Onlyfans cleaning out

I am now hearing they are wiping account accounts with any ABDL content in them. I was going to do a blog about it but RileyK beat me to it so you can read her page here:

Now everyone is moving to Just For Fans. When I first registered there, I was told by the website admin he doesn’t allow dirty diapers or poop or pee there and I had to confirm I wouldn’t put that stuff on my page just so he could approve me. It might have to do with the credit card companies but he does allow ABDL content there.

I have been posting my stuff there at the same time I have been putting my stuff on Onlyfans. Right when I decide to try the place again, this starts happening. But at least this time I won’t have another anxiety episode and lose my appetite from extreme stress if I lose my page again because I will know it’s been happening to other ABDL creators as well and no one is going after me. It’s just the website doing it and their computer catching banned words to trigger them to delete your profile so I had to go back and change my name and delete my whole page bio.

Another speculation is there is an incel that is going around reporting ABDL pages manually and the OF team are going and deleting them. Another speculation is the computer triggering the page deletions because of the keywords.

Having time to ourselves again

My kids will be leaving town tomorrow with my cousin to head out to Montana to meet with their grandparents while my cousin has work to do in Montana. She only came back to camp with her friends and then is going back to Montana so she had decided to bring my kids there. I am joining them in two weeks.

This means I can do more videos and I will have the whole house to myself and I am hoping my husband will join in with me making some videos. I can also wear my AB outfits around the house and even do some outside shooting. I want to make a lot of good content.

Also tomorrow is Father’s Day and I am still wondering what we shall do for that day. We still have that COVID going on and for Mother’s day we just stayed home because of everything being shut down.

The Problem Child

Anyone remember Baby Tali, she even had a geocities website with stories on it, her own and other peoples. It is still online but it’s archived.

There is one story I remember reading on there when I was 15 and I think it was the first story I had read on that site. Problem Child it was. It made me think of that movie made by Universal Pictures so the title caught my attention and I read it.

I was 15 when I read it so I found Alicia to be a unlikable character. She is mean to her sisters and cusses at them and insults them and she then got treated like a baby literally. Of course being a kid myself, I thought this was well deserved because serves you right for being a bitch to your siblings and then pretending you didn’t do anything wrong.

I read it again as an adult and well I think this was all just child abuse. I felt sympathy for the character this time and the little sister’s name happens to be Karen. Coincidence. Why the coincidence? Because Karen will push her sister’s buttons, she will intentionally do things that will make her act that way and she will tell on her and exaggerate and lie and their mother believes her. Now this is just normal sibling stuff. My children do it to each other all the time. The difference is I don’t take either side and I separate them both and make them not talk to each other or interact when they are going to be doing this. I will take anything away they are fighting about too like video games or computer or phone. When I was 15, I saw Karen as the little monster and evil and a bully forgetting that I used to do things to get my brothers into trouble whenever they touched my stuff and messed with my dollhouse or playhouse and also passing off my wrong doings to my brothers. For example, I remember one time my mom made popcorn for me and my friend and my brothers and I made a huge mess with it. My mom saw the mess and screamed about it and I said it was my brother’s that did it. I didn’t want to get in trouble because whenever my mom raised her voice, it meant a punishment was coming, either spanking and being sent to your room. What kid wants to get in trouble and be punished? No one so they are going to lie and try and pass off their wrong doings to another kid. I of course helped cleaned it up to avoid being in trouble. Now this is where the spanking debate would come in and anyone would tell me what I did was fear and why spankings don’t work. But the truth is, I would have had this same reaction with any punishment. I didn’t like being sent to bed without supper or being forced to stay in my room or having my Barbies taken away or be made to sit on the stairs or have my bike get taken or not allow anyone to come over to play with me or me not being allowed to leave the yard or even go outside. So I had learned to lie because I hated being in trouble, period. But I was a terrible liar so I was always caught with it. I couldn’t be manipulative as Karen. Plus my mom always paid attention to us and Erica never did with her kids. Kids only learn to be sly and be manipulative when their parents are lazy and buy their story over what the other child says.

Now I see Karen just being a normal child, a typical one. Not some sociopath.

But anyway I thought the only reason why Alicia was the way she is was because of their mother. Their mother was pretty abusive when it came to being grounded and getting punished. It was just humiliation stuff. So where does her mom think her daughter gets her mean behavior from?

Then it gets crazier in the story. Erica’s (the mother) sister is Donna and she is a psychologist and she is all okay with this stuff and I realize this story is basically a different dimension where all this stuff is normal and totally fine to do to a child. Also the fact they invite all of Alicia’s friends over to see her like that. Karen also takes part in it too and Erica follows her ideas even though she was only eight. That was her revenge she was getting on her sister for blocking Blues Clues on TV and screaming at her and calling her a bitch and saying fuck you. But hey, maybe that was just Alicia modeling that behavior from her mother if she treats her kids that way during punishments. Then she was expected to set a good example for her two sisters when their mom was supposed to be setting a good example for all her kids, especially when mad.

These were what ABDL stories were like back in the days, everyone lived in a world where it was normal to psychologically abuse your child by humiliating them with diapers and dressing them up as one and taking away their human rights and they are a helpless baby now. This was all common stuff I would see in the community when reading ABDL stories.

Now people write stories with a different dimension on them where everyone lives on another planet and littles and bigs are different creatures. Back in high school, there was no term age play or little or little space. Instead, the words I saw were adult baby, diaper lover, infantilism, sissy, and regression. There were no furries in the community either and I started seeing them popping up around 2004 on the xsorbit forum ran by Winz and Lil Vickie and Elizabeth before they all disappeared. I know one of them is still around but she posts under a new name.

I have no idea if the story Problem Child was written by an adult or a minor.

I remember when I was a kid, I used to say things like how my youngest brother should be treated like a baby since he whines all the time. This was before I knew of the ABDL community and before I saw these stories. I used to fantasize about it too because I wanted to have baby siblings and thought it would be fun if my parents forced my youngest to be my baby brother because he whines so he shall be treated as a baby since he acted like one.

Maybe the story was written by someone who had an annoying sibling and fantasized them being treated like a baby for a punishment like I used to fantasize with my little brother when I was 10 and 11 years old. I also remember telling him sometimes just to annoy him whenever he whined, “If you don’t stop whining, mom and dad will treat you like a baby” and I would tell him what stuff they would do to him. I think this was early signs I was into this stuff before I even knew it was a thing and a fetish.

Now being a parent, I can’t see myself treating my own children like literal babies as a punishment like I used to imagine myself doing when I was a kid.

The time I accidentally stole content

Back in the days when forums were new where you could have an account and an avatar in your profile, hotlinking was pretty common. I remember you could either upload a photo or post a url. It was the same on message boards too. You could insert link. So in games like picture association, I would look for an image to use and get the photo url and post it on the forum. I am pretty sure many people did that too then. I also did the same with my avatar photos too. If I wanted to use a personal photo, I would upload it to my photobucket and use that url for my profile picture. This was back when photobucket let you hotlink your content. It was easier that way because it would resize my image automatically for the website.

But anyway this started to become difficult as technology online evolved and got more advanced. Images were starting to get broken and so were avatars. I just thought then it was a bug or the website disappeared because it was abandoned and the owner had deleted it. I was on an autism forum and my Madonna avatar from A League of Their Own kept disappearing off my profile. I kept putting it back and I thought it was some technical issue with the autism forum itself so I kept putting it back. After about three times, the avatar turned into “No hotlinking please” and I realized this was no bug, this was the actual owner from the other website doing it or it was the admins on the autism forum doing it and they didn’t tell me they had removed my avatar or that they don’t want hotlink avatars.

On forums I have been on, moderators will not tell you when they have changed your profile or removed something in it or even tell you they had changed your post or even deleted it. To me this is a violation because of no communication. No communication, I am not going to know if it was intentional or know if I actually wrote that. If I make a post and it disappears, I am going to think “I thought I posted it but I must have forgotten or it didn’t go through” so I will post it again. Sure if a mod changes your post and leaves a note in it, that is fine because at least I know I am not imagining things or thinking “I thought I posted this, I guess not” or “I don’t remember writing that.” I guess many moderators assume people will remember what they posted or know they had done something wrong if they find their profile changed or profile image removed or post gone and stuff. That doesn’t work with me. Instead it’s like gaslighting me making me think I am crazy and I had not remembered or that I thought I had posted it but actually didn’t. If someone took something of yours and you went to get that item where you left it and it was gone, you would think you misplaced it, not think someone took it. That is what it’s like when any changes are made to my account or posts without me being notified about it. But I guess lot of people don’t know this that moderate forums.

But anyway I have learned more about online and servers. I have learned that when people have images on their website, they are paying for those images they have on their server. The more traffic they get, the higher the cost gets so they have to pay the difference which is why ads get put on their webpages. It is to help compensate for the cost so they won’t have to pay extra out of pocket. But what happens when you hotlink to their image from their site than saving it to your PC and reuploading it yourself? You are using their server and their money when you get traffic to your site and the more views that page of yours gets, the harder the server is working to load that image so it costs the website owner money. That is stealing their content but yet if you save their photo they were using and you reupload it, that isn’t stealing unless they say all their images are copyrighted.

I was actually lucky I got a polite message in my image than a nasty one. I have read there are nasty ones the webmaster would put when they change the url to shame you on your website. I am sure it was the website owner that did that to my avatar than one of the forum admins. But back then I didn’t know and knew nothing about hotlinking or paying for servers or that the more traffic they get, the more they have to pay. If you have never owned a website and never built one, you are not going to know this. I also read that people have shut down their website because of too many people hotlinking. That could explain why websites back then would disappear. But now there is a feature where you can not allow people to hotlink and I have been to sites where you couldn’t highlight any text.

But I have noticed how forums now will not allow hotlinks in profile pics so that is why I will do image uploads instead. That is what I did with diaper pics I was finding in search engines for my Tumblr and I saved them to my PC than hotlinked them. I knew it was frowned upon but didn’t know why.

Part 2 for another time I accidentally stole someone’s content despite that I didn’t take any credit.

On ADISC, someone wrote a funny story, the character was named Chris Hansen and he was a predator. He was ABDL and he was talking to underage ABDLs and trying to meet up with them but he kept appearing on a TV show that catches predators and he could never seem to learn his lesson no matter how many times he was caught and appearing on those TV shows. What was coincidental about it was the author had never heard of Chris Hansen and had never heard of the TV show either. The way the story was written seemed to be written in a satirical way and it was hilarious. So hilarious I had to share it on another website in a thread called “make someone Laugh” so I copied and pasted it and said I found it from another website and I didn’t write it.

That post was there for a year or two when out of the blue I got a PM from someone saying he was freaking out and said he had deleted the original post when he saw I posted it there and gave the url to that post for me to delete. He had registered on that site just to send me that message. I honestly didn’t understand what the big deal was and it wasn’t like I took credit for it and there was no money involved and it wasn’t like I was selling the story. But I deleted it because he had asked politely. Maybe he had mental health issues like anxiety which would explain why he didn’t take it well and why he freaked out when he saw it was reposted on another site. Honestly I would have been grateful to see my content being reposted because it means they appreciated my work so much. If it was on a freebie site, posted in public for everyone to see, it’s fine to share it just as long as they don’t take credit for it. Same as if people don’t take my photos to pretend to be me. But if it was some other post that is my opinion on something or a rant or personal experience, I will be meh about it. If someone had taken my story I had written and changed the location and town name and all the characters and genders and their dog breed they have and cats, I might leave a passive aggressive comment saying something like “I see you have enjoyed my story that you decided to take my work and do some changes to it because you seem to lack creativity” and I link to the original source of my story. The time stamps would show the story is stolen.

People copy and paste posts all the time to share and link it to the original source. People share memes all the time. People reshare photos they find. But I know if it’s something you paid for rather it’s from Patreon or Onlyfans or anything you had to spend money to see, it’s obvious you shouldn’t repost that content anywhere, same as if it was posted privately in email or PM or it’s on a protected Tweet account. But some people don’t seem to know this because I will find on their page sometimes that any content on their page may not be posted anywhere. I guess people are that stupid and pirates will just take it anyway so they don’t need to be told that. That is just for dumb people.

The time Photobucket got Greedy

I’ve mentioned capitalism and greed in one of my other posts. But I found the worst one ever online. Remember the time when photobucket decided to stop hosting images unless you paid for a premium?

The moment they made their website a paid site, I stopped using them and started to find other image hosting sites. Most websites now allow you to upload images to the website; Etsy, Ebay, web forums, now Reddit allows that feature.

I totally abandoned my account and stopped using it and only went back for my old images to use for this blog. I remember I had to re upload my images to imgur to host them here.

But what I never knew what Photobucket did was hold peoples photos as ransom and not leaving anyone the ability to download all their images. Also they did not give anyone a warning in advance that they would be changing their service and what the cost would be. They also changed their TOS and didn’t bother emailing their users and they did it three days before the massive change. Also they were vague and didn’t tell anyone what would happen if they don’t pay to host images for 3rd party sites. So when June 20th came, the internet from ten years ago was destroyed, old internet forums, blogs, everything because the majority of users used Photobucket to host images. All the images looked like this:

I saw them on message boards and it was annoying not being able to view abandon places or even old vintage photos. It also destroyed websites, bunch of Amazon and Ebay listings. Even one person had her whole entire blog destroyed because now all her pages were filled with that image and the background too she bought. It turned out the service used photobucket to host the image.

Many people were pissed and outrage because not only did they ruin the internet and old forums and blogs and listings, they held their images as hostage. It was you had to pay $399 to allow 3rd party hosting and that price is ludicrous. Microsoft only charges $69 for 1 TB cloud storage for one drive, Google Drive charges $99 a year for 2 TB or $20 a year for 100GB storage. There are so many other platforms that charge a lot cheaper than $399.

Only very few people actually paid that amount and it was just businesses that paid because it was for their business and they needed their images to show. But many people could not affords to pay that price and they couldn’t access their photos unless they paid. It caused outrage and sparked lot of discussions all over the internet; forums, Reddit, Twitter, Facebook. People were angry. I had no idea this went on because I wasn’t on Twitter then and I am not active on Facebook community and I had stopped using photobucket and was using Imgur by then.

So many people deleted their FB accounts and left their angry reason. Eventually they got a new owner and he changed things like got rid of the outrageous price, let people access their photos again so they can download them and host them somewhere else. They even decided to make it free if you keep your storage space under a certain amount. But if you go over, your images will be blurred when shared.

But here is a thing, they still let you upload as many images as you like without stopping you, it still gives you the ability to host your images without paying for a premium. You would think this feature would be unavailable to freebie accounts.

I went to my yahoo account and found two emails from Photobucket saying I was violating their TOS because I was hosting images. Yeah, all those images were from over ten years ago and I don’t even use the website so at the time, hot linking my images was fine and like I would remember where I posted my images and when I ever did them when it was so long ago.

I go to the Photobucket website and it basically held my account as hostage saying pay premium or break the links. I selected break the links. I would have been pissed if they only gave me the pay Premium option.

I looked on my account and found my infant son and me in my cloth diapers which would be from the early 2010s. I decided to just start downloading the images for in case they do delete my account and thank god I did not have many photos there or it would have been impossible to get them all off. They did not have a feature where you can select all and download. Instead you had to do one at a time.

So I downloaded each image I wanted to keep and the rest I didn’t care about. Lot of them were of me from when I was young and and I looked like a minor as a young adult and I could tell I was bigger too but it also reminded me how attractive I was then because I was younger. Now I think I look unattractive because I’m older now and have seen my face in my own photos when I would take them. My husband said I look the same but I think he is just bias. My mom looked pretty too when she was young, now she looks unattractive.

So Photobucket got greedy and held peoples images as ransom only for them to not get their money and they lost a bunch of their users. This was the worst greed ever in the wild I ever heard. Now their prices are a lot cheaper but I still won’t use them because of their demand to pay and I am not even close to exceeding my storage limit but yet I still got an email saying I am nearing my storage limit. Also the fact I can host my images for free somewhere else and I am not demanded to pay. When I am demanded to do something, I feel doing the opposite and I feel anger so I end up not wanting to do it. But yet if I am given that option, I don’t feel oppositional. Same as if I am asked politely or if someone is polite, I feel more inclined to do their request. One time someone screamed at me to shut off my laptop when I was going to work, and I just said no and refused because the fact she was a bitch about it. Also it was my personal property and she had no right to tell me what to do with my time. If she believed the computers and phones messed with her brain, move. I never like people imposing their beliefs onto me. When someone is rude to me, I feel oppositional and feel more inclined doing whatever I am doing that bothers them rather it’s them being impatient so I will take longer intentionally.

I mean seesh, being nice gives you benefits. You’d be surprised how much privileges there are when you are actually polite and how much easier customer service is and how helpful employees actually are.

I was once a Pirate, arghh

Back in 2009 I had opened a new youtube account so I could post my favorite The Amanda Show clips. It all started when I wanted to find a particular video to share online called Meet The Literals. It was nowhere to be found anywhere on youtube so when the TV show came on again, I was watching it till I found that skit so I recorded it by holding my camera up to the TV and holding it still. Then I uploaded it to youtube and shared it online. I decided to upload my other favorite clips and kept recording my favorite ones and uploading them.

I knew what I was doing was against their TOS but lot of users did it anyway and would even get away with it. I got lot of subscribers and I started to get requests so I was starting to do them when I started to get hit with copyright infringements and my video being removed. I wouldn’t upload it again. Then after several times my account closed. That was it. I wasn’t upset. I didn’t bother opening up another account again to re upload it because it would have been a pain. I wasn’t getting money for it and I wouldn’t want to anyway because it’s not right to make money off of other peoples content and back then people just uploaded content, they didn’t get any money for it until youtube started the ads thing and decided to have users make money off their content from ads. I am not sure when that started. But you need to have around 10,000 subscribers to qualify.

Why am I saying this, because I know people who steal content and re upload it probably create a new account because they know they could get caught, get a violation of the TOS and have their account be terminated. Then they can just open a new account if they want to go through all that pain again of posting everything. My husband says they also use fake names to avoid getting caught. I told him what could possibly happen to them, their accounts would just get suspended and they can open another one and re upload again.

I also used to download music from Kazaa, and that often gave you viruses because sometimes a song file would have it. I also used Limeware because it was better and a sharing program. I would then burn it to blank discs and that was how I saved money. I stopped doing it in my mid twenties when I started to find any song on YouTube to listen to. Now there is Pandora and Spotify.

Why would people buy porn and then upload it somewhere else? Because they see it as theirs and think they can do whatever they want with it. So they share it but they use a premium upload service and get money for it. They may upload it to a freebie porn site but what is worse, a premium share file site or a freebie site?

They probably see it as trading their game to Gamestop and they resell it or they do a yard sale or they go on Facebook and sell their game they no longer want. But however, that isn’t the same thing, they are not copying the game and reselling copies of it. Buying digital stuff and then reuploading it is wrong. It’s fine for your own personal use like if you upload it to your google drive or put it on a one drive folder for back up and to keep it safe because you don’t want to risk losing that video in case something goes wrong with your computer. But you don’t share it to the public. Technically that is violating the TOS but just as long as you don’t share it, video won’t get reported for abuse.

People have always shared what they bought and companies would try to tackle it. Gaming companies have decided to troll pirates when they copy their games so items get lost, graphics get all scrambled while the character keeps moving, the file will randomly erase right before you beat the final boss, game randomly crashes. Even Nintendo has done stuff like this too. In this one game, they had it be you are about to beat the game and the game freezes and when you reset the game, file is erased. All that work for nothing. That is why I will not buy pirated games and I steer clear of any games from China since they are known for selling knock off items and fake stuff. If I see a game for insanely cheap, I won’t buy it because it’s too good to be true and it can be a fake. I would rather see pirated games as previews, you play it and like it, get the actual copy. I once found a bunch of pirated games at a gaming convention and the man was just giving them away for free and lot of them didn’t even work. They were all Superman for GBA. I found one that worked and took it but I don’t expect it to functional 100%. I have even bought Wario Ware Gold at a used game store because I had it on my modded 3DS with a bunch of piracy games and I know those files can corrupt and I lose the game so it’s better to just buy the real copy. Plus I am not computer smart and not tech smart so all this is far too advanced for me. I have Gamefly for a reason and I pay $16 a month to try games and if I don’t like them, I send them back for another one. Maybe that is how pirates see it when they buy content and re upload it. They maybe see their files they share on a website as their resale store. I am guilty of buying games used because they cost less money and I like to be frugal. But I will buy the game brand new if I want it that bad. I won’t wait to get it from Gamefly to try it because it will be so popular, it will be very hard to get because it will be low availability.

Even companies that would make computer games would require you to have a book to put in a special code. Stunts was like that, and so was The Incredible Machine. But if you lost the book, you were screwed so we couldn’t play Stunts anymore when we lost the book. It was a fun game we always played.

I also remember my parents loaning out our computer games to their friends so they could put it on their computer and they would return the software. My parents also borrowed Student Writing Center from my Dad’s friend and they installed it onto their Windows 3.1 computer. That was why PC games now required discs to be inserted for programs to play. Now companies will put a feature in on their discs to keep it from playing if it is copied. Playstation did that. Some DVD players won’t play copied discs. Some won’t record movies either. I tried playing a recorded movie on my parents DVD player and the graphics were scrambled. Now I think you can buy PC games online now from Microsoft or from Apple store because I don’t see any PC games being sold in stores anymore, now they are all online. I think that was their way of tackling sharing. But there will still be pirates who will find a way to copy the game and have it uploaded somewhere else and people can download it for free.

Netflix had also tackled account sharing because they now do limited screens. You can now watch up to 4 screens because they know people will share their accounts. We share ours with my parents and my inlaws and we shared it with my brother until he decided to get his own.

As my online friend has said, pirates will always win.

Lot of people see their bought content as their own so they will repost it online. Even if they are giving credit to the person but it is still stealing because they they won’t make any money from it anymore.

Pirates are at it again

I got a DM from someone on Twitter alerting me of my messy content being posted and I clicked the url and another Twitter user had posted 3 of my videos crediting me but posted a ufl to a upload service. It costs money to be a member so you can download the content in less than 60 seconds. Ths freebie download is over an hour long.

I was mad. I do not take kindly to my content being uploaded anywhere. Advertising, yes but not reposting it. Advertising would be posting the url to my original source where I had uploaded it to.

So I mass reported the tweets and the user and posted the account on my page telling others to report the person for my stolen content. I even filed a dmca with Twitter for copyright infringement. I want all my videos removed from that page. The account got suspended. Okay. But I know he can just file an appeal to get his page back up.

Too bad Twitter doesn’t have a report tweet option for copyright infringement or for stolen content. I had to report it as spam and abuse and not interested in the page. I am sure others reported it too because it got suspended.

I saved the urls so I can report them and file a DMCA to get them taken down.

I tried to report each video but it wouldn’t let me. I could only report 1.

I heard back from their abuse team and they said my email didn’t match the domain. They even said fake accounts often come from Gmail, and 10minute emails. They asked for proof and while I was working on gathering my evidence those are my videos, I realized it was already past 4pm and I had to get to work. I knew I had work to do later after I get back from work. Even work on my DMCA report with my name and email on it too along with my other proof it is actually me.

I don’t have a problem with showing my real identity when it comes to my content being posted elsewhere. Only the hosts will see my real identity and the DMCA. They don’t care what content I do. I guess too many sex workers and ABDLs are too embarrassed to report it because then it means telling them about their fetish. But to me, all these people are anonymous so I don’t even care if they know. And if they can’t prove it’s their work, they are out of luck. You have to get creative like post you doing your original work, take videos of yourself logging into your website, show your work with your face in it, etc.

Mini “tantrum” in the store

Today is my daughter’s 6th birthday. My husband and I had ordered her a Frozen II cake at Fred Meyer. The lady there had written it down and my name and phone number and size of cake and filling and frosting. We wanted it done by Tuesday at noon.

That day comes and I go to pick it up. They were very busy and the store was crowded, many people had on masks. I tried to wear mine but my sensory issue can’t take it so I keep removing it.

I give them my name but they can’t find d the name and my husband’s name and our daughter’s. They keep asking me if I am at the right Fred Meyer. The woman in the bakery even called the other Fred Meyers and none of them had the cake.

I start to panic and I call my dad’s phone to get a hold of my husband. He confirms we ordered at this spot.

The bakers asked me if I paid for the cake and I said we didn’t. They explained I was supposed to pay and bring the receipt back to them. They also asked me when I ordered it and who took the order. I am bad at remembering names and peoples looks so I told them I had no idea.

I think they saw how frantic I was and I even said effing than fuck because I didn’t want to cuss and yell in the store. I didn’t yell at thd bakers or anything because it wasn’t their fault and the lady obviously didn’t do her job or she would have given us the receipt and tell us to pay and to bring it back and put our order in. I even asked my husband if she gave us anything and he told me no.

I don’t know if I had a panic attack or a mini meltdown in the store but it got me a free cake and they gave me Frozen cake decorations and put her name on it.

Then I wandered around the store because of the meltdown I had so I forgot for a moment why I was there and what I was doing. I eventually grabbed my energy drinks and paid and went home.

My daughter didn’t notice and thank God she wasn’t there when we ordered the cake or she would have been so upset. We didn’t tell her anything about the cake. There was no double layer with frosting in the middle and it was all one cake with one layer frosting

Just one of the annoying things about ordering cakes, they can fuck up your order, ugh. This is the 3rd time that has happened. First time, someone forgot to write down we ordered Thomas the Tank so there was no Thomas the Tank but we got the cake decorations to make it right. The second time, we paid for the cake twice, when we ordered and when we picked it up and I didn’t even know we had already paid. But these two happened at Safeway.

24/7 Challenge

All around the ABDL community, I have been seeing people talking about going 24/7 because of the quarantine and being stuck at home.

To me, there is no challenge because I already wear 24/7.

In fact my life hasn’t really change much since the quarantine because I was already a homebody.

Only slight differences that have changed for me is:

My work hours have been cut because of customers not coming into work, the day cares are closed. But the security still go to work and very few people still go in and some conferences are still held. I just go in and check the restrooms, sweep and vacuum and check the fitness center and wipe up the foot marks left by the security. I also check the conference rooms and the teachers still come to work for the daycare so I check the trash.

We can no longer go to Goodwill from time to time because they’re all closed and we have to stay home so I have been going on Facebook and browsing and I got a 2005 Desktop computer with a Windows XP for $40 and I got a Zelda Amiibo for $20. I also got the Shopkins Mall today for $50.

I sold my old Dell laptop for that price because I couldn’t do my normal stuff on it anymore because it got too slow to run. But it runs smoothly when you have the wifi shut off. But I still sold it and I wiped everything off of it which took several hours. The guy who bought it from me drove an hour to get it and he gave me 50 bucks and he booted it right up. I used that 50 bucks to get the Shopkins mall.

I am also selling my HP Stream laptop because you can’t really do anything with 32GB hard drive so I am selling it. I thought me browsing and writing would be enough but it’s not so it started to crash on me eventually, the programs would auto close, just the web browser. Plus it got too slow also. Once I shut off wifi on it, it runs smoothly now. I also wiped it out when I was going to sell it.

I also got a paper shredder for $10. I basically picked it up from the porch and the man waited till I got to my car to come outside to collect my bill. I could have just taken the thing and run off with it without leaving the money on the chair. But I think that would make me feel too bad I would have to go back and drop off the bill.

I also sold my two Sega genesis games and made $15 bucks off of it so I basically got my money back when I purchased that Disney Classes for Nintendo Switch.

Now I am trying to sell my other stuff I don’t want on Facebook since all the donation sites are closed.

So nothing much has changed for me from this virus.

Minors in Kinks, what does it mean?

Minors in kinks, it’s a relative thing to say.

Everyone has their own standards on what it means to have minors in kinks.

Someone may say they don’t involve them in it but then you see they don’t match your term of minors in kinks so you may assume they have lied.

Surely when people say “no minors in kinks” and “they should not be in kinks,” hopefully they do not mean they cannot explore them or act on it. How many of us started wearing diapers again as kids or teens? How many of us were going to the forums and reading? How many of us were reading ABDL stories as minors?

Are ABDLs really saying that minors should not be wearing diapers until they turn 18?

No, they should not go online and try and look for a daddy. If you see such an ad, report it. No they should not be doing ABDL pages, if you see it, report it.

Perhaps there should be a page for minors to understand ABDL better, actually there is, it’s called It’s a very old page and this was around back when I was in high school. It’s dated August 1995 so I can assume that is when it went up. It has never been updated, the layout is still the same. It has never expired or went off the site so obviously the owner is still paying for their domain. This is the closest resource for minors to get to for support. This page has been around back when I was still in elementary school before my school decided to get internet. I can remember it would take around 5 minutes to load a page and you needed dial up, only businesses had DSL because it didn’t require a phone hook up to use the internet in school.

I am sure there are other places that have information about infantilism and what it means.

On Twitter, someone posted a video of them with their baby sibling and people did not take it so well. They saw it as her involving minors in her kink when it was both totally separate. Obviously her sharing her baby sibling, she did not see it as involving minors in her kink because it was a vanilla post she made. She had no idea how people would see it and how they would react so she removed the videos and apologized. It did create Twitter drama. Now she has troubles doing premium content on her page because of her siblings making noise in the house and she never knows how people will take that if she posted those videos even if they were not in her room. They could see it as minors being involved. She doesn’t know how weird people will act about it.

On another website I used to go on that is now defunct, you could not have any photos of you in your profile if there were minors in the background or even if they were scribbled out. It was seen as involving them even though the photo is vanilla and not ABDL related. That is how weird people get about minors in kinks.

I have seen ABDLs get weird about ABDLs sharing their story about their history of being a ABDL because it goes back to when they were a minor and they were telling their story as a minor all the way till they were an adult. They see it as minors being involved in kinks even though they were talking about themselves. I don’t think it’s Fetlife itself that is weird about it, it’s the users on it that is or else there would be no Kinky Parents group or other ABDL groups where they talk about their childhood.

I wonder what else would be considered involving minors in kinks? Some see taking dirty diapers out of public trash cans as involving them because they’re baby diapers. To them doing it, they might just see it as a diaper.

Some see as writing fictional ABDL stories with minor characters in them as involving them. I normally skip those stories now because I find them boring. I say if you want to do it, be creative, have the story be about something else than diapers. Look at Rugrats, they are in diapers but they’re babies. There has been ABDL theme in it like when Angelica regresses on her 3rd birthday but decided being a baby is no fun and she wants to grow up so she jumps out of the playpen and breaks the pinata. Or when Stu got hit in the head and got amnesia and regressed into a baby. I doubt the company is ABDL but if an ABDL did it too with their stories, it should also be fine because there would be no difference between a vanilla and a ABDL doing it.

What does it mean for me for involving minors in kinks? I would say it would mean the person decides to put diapers on kids for non medical reasons. They also decided to have kids change their diapers or they go online and seek out minors in ABDL and start talking to them about ABDLism or they talk about their diapers to minors online and direct them to their ABDL pages. That is involving them.

There was a time when someone decided to have her kids take care of her as a baby. They were changing her diapers and stuff and then someone found out and called CPS and they were taken. That was involving them. I think I have talked about this here in my blog before. A friend told me about it.

If you walked up to a child and showed them your diaper intentionally and made sure they would notice it, that is involving them.

What it means to involve minors in kinks is relative. Because people have their own terms on what things means means I don’t understand what they are even saying when they say it unless they mention the specifics. Someone involves minors in kinks, okay, define it, what do they do that involves them? I want to see their page, their profile, their posts so I can see what you mean by they involve them. I won’t blindly believe your word. I want to be sure we are on the same page here.

And of course there are ABDLs who are Jerry about it so they will get weird over minor things when there are no minors involved there. “Oh, I just noticed a baby picture in the background, you are involving your kink, I’m gonna block you now.” If that happens, good riddance I will say because it means I have one less idiot to interact with.

I guess I have to always investigate first when I hear about someone involving kinks in minors to be sure they aren’t Jerrying lol.

But if a parent decides to discuss ABDL with their child, I don’t see how that is any different than a parent discussing regular sex with them when they have questions. If a kid is ABDL and they have questions about ABDL, talk to them about it. No one should be discussing sexual fetishes with minors, that is the parents’ job or their guardian, same as for sex.