buy whatever they had. I don’t do that anymore because their diapers suck and it’s always cheap brands. I just go online now to order more diapers when I am down to my last pack.

I had figured out I like thick diapers, plastic backed, good odor control, and I like Tena Slip Maxi despite how thin they are but I can still feel them. I will still try other brands from time to time so I will go to Wearing Clouds and try some or just buy a pack of a different brand so I did that with Northshore Supreme Lite purple when I ordered a case of Northshore Supremes because I liked the color even though they don’t hold as much but they are like other diapers I used to wear. I now like diapers where I don’t have to change all day because of how much they hold and it’s cheaper too.

I will still buy from Goodwill sometimes so I once got Attends and they suck. They barely hold anything now. When I wore some in 2003, they were dated from 1995 and maybe 2001 and they held well then. I once got Shopko brand diapers I found at a second hand store in Montana and they barely held anything so I got rid of them. My mom saw them in the junk pile we were getting rid of and asked me why I was getting rid of them, can I not pee in them enough. I told her they sucked and they barely hold one normal wetting and I like real diapers. She asked me what do I do, flood them. I told her not like the rest of them can in the toilet and I can’t even pee normal anymore because my bladder is used to having no pee so I always feel I have to go. Then that was the end of that discussion.

There have been other premium diapers I wore I decided I didn’t like:

Molicare Super Plus because they bunch up, even after one small wetting.

ATN Tranquility because they have gotten too thin and I felt like I wasn’t wearing anything.

Abena M4, gotten thinner and they bunch up and the odor control is bad.

Wellness Brief because they are also too thin and last time I wore the, they just worked like the Supreme Lite. I think the blue color is ugly anyway.

Sure I would still buy other brands, even these if I see them at a thriftshop because I like having back up diapers.

I know another way of saving on diapers is go buy diapers you see at second hand stores, go buy baby diapers in stores or boosters and use them as boosters. I would not recommend Luvs because they gels fly all over and it makes a mess and you see crystals everywhere and it gets all over your skin. Do not buy Luvs. Pampers are fine, though, they are the most expensive. I would stick with other brands but stay away from Luvs. I would only do this if you hit on hard times. Do the math and see if you have really saved any money. If not, then stick with what you usually get.

I recently found IC pads at Goodwill so I bought the pack and I don’t know yet if they are good for boosters, just cut the slit in them and open them and stick them in there.

But my top diapers are:

Better Dry

Crinklz

Northshore Supreme

I am keeping Dry 24/7s off the list because I need a size small and I have not seen that size in months. I will just keep the three above as my primary diapers and still buy others if I find any on sale or even buy a pack of other diapers like Dotty the Pony or Supreme Lite while I buy a new case. Then those diapers would just be something for me to wear sometimes when I am in the mood.

Plus another way to save money is just buy stickers and put them on your white diapers and put mailing tape on the front over the stickers to hold them in place. Forget the pricey printed diapers that are so over priced and tend to suck anyway because they are not as good as the premium non ABDL diapers. They either don’t hold as much or the odor control is bad. You can go to thrift stores or Goodwill and find stickers there because I am always finding some there. I even have a box full of stickers because my husband found it at a Goodwill. I have other stickers too around in my bedroom I had also found at Goodwill.

I also decided I did not like pull ups because they don’t work like toddler pull ups. A toddler can fully pee in a pull up because they are made for accidents and then it needs to be changed. An adult pull up is only made for bladder leakage and for those who can still make it to the toilet. It’s also made for people who can stop the flow once they start. Unless I see a pull up out there that can hold as much as a Supreme Lite, I might reconsider. But I can imagine how expensive it would be so I would unlikely buy. I got rid of all the pull ups I had including the Always Discreet and gave them to Goodwill.

Dorm rooms again

So I volunteered to clean dorm rooms all this week and on Monday just for extra money for car insurance so it’s extra money right there. That means I had no day off and I used my weekend to clean them too and it’s only for one week so I can handle that.

I bring one diaper this time and it’s a Crinklz one instead of a Supreme Lite one. I totally soaked that one in a few hours and changed before I went to bed because it was saggy and uncomfortable and what do you know, it was also wet in the back so no wonder it felt uncomfortable.

I come with the same diaper bag and I was finally given a shirt and I changed into that. I also had on a different pair of jeans that are wearing out so they are already starting to rip and I had on my work shirt that was a different pair because the other ones smelled like urine so I had to toss them down the chute and wear fresh clean ones. I don’t want to smell like piss. You will smell like piss if you wear clothes that smell like it.

I had to change my diaper around six pm because it was uncomfortable and it was starting to smell I think and because I had it on since I went to bed and I was starting to feel sort down there so I changed in the bathroom and it was only wet in the middle but it still smelled. I had it on long enough so it was time to change and I wasn’t wasting it. I drank 3 bottles of water and I still didn’t pee much but maybe because it was hot. I had my Red Bulls with I had bought on the way and I was craving them badly. I had cash and I found some extra bucks in my diaper bag. I bought 3 for $7, plus the extra 30 cents due to bottle deposit. But I didn’t drink them because I didn’t feel like it and didn’t have the desire and I guess it was because it was hot out. If I drank it, I would be peeing a lot and I would get dehydrated and then get bad headaches. So they stayed in my diaper bag all day long in the flaps where the bottles would go.

This time there was no trash bag with garbage in the dorm room so I put my used diaper in the plastic bag and tied it and shoved it in the corner by the toilet. Then I went back to work.

At the end of the day, my manager was asking everyone if anyone needed to use the bathroom before they clean the dorm. I got my trash bag with trash and went to the dorm and my used diaper was still there so I put it in the trash bag and left the garbage right out the door for someone to collect when they collect garbage. The diaper did smell when I picked it up. The smell went through the plastic. That is why I didn’t want to carry it in my bag.

Tomorrow I will only be working part time and then I have to go to my real work. But still extra money there I am getting, $18 an hour. I should say today since it’s after midnight. If I wanted full time extra shifts, I could pick the morning one but then I would have to get up at 5 AM and I don’t want to. I will take the summer heat over getting up earlier than I do for my kids during the school year.

No one questioned me why I was taking my bag with me to the bathroom, no one questioned why I was taking the trash with me to the restroom. I used to have these fears when I started wearing 24/7 (before I was forced) and would be stuck in a wet diaper and be uncomfortable in it but would suck it up. Then I would have leaks (even with plastic pants)and that would be even more embarrassing and then I got used to it when I saw no one says anything about it. I am sure now people have noticed and said nothing. I remember at my old work, I would be told by an office clerk “You can get changed now” and I assumed they meant back into my street clothes from my work uniform when my shift was over. But I wondered then if they knew because it’s strange to tell someone that when they already do get changed into their normal clothes.

Dorm cleaning time again

I decided to sign up to clean college dorms with my work and they pay us more money. Last year they paid us over time and we didn’t have to go to our regular work if we were cleaning dorms so I went most days and got some extra money that way and it made up for my short pay checks I have had from being in a play.

I sign up again this year and I found it disappointing they were doing it differently this year. Paying us only $18 an hour this time and we still have to go to our regular job but at least we don’t have to be stuck in a dorm room until it is purr-fect.

I brought my diaper bag this time and I had packed two extra diapers and two plastic bags and wipes and cream and I had my wallet in there and my phone and charger and my Nintendo Switch and my work badge and my headphones.

While I was cleaning the first dorm, I noticed a urine smell on me and my diaper was wet but not bad. I had it on since last night but didn’t use it until this morning when I got out of bed. It wasn’t a big pee at all. Then finally in the second dorm we were cleaning, I grabbed my diaper bag and headed for the “restroom.” It was in one of the dorm rooms they were using as the janitor closet where they put all the supplies and that was the bathroom they had for all their employees to use and they were calling it a restroom. I mentioned to my cleaning buddies my husband won’t stop calling our bathrooms the restroom in our house so I have thought about getting a restroom sign and putting it on our bathroom doors as a joke. We call public bathrooms restrooms and toilets at home bathrooms.

I go to the bathroom and I close the door and realized there was a crack between the wall and the door. It was a sliding door. I thought no one is going to see me unless they open it and I will just stand away from the door.

I changed and I put the diaper in a plastic bag and tie it. Now I had to figure out what to do with it since I didn’t want it in my diaper bag. I thought about tossing it in the corner by the toilet, no I can’t litter. Then I thought about putting it under the sink and I will deal with it later so I put it there. Then I opened the door and what do you know, I see two bags full of trash. I grab the trash bad and put my diaper in there and put the trash bag back. I also didn’t want to carry the used diaper with me and throw it in my own trash bag and have my cleaning buddies see it when they toss stuff in there. You could see the diaper through the bag.

I know I have written in this blog before about not caring if people find out or even worrying if my shirt rides up, I don’t want to be making it so obvious I wear them by flaunting it and parading them around and I would rather be discreet about it. I’m not very open about it like some diaper wearers are. I guess I did the challenge of wearing my wet diaper there that could hold a lot more and being prepared I might need changed so bring some extras and bring the diaper bag and I put my water bottle in one of the bottle holders. They were giving out a bunch of water because it gets hot in the dorms. I found out it wasn’t so bad when I changed. And I had a dry evening because I only wet my new diaper once despite drinking water. I guess when it is hot and you sweat, you don’t pee much but I don’t even sweat much when I am hot. My skin gets sticky and that’s it and having some cool air blowing on you also keeps me from sweating a bunch. That is why I avoid working out in hot weather and exercising. I will turn on a fan or open my window if I am hot and I take my shirt off in my sleep when I am hot. I used to sleep naked in the summer and would only sleep in my bra and diaper and socks and sleep under a sheet than a blanket. I would have window and mini fan blowing at me. Now I can’t do that anymore, sleep naked. Son comes in my room so I am trying to get him to sleep on his own.

Messy work out

It’s rare for me to change into a fresh diaper and then need to change again in 4 hrs.

I changed close to 7 am and my husband got me a Red Bull after 9 am. I had a whole can and I guess it made me pre a lot. I also felt the urge to poop. The pain got bad and then I decided to have a reason to go work out. I also felt a little wet spot on my pants. I guess I will mess my diaper so I have a reason to change.

I put a load in and I work out in it. I also wanted to be sure I had all urine out and not peeing so much anymore. It felt weird working out in my diaper because of the mess and I didn’t need to sit on any cushions because my diaper had enough padding from the urine and poo. I could also smell the mess. Good thing I had put shorts on because my son came in. I wanted to work out in my shirt and diaper but it was too risky. But at least he knocked and I let him in. Then I had to kick him out after the work out so I could change. He didn’t seem to notice anything.

I have been in a fresh diaper now for over an hour and I am barely even wet.

Favorite stories

I am sure we all have favorite stories. I will even keep books that are my favorite like 101 Dalmatians novel, Jurassic Park novel, but how many of us save ABDL stories to our computer that are our favorite? I used to just print them off but have lost them. I also don’t bother saving any stories because of memory and from my experience, saving it to a disc or something, it eventually stops working.

One of my favorite stories was Anita Trials which I already wrote about. My other favorites were Ashley Diaper’s Adventure which I already wrote about.

I remember one other story I liked that was posted at Bravenet, it was called Ben and the Diaper Store. Ben was some man in his twenties who was looking for a job and he gets a job at some store and he just needed money and didn’t care what the job was about. He was told he would be testing some products and he was like “sure, whatever” and they hire him. On the job it didn’t take long that he would have to be wearing diapers so he can help customers about it when they buy them so he can tell them how good they are. He develops a diaper fetish and starts to like diapers. The testing lasts for 6 months and then it ends and he gets sad because he misses them. But the store owners knew he liked them so they give him a case for Christmas and they also tell him they are also diaper lovers and have been happily diapered and the husband was also a bed wetter but decided he wanted to wear 24/7 and his mom let him. He was a kid then when he decided that. She said if he wanted to wear them in the day time, he would have to wear to school. Then he met his wife and she got into it too through him. I also wonder if Ben was gay because in the story there was a scene where he and his boss had sex during his diaper change and I remember someone leaving a comment to the chapter saying he needed to get back in the closet. I realize now this was a homophobic comment and this was 2002 so back then people still believed homosexuality was something you kept in your bedroom. This was even a leftist belief too, now it would be a right wing belief because we have evolved. Even I thought then “Do I need to even know you’re gay? Why do we need to know this?” I just didn’t care if you were gay or not but couldn’t understand why you would want to “flaunt it.” This was a story I had lost. Basically his boss had cheated on his wife and I also wonder if he might have been bisexual. Or he could have been in the closet and hadn’t come out yet.

Another favorite story I had was The Diapering Adventures of Craig. This was also posted on Bravenet and written by the same author of Ben and the Diaper Store I believe. Craig was a 25 year old man who was a high school science teacher. Because of these details about him, I pictured my own science teacher looking like him. Craig had a diaper fetish and he orders himself a case of diapers. His mom saw the package and looked and looked the name up online, I guess the package wasn’t so discreet, and she saw they were adult diapers. She goes out for coffee with her son and she asked him if he wore diapers. Craig plays dumb but his mom told him she saw the package and looked the name up online that was on the box and Craig makes up a lie. He tells her he had been having problems and has accidents sometimes. Instead his mom books him an appointment and she takes him out again but instead it’s to the doctor’s office. Doctors can’t find anything wrong so they suggest it might be stress. His mom decided to diaper him and take care of all the changes at her house during Christmas break. So there was Craig wearing diapers and his mom changing them and him having to wear them to keep his secret because he didn’t want her knowing he had a diaper fetish. Never lie to your parents folks. I remember at the end his family gives him diapers as a present because they somehow find out he liked them and didn’t have a medical problem and they accept it.

Sam and Jess, this was on daily Diapers and I read it a few years ago. I don’t know if it is still there. The forum has been attacked by malware several times so it eats away posts including stories. Sam was a 23 year old man and his wife Jess was 27. Sam was someone who was always wetting the bed and he also had a weak bladder so that meant he had to watch what he drank and go on a potty schedule and make sure he goes. But he was always irresponsible and couldn’t handle his problem so his wife Jess put him back in diapers. He eventually loses bladder control because he starts to use the diaper and I think his wife wanted him to get dependent on them too or else she would have just let him use the toilet when he needed to than making him wait. His wife might have also had a diaper fetish where she is into forced diapering and making someone wear them and use them and she just had an excuse for it and used his vulnerability because she knew he would be too weak to put up a fight. So the whole story is about him having accidents in his diaper and messing in them and her humiliating him by changing him in front of her friends. Jess also likes how the toilet stays clean now because Sam would make a mess on the toilet seat with his pee and get it all over on the floor too and he never cleaned it up. I even had it saved to my laptop but then everything got wiped off when I had viruses and the charger had stopped working so I had to take it in. My favorite part of the story was when he told him it’s fine to mess his diaper in front of her and he is always miserable when he tries to hold it and it’s going to happen anyway. Sam felt ashamed because it didn’t turn her on so she told him “Does me doing the dishes turn me on? I do them because it needs to be done.” She saw her changing them as something that needed to be done, so it’s more of a care giving role than a kink. Also Jess was happier with her husband in diapers because the bed stayed dry and the toilet stayed clean and it somehow improved their marriage. The story ends with Sam accepting he had a medical problem and needed diapers and it made his life easier.

I always like how authors will take a normal situation and put a ABDL twist to it and also take a medical issue and put a ABDL twist to it. That was why I also liked Adam’s Dark Side. You can get the book here:

To write a good ABDL story, mix it with normal issues and normal stuff with some fap and kink and make it be more than just ABDL. That always makes me like the story more. I never liked ABDL ebooks because it’s all pure fap and it lacks character development so we don’t know who this character is and don’t know anything about them. It’s all centered around BDSM, humiliation, bondage, diapers, etc. and that is all that happens in the story. But this story here was not centered around kink and it was about a man who is cursed with this fetish and tries to put it aside but he can’t and his wife won’t engage in it. He also does his kink with a friend that is also a woman but then realizes he is cheating on his wife. I got this book for free through a promotion he was doing. I think I still have it. But this is one of my favorites.

What’s your favorite ABDL story?

Slip ups

It is hard to keep the whole ABDL thing a secret without slipping up.

Over the years I had been wearing, it didn’t take long for my dad to find out because I didn’t delete a picture off his camera. I did off his computer and emptied the recycle bin. Then my mom found one under my bathroom sink because of the smell and I was taking photos of my used diapers and posting them to a yahoo group called Nasty Diapers. I was a minor then and just about to turn 18. My pacifiers have been found by my parents and my brothers because I would accidentally misplace it or I somehow left it out and didn’t realize it.

When I lived in my apartment, my diapers would be left out or my plastic pants and I would forget about them and someone would be over. Plus I would often forget about my laundry so my cloth diapers were always forgotten about in the washer so that meant neighbors saw them.

I wasn’t doing these things on purpose to be caught or discovered because I do this with normal stuff too but when you are into something uncommon or unusual, it becomes an issue because it makes it hard to hide it without anyone finding out. I am always impressed how anyone can keep anything hidden and a secret. I managed to go to ABDL websites from the ages of 15 without getting caught and then I did ate the age of 17. I was always clearing my history and closing the window curtain and kept the basement door closed so I could hear food steps and go to another page. I would keep multiple browsers open. But my parents didn’t pay attention to what I was doing online so that was why it was so easy and they weren’t randomly popping in the room without saying my name. I don’t know if I was starting to get careless when I was starting to get caught or if my parents just started to pay attention.

I have even accidentally walk around in my AB pajamas and my parents saw them, so did my son, my nutritionist, I would have them on and forget I had them on and I have even accidentally left my apartment with my pacifier or walked out of my room with it clipped on me. But luckily everyone thought my pajamas were cute. At least I have not walked out wearing only a diaper, I did that once with my underwear when I was 13. I go outside in Montana when it was very hot out to play in the creek and I feel something isn’t right. Then I discover I didn’t put my shorts on. But luckily we were in the country so not a problem, I just went back inside and put them back on and came back out.

Now today I had on my Little For Big shortalls and my WiiU disc wouldn’t play so I picked up my dirty shirt and went in the bathroom to get one part of it wet and my daughter was in the bathtub taking a bath. I realized I had just walked in there in my AB outfit but luckily she was too busy playing, she didn’t even look up and see me. I didn’t realize what had happened until after I had left the bathroom and realized what I had on. I had changed into it for my work out because it’s hard to work out in regular clothes and it’s easier to do with shorts and lighter clothing and I was feeling in the mood so AB outfit it was. I also wear my regular shirt under it too I got at H&M.

All this used to embarrass me and I got over it. No one says anything about it so I assume no one cares and if I get positive comments about it, that means no one cares so what am I worried about?

I am pretty sure my old neighbors knew I wore diapers and have figured out what unit they belonged to. But no one had ever said anything to me about it but we have gotten a couple passive aggressive notes about the cloth ones, mine and my son’s.

I live in a house now and I still forget to do laundry and forget about it. So when I wore cloth, my parents had to see my cloth diapers all the time in there and having to take them out for me and everything. Now I wear disposables and I don’t have to deal with cloth diapers anymore and the smell and I can wear all my clothes again. I think everyone was happy and we upgraded to a bigger trash can. Then the next challenge is remembering to take out the diapers. I will leave the bag out just to remind myself to take them out but sometimes I still forget. Sometimes they will be piling up outside the pail and finally I will grab a 13 gallon trash bag and put them all in there including the diapers from the pail that is full. It gets too gross I finally do something about it.

I am still wearing that Little For Big outfit but I have my robe on over it and I cleaned the laundry room because it was too messy and disorganized. It needed to be swept so I cleaned it just to sweep up all the dust and dirt and I found a bunch of trash bags and plastic bags and my old purse and clothes my daughter outgrew that need to be taken to Goodwill and I found my husband’s other diapers and I found a snow suit my kids outgrew so Goodwill pile it is. There are lot of stuff I would love to get rid of but lot of it is my parents stuff. I told my husband when they die, I will be getting rid of everything that is theirs I don’t want and he laughed. But that probably won’t be until I am in my 50’s or 60’s because they were in their 30’s when they had me, early to mid. I do want to get rid of my old PC desk and perhaps get rid of full set sheets and keep the twin sheets for my kids.

“What do you do at night?”

My son asked me this when I picked him up from school. I told him I do the computer and he asked me why I wanted him not in my bed and what do I do in there. I didn’t want to tell him I wanted my husband to change my diaper and we can’t do it when he is in there sleeping and I can’t use my pacifier when he is in there so I told him instead he needed to be in his own bed, I slept in my own bed when I was a kid, he needs to sleep in his own bed. Parents want their kids to sleep in their own beds and they want privacy.

His last day of school is this week so he asked me if he could sleep in my bed again as a last day of school present that day and I told him “stay out of my bed all this week and you can.” He gets excited and starts thanking me. Then I had to be more clear by telling him that means he also can’t be on my couch and he needs to stay out of my room and stay in his own bed at night.

I have no idea if he really takes things literal or if he is just finding loopholes to test his limits like most kids do. Now let’s see if he will be sleeping outside my bedroom door, at least he wouldn’t be in my room. I thought of that one too and decided I wouldn’t care if he decides to sleep right outside my door on the hardwood floor so I didn’t mention that.

Went without a diaper

My bottom needed airing out because it has been feeling uncomfortable, even with rash cream. There is no sign of a rash. So I decided to sleep on that Northshore Care underpad. Oh boy it was a hard night. It did not feel good to go without a diaper and luckily I never felt the urge to pee so everything was good. I guess my body was having a good night because I wasn’t getting up like every ten minutes to relieve the bladder feeling. But I kept itching down there so I kept on scratching. I don’t feel this way with a diaper on until I take it off. I also kept getting phantom feelings like I had something dripping on my skin but it was all dry when I kept feeling it and I kept feeling poop oozing out of my butt hole but that was all in my head.

I did eventually sleep and then I was woken to my alarm to get to my Disney Magic Kingdoms game to pop those blimps. I go downstairs naked and do the game and I sit on no protection. I level up 3 characters and then level up Honey Lemon. I am leveling up all my Big Hero 6 characters because I am predicting they will be used for the next upcoming event because the daily calendar rewards are giving away that legendary chest and Winnie the Pooh one. I have maxed out my Pooh characters I have. I also pop all the blimps and send their characters on their missions again and go back to bed. I am still dry on the pad so that is good and I still used the toilet but had to squeeze out the urine. Then there was no toilet paper so I dripped urine after I stood up which is pretty normal. I had to use my hand to catch any drips as I went to my room for more TP. I keep it all in there because my kids use way too much so I keep it all out of the bathrooms. I clean up the drips on my body and wash my hand in the bathroom and go back to bed.

Then I got up again a few hours later and couldn’t get back to sleep and I decided it was so uncomfortable to go without a diaper but then I also felt the urge to pee but was too lazy to get out of bed and I didn’t want to pee on myself so I held it. Then my son was in my room and I had to kick him out so I could get dressed. I also didn’t bother using the toilet again and I just put a diaper on and peed in it but it wasn’t much urine. I felt a lot better being in a diaper and I think my bottom is feeling a little better too. I guess I have gotten totally used to diapers, it’s just so uncomfortable to go without. I guess it’s no wonder why some toddlers don’t want to quit wearing them and why toilet training is so hard for parents. It was tough with my son and now he doesn’t want to wear a diaper for his leaky bowels. My online friend thinks it’s because he associates diapers with female and mom. But I am thinking it’s because my husband sometimes teases him about it because he whines and gets upset over trivial stuff and sometimes goes from being fine and all of a sudden he is screaming and crying and it happens abruptly. It’s like he had flipped the switch. My husband will say to him “Are you a baby, should we put you back in diapers, we can go to the store now and get you some?” and he is screaming “no” and then my husband tells him “Then stop acting like a baby.” Even when he shits his pants, my husband tells him the same thing “Do we need to get you some diapers? Then start eating what we give you, you are constipated because you won’t eat the good stuff.” I am now telling him “no wonder he won’t wear when he should because you shame him about it.” I am also to blame because I enabled it by doing nothing when it would happen.

You would think with his mom wearing them, he would think “diapers are not for babies” but putting myself in kid shoes, how would I feel if I was being told I am a baby for pooping my pants or for crying like a baby and being threatened to be put in diapers? Even my 3rd grade teacher used to tell his students “Do you want me to pull out a baby diaper and put it on you?” Like I say, we shame in our American culture and that was his funny way of calling us out on our behavior and telling us to grow up. I thought then he actually had a box of pampers in his closet and would pull one out and put it on us. He also would ask us if we wanted him to slap our hand like a two year old. It was always too humiliating for me to say yes so I always said no. I wondered what would have happened if I had said yes? I was in 6th grade when I realized this was all a bluff because he would have gotten fired if he actually did that. Plus other kids would play along because they would sometimes tell me he kept them in the cupboard over there or in that closet over there (which was a door to the other room) and one of them told me he once put a diaper on her in 2nd grade (he taught 2nd/3rd grade blend) so he could do it to me. I believe them back then. I am pretty sure they knew he was bluffing but I took it all seriously because I was a gullible child and took everything literal it was no wonder kids thought I was dumb and stupid or retarded or slow. So I am pretty sure that was why kids would play along with our teacher by telling me these things. Years later I discovered ABDL stories of people being forced into diapers by their parents or caregivers and I enjoyed it. Mmm could this have been the start of it, going from 3rd grade of my teacher and other kids about the diapers and my way to liking the idea of being forced into diapers? Now my husband is dong it to our son so to me this isn’t any different. I’ve shared with my son that I had a teacher who used to tell us he would put a baby diaper on us and that was his humorous way of telling us to act our age.

But yet I am also different so my son could also be thinking “mommy wears diapers because she got problems” so he could also be associating diapers with people who are different and he wants to be normal. At least it was easier to potty train my daughter.

Once I had my diaper on again, I felt like a child who was glad to be back in a diaper again. I will never go to bed without a diaper again.

Anita Trials

I first read this story when I was 15 and it became one of my favorites. Very little has been added to it since and the author has since abandoned it and has no intention of finishing it. You can read the story here: https://www.dailydiapers.com/board/index.php?/topic/10282-timewarp-anitas-trials/

I saw it first posted on Bravenet story board that was owned by James.

In this story, Anita is a 18 year old senior high school girl who is an only child who had accidentally discovered her diaper fetish when she was 16. Her parents are too busy with their lives and live their own lives so she lives hers but I assume it’s because she is pretty much grown and she has a POS car her parents had given her and she has a job so that allows her to wear 24/7.

Back when I read this story, I couldn’t relate to the character because she was older than me and had a job and drove and wore 24/7. I had none of that. Another thing about this story is she is only a DL and there is no AB element to it and she doesn’t seem to be young at heart either. She also seems to be an ordinary senior girl and she seems to only have one friend and seems to misunderstand school assignments. That part I can relate to, not understanding school assignments and having very little friends. But she still seems normal. She wasn’t special needs or anything.

But sadly the author left us hanging, it ended with her mom finding out about her diapers and she manages to take them all while Anita is at school and probably tossed them out or something. Anita has a bad day at school because she had messed up her bladder from using diapers and then she goes out on a date and she wore a diaper again but didn’t bring any extras and she runs off to the bathroom after her crush kisses her.

Now it has always pissed me off that her mother took her diapers, she was 18 and bought them with her own money and 18 is an adult. Why did her mom even give a darn? I even thought at 15 if I found out my own kid was wearing them and if they were that old, I wouldn’t even care and just mind my own business because it’s their life. They have a job, they buy them, they decide to wear them, well they can handle it then and deal with any consequences on their own if someone finds out about it. It didn’t take long for my mom to find out but she never took them from me but she made sure I knew she did not like it so it was very confusing for me. She would act supportive about it but yet then show disgust about it. I didn’t wear 24/7 then because I didn’t have the money and I knew my mom wouldn’t be pleased and I didn’t want to be dealing with her comments. Then I moved out and I worked more hours because I had a different job and I went 24/7 then and my mom wouldn’t be around to make comments about it and go “You’re wearing diaper, yuck” and saying “Oh Beth” in a disgust tone. I could be discreet about it but she would just grab me there or pat me there and make those comments. People online think this was her way of trying to get me to quit, my husband thinks so too and even Jerry thought so too when we were together. But it didn’t work and now damage has been done. Now it’s hard for me to be open about it when she brings it up because I think she is going to be critical about it and be disgusted. It will probably be years before I can fully trust her. She has tried to get me to be open about it but I won’t change in front of her or even undress in front of her because I still think she is going to be critical when she sees my diaper.

In our American culture, we shame people to get them to stop doing things we don’t like or to get them to change a behavior we don’t like. Even parents shame their kids about anything.

Then we move back in together in 2012 and I knew then “well I am not going to beg my daddy to let me quit wearing them 24/7 and I am going to be wearing them rather my mom likes it or not.” I think my mom got the hint fast when I would leave the room every time she saw the diapers because I didn’t want to hear any critical comments about it. Then all of a sudden all the critical comments were gone and everything else. I don’t know if it was a coincidence or me running out of the room each time. There is no block button so I just left the room each time. I wasn’t going to deal with it anymore. This took ten years for my mother to come around with my diapers. She had always been wishy washy about it over the years. Now she isn’t anymore and has been totally positive about it. I don’t run out of the room anymore when she sees them or makes a comment about it.

I wonder how it would have turned out for Anita in the story, would her mom have come around? Does she start sneaking diapers? Does Anita move out and live with her friend and have her diapers get shipped there than to her house? How does Anita explain to her crush why she took off to the restroom when he kissed her? Why was it even call Anita Trials? The author just left us all hanging. Just imagine if her mom came around because she saw after she took her diapers away, it made her daughter distant from her and made her rarely be at home and realized “well at least she isn’t doing drugs and isn’t drinking, at least she is still going to school and still getting good grades so I guess her wearing diapers isn’t bad after all and she made that choice and I would hate to force her away when she will be off to college next year so it’s better to have her here before she goes off to college and I will pay her back for all the diapers and pants I took from her.”

I wonder if my mother figured out her making critical comments about my diapers was pushing me away and was building a wall between us so she had decided to accept me for it. All it took for me was to decide I wasn’t going to put up with her diaper bigotry so I started to walk away, no block button but I can walk away. I guess I finally snapped.