Positive things the Corona Virus has done

Gotta think positive as I was always told when bad stuff happens.

  1. We have been saving money on gas so I still have gas in my car about 1/2 when I normally fill it about 2-3 times month, I think 2 now that both my kids go to the same school.
  2. We have been saving money on school lunches so we have extra $110 a month and plus that money they still had on their lunch account will still be there when school resumes.
  3. My kids have been playing outside now, they are stuck at home and can’t go anywhere so they have been playing outside on the swing set and running around and eating outside and playing with the dog out there we have been watching on week days.
  4. More jobs have opened, now with high demand now in food and products and more people buying online and ordering pizza and take out, places have been hiring more workers. So if you have been laid off, go out and apply if you need money.
  5. Taxes deadline have been extended and so has the local Art Tax.
  6. Some places are putting mortgages and foreclosures and evictions on hold.
  7. People don’t have to return their library books to our local library and there will be no late fees either. They do not want any books being returned either until after.
  8. Parents will be able to spend time with their kids and do stuff at home together. Me and my son played video games yesterday.
  9. Fred Meyer is doing sales, I mean what the heck, this is a crises and they are doing sales to encourage people to shop for wants? I am not sure how I feel about businesses using this virus to make more money.
  10. Onward got released early to home video; digital and on Disney Plus.
  11. Gameloft decided to gift us Disney Magic Kingdoms players 3 Sapphire chests due to the quarantine so that got me to welcome Laurel earlier.
  12. Video game sales have increased and so has alcohol.
  13. No more rush hour in my area.
  14. I was able to go across the street from my house and mail my Gamefly game in the mail box because of less cars on our road. I didn’t have to get in my car and go to a blue mail box 2 miles from my home to mail it off.
  15. Pedestrians can now order at the drive thru.
  16. People have found “clever” ways to have fun at home, hashtag “stuckathome” on twitter.
  17. More houses are being cleaned by the homeowners or tenants.
  18. Places like Facebook, ebay, Amazon have banned price gouging so they will remove any listing doing it. Report if you see it.
  19. And of course this will become part of our history and might be like The Great depression except it was caused by a virus we knew nothing about and no medicine had ever been made to treat it and how people didn’t take this seriously so they kept going out, got infected and got sick and some of them died. The ones who did go out and work would be seen as heroes.

Things I am hoping that will happen thanks to this virus:

  1. People will realize how being a store clerk, stocker, packager, working in the kitchen is just an important job as any other job out there.
  2. People will realize how important national healthcare is because shit can happen and you need medical care when something happens that is out of your control
  3. People will realize what an idiot Trump is and how incompetent he is as a president and down playing this virus and hopefully people will vote against him this coming election.
  4. All bills get put on hold and it will only apply to people who have lost their jobs related to this virus and they would need a letter about it. Capitalism will resume when this all blows over.
  5. People learn how to have fun at home and learn they can interact online like on Skype or on Facebook or talk on the fricken phone again. Maybe people will get landlines again or go to a phone plan with unlimited minutes.
  6. More movie releases will happen digital and go on stream or go on cable or satellite to rent because all the movie theaters are closed.
  7. People might change their perspective and how they feel about working from home and it stops being stigmatized.
  8. More places outlaw price gouging, 34 states already have a law against it so far but that only applies to emergency situations and for certain products. I also hope airlines will stop being allowed to do it too.

And there is the bad too and other possible changes this virus might do. I get a feeling the state gov. will shut down our state and order everyone to stay home and fines will be given if caught in the streets unless you have a good reason to be out like if you have a doctor’s appointment, if you need food or if there is some emergency or if it’s business related. People just won’t stay home and they are treating this like it’s a vacation and early summer break. I don’t know if I should call this a positive change because this may only happen because of people being ignorant and this wouldn’t have to happen if everyone just stayed home and businesses would close on their own because of lack of customers. The country or state wouldn’t be forcing them to shut down. Some business have shut down on their own because they want people to stay home, not encourage them to keep going out and they don’t want to spread the virus and get their own workers sick.

Some towns on the beach have already shut down basically by closing all their hotels and resorts and camp and RV sites and telling everyone to get out or be arrested because people wouldn’t stop traveling there to vacation. But sadly that will just move them. If all small towns did that, then people wouldn’t be able to travel and they would stay home, same as if all the hotels shut down all over the states and resorts, everything. Then people wouldn’t be able to travel because of no place to stay. I am sure their intention was to get away from people but instead lot of people had the same idea and all went to the coast only to be spreading the virus there so now people there are mad and had an emergency meeting.

Look, if you want to be away from everyone, STAY HOME. It’s that simple.


The whole world is pretty much shutting down and my parents have quarantined themselves because of their age and my mom has a weak immune system. Her birthday is pretty much cancelled because they are doing nothing for their birthday but I am thinking of getting a cake or something for them.

My brother has his wedding in September and it’s too soon to tell. But so far my state has shut down the schools till April 28th so I like the fact I don’t need to get up at 6 anymore but I wonder if my son will still have his therapist appointment this Friday. I will still make them do school work so they are still getting their education in. I honestly think school work should be mailed to each student so they won’t get far behind and won’t have to cancel summer vacation. Just today I hear all the restaurants and bars got shut down so basically St. Pat’s Day was cancelled and they even cancelled the Shamrock Run.

I went to my Union meeting this weekend and only very few workers showed up and they had chairs spread apart and they had so much snacks left over, they told us upon leaving to take as much as we want.

People are being laid off now and some workers are lucky to have the privilege to work from home. I am lucky to even still be working despite that daycares had shut down but if people stop coming into work and work from home and they cancel all conferences, there won’t be any more work for us and and I am planning on applying for temporary work at Amazon or at a grocery store or department store with food since they are in high demand for more workers because of the pandemic.

But I am so glad there are still diapers available and people aren’t panic buying diapers that ware houses can’t keep up but there are shortage on wipes. Luckily you can still buy some on Amazon but all the Pampers and Huggies are all sold out.

This Sunday we got snow and I was honestly hoping for a few inches so the city will shut down so everyone will stay home. But once the flakes stopped, the snow melted and now everything is dry again and zero snow. My kids got to play in it while there was still snow and they made a tiny snow man before it all melted. I even went to the store in the heavy snow and got some baby wipes and they were all out of cases. All they had were packs so I grabbed 3 small packs and an energy drink and went home and ordered a 16 oz container of Desitin on Amazon since I was running low on it.

I honestly think people are over reacting and even medical professionals are saying healthy people don’t need to wear masks. Even they are saying people are over reacting and Dr. Phil is saying the same too. While I am fine with places shutting down, I still think the way people are panic buying is an over reaction. It’s not like stores will sell out or that they will all shut down, people will need food, people will need toiletries.

I am not really scared of getting this virus and if I do, I will get over it and won’t die, I think it’s the elderly and those with weak immune systems that really need to worry. While I am not going to places but store and work, I am still carrying on with my life. Heck, people are still going out and doing stuff in my area because it is not a ghost town here and there are still lot of cars on the road and when I went to my Union meeting, there were still lot of people downtown but the hotel I used to work at was all bare and empty and even the restaurant there was closed and the market there too. Then after the meeting I just went straight home. The media sort of got to me because I don’t want to help spread the virus and have my parents get sick if someone is carrying it and I happened to go near them and I carry it and bring it home. The whole thing is making me think of the movie Outbreak.

My parents are still planning on going to a friend’s house and just hang out and play a board game. Even they are not too freaked out and my dad had always told me since 6th grade “worrying is a waste of time” so that is why I am just taking it a day at a time and not worrying about this virus going around.

Some people are acting like this is the end of the world and I wonder if this is the beginning of Life After People because scientists have said humans can die off someday due to some virus and I am thinking well if that happens, why worry, worrying is a waste of time and won’t make it not happen if it does.

One thing I find strange is scientist have been saying how someday we will have this huge Mega Earthquake or how someday Mt Hood could erupt and no one has freaked out about it and made it into a crises like they are with this virus. I know it’s the media that’s been doing it so people are really scared and having anxiety. But at least they are helping people get jobs that have lost their jobs already. Some money is better than no money. Some people are so freaked out about the virus, they are going to the hospital over minor things like a couch or a sniffle which I think is wasting doctors time because there are people out there who could be really sick and need to go in or have some sort of emergency so doctors need openings for those people. I cough all the time and sneeze and have sniffles and I am not going to the doctor.

The “coming out” argument

From time to time I will see gruff posts in the ABDL community about coming out as an ABDL and they see it as comparing it to LGBT and I just saw a thread about it again about last week.

Many of us are aware that being ABDL is not like being LGBT but that still doesn’t minimize the struggles of being a ABDL. We also don’t pick this either or else many of us would have stopped. But we have heard about binge and purge cycles and many of us have also gone through it. I never tossed everything out and then buy it over again. I have never blocked anyone online for being ABDL just to move on. But all these things have happened in the community with others.

No ABDL has ever been murdered for being ABDL.

No ABDL has ever been beaten up for being ABDL.

No ABDL has ever been denied marriage or an adoption for being ABDL.

There have never been any laws against ABDLism. I am not aware of any country that has a law against it either.

But people have been harassed for being ABDL, people have lost their jobs or custody to their ex for being ABDL. All it takes is ignorance.

Oh and kids have been forced into therapy to get over their ABDLism and we all know how successful that is.

While I have written before that being an adult ABDL is a lot easier than being a kid ABDL, it is not easy being a minor with it.

You will have to deal with parents who don’t understand it. Imagine being 12 and you have been going to ABDL sites. Your parent catches you. Now if it had been regular porn, your parents will be able to explain it all to you and have the talk about it and explain all the common kinks but what if your porn was ABDL because you had been into it for a while and you had discovered there are people out there who are also into it. But you get caught with it, your mom does not take it well so she tells you how sick and twisted this all is and how it’s all disgusting. You as the child think you are sick and disgusting and twisted. Now you have all this shame and you can’t talk about it to your school counselor or therapist because you don’t want them to think you are sick and twisted and disgusting. You have no support. You may even think you can get over it by pretending you are not into it so you lie to yourself.

As adults when we are told these things about our fetish, we understand that is just their opinion, they are ignorant so we are not affected by their words but when you are a child, you don’t understand this because they are the adult, adults are always right, they are your teacher. Everything they say are facts and the truth. So these words have affect on you and your self esteem. You are a sick and twisted person and a horrible one but you can’t go to anyone about it because they will think this of you. Your parent had just insulted you and told you how sick you are. So you keep it bottled up inside.

Kids have been disowned or kicked out of their homes for being ABDL, their stuff has been taken from them and thrown out because their parents didn’t approve.

We all know what happens when we try to suppress this about ourselves. Even I have written about before what it was like when I wasn’t acting on it.

Now people don’t need to know about our bathroom habits or what underwear we wear and if anyone finds out about our diapers, we still don’t need to “come out” because we can pass it off as a medical issue and people are not going to say anything when they discover your diapers. I am talking about random people here and co workers and your boss. Your kids don’t need to know about your life style and what their mommy and daddy do in their bedroom or when they are at school or when they are visiting their grandparents or out with their grandparents. They may find out about your diapers but that is it, it’s not like you are walking around in the house wearing nothing over it. I think when they are infants and small toddlers, that isn’t an issue because they won’t remember it. But once they start to show awareness of what is happening around them is time to not do it around them. Some will be a year and a half when you need to stop or some might be older than that.

If your parents discover your diapers, you will need to “come out” because you would want them to know you are not having any medical issues (parents worry about their kids) and you just like wearing them. Plus there will be the smell in your clothes, on your bed, in the trash, so they are going to think you are having accidents and may confront you about it and may start their snooping and even start looking in the trash because they are your parents and parents worry about their kids and they may think you are too embarrassed to say anything. So we will see posts online asking how they can hide their diapers or dispose them. If they “came out”, they wouldn’t have any of these issues. If their parents just accepted, there would be no issue here.

Hiding ABDL from your room mates or your family, people you live with is stressful. I am not saying we should all use our pacifiers or sippy cups or bottles in front of people or openly wear our AB clothing but all these things will eventually be discovered because trying to keep it put away all the time is stressful. Someone is going to find it in your room. If you have a AB nursery, you simply keep that door closed but someone who is nosey could find that room. Even if you lock it, you could forget to lock it one day and that secret room is discovered and how will you explain to guests why they can’t use that spare bedroom? You could call it your study but how will you explain why they still can’t sleep in there? Maybe call it your office and see if that works.

For some ABDLs this is something they do from time to time but for other ABDLs this is something often done so it’s going to be harder to keep it hidden because there will be slip ups and you will forget to put stuff away, especially if someone comes in your room. Even if you do keep it put away, someone in your home could still be looking for something and they find your baby bottles or your kiddie cups and dishes, how do you explain that when you don’t have a child? If you happen to have kids, you can pass that off those dishes belonged to your children of if you have grand kids, you can pass that off for your grand kids and you don’t need to explain anything. If you have kid movies and kid shows and have toys, you can pass that off as being child like and toys are your collectors items. But if they are baby toys, how will you explain that? If you have a room full of toys, how will you explain that?

Mindlessly diapered who has her own websites made a youtube video about being out as ABDL and she simply is honest about herself when her toys are seen and baby stuff and they always think she has a kid and ask where is the baby and she goes “I am the baby.” And lot of people don’t care. She has also gotten hate too for her lifestyle because she lives it 24/7 but she has a job and pays her bills. If she had kids, things might have been worse. But I am sure she wouldn’t be all open like that if she had any and wouldn’t be putting out as many content. That is just common sense. I am also sure her wearing AB clothing and her talking in a babyish voice and acting all immature is just for the videos. Also common sense to make that assumption. I also doubt she goes to work as a ABaby and talking in that voice and acting all immature.

But seriously when you get over the fear of people finding out about your lifestyle, you’re free. In that sense you “come out” when your items are discovered or your diapers if they ask you about it and it can’t be passed off for anything. You can choose to be honest or just lie but many people suck as lying and the truth always comes out so why risk it?

And there is a reason why I don’t have a AB nursery, can you guess why?

Onlyfans deletion a Blessing?

You know how bad things happen and sometimes it becomes a good thing because something positive happens.

My mom jokes how a medical situation in her family brought them all back together and her and her oldest sister are speaking again. I had no idea they were acting estranged despite living so close together.

Another time I was in a car accident when a young guy around my age at the time pulled out in front of me so I T boned him thanks to the roads being wet, I ended up with a hole new hood and the scratch an animal had put on it was gone.

If it were not for me meeting Jerry, I might not have met my husband.

If it were not for me having a miscarriage, my son wouldn’t have been born.

After Onlyfans deleted my page, I moved onto Patreon and Manyvids and Scatshop. I decided it was time I learn to try and learn video editing so I looked up different video editing programs and all of them were crap but that is what you get for freebie. So I bought Wondershare and did a one time purchase since I found it easy to use and had the blur mode in it too. Plus videos don’t corrupt in it. I also learned to watermark and I use a free program for that, Paint 3D I use and I can upload it on wondershare and put it on the video.

If Onlyfans decided one day they made a mistake and it was their computer that rejected my page and they decided to look into it and give me back my account, I might not even go back to it because I had move on from it. I mean what would I even put there? Same content? Besides I liked having tiers. Maybe if enough people keep asking me about my Facebook or Instagram I might add that as a tier but make it be costly because it’s my personal one and I don’t think anyone is going to want to pay a bunch of money to add me as a Facebook friend or to know my name on Instagram to follow me just to out me as a ABDL to put ABDL stuff on my page. But that is something I always fear so I never given out my personal social media. I won’t even put the same photos there I had put on Twitter or the other way around. I know a simple image search can bring you to the website it’s been posted at and I know someone on my FB friends can do a image search and find my Twitter page.

But anyway I had found lot of bad reviews (google “Onlyfans are scammers”) about it and they are on Twitter too and some on Reddit. I even remember someone emailing me telling me to take their email off my list because they unsubscribed from my page and they are still being charged. Sadly I had no control over it because I have no way of seeing my fans email address so I told him to contact Onlyfans. But this seems to have been an issue with other users before, they unsubscribe from a page and their card would still get charged by Onlyfans. Plus people complaining about never receiving their payouts. People were even saying how they never responded to their email for weeks or for over a week for a problem they were having.

I do admit I do get some anxiety that I am going to log onto my Patreons and see my page is randomly suspended. I have heard of ABDLs losing their pages but just as long as I am not doing any lewd things, (nudity is fine) not having any sex toys or doing any masturbation or any sexual acts I should be good and not showing any open scat. I know someone who got her Patron page suspended but got it back up a week later but she had to remove all her messy content so that is why I am not doing any messy diaper changes on Patreon. I have seen other ABDLs on Patreon provide lewd content for high price tier but let them risk it.

I just have to remember that getting suspended is just normal stuff and part of being a creator. How many times have I heard any creators say out there they had their account suspended so they had to get it back or had their social media suspended? A lot. But that is more likely to happen when you do controversial stuff. Then you are going to have to file an appeal to get unsuspended.

Wow, this is crazy

I wonder how rare it is for a website or any play to close your account randomly and maybe I had rolled that dice. So I google “my account was closed randomly” and I get results about banks closing your account.

I started reading a few Reddit threads about it and I find if you open a new bank account and out too much money into it, it can randomly close it because it could look suspicious. If you are all of a sudden earning lot of money from commissions or from your website, they can cost you your bank account because it looked suspicious and banks don’t want to take any chances.

So what did I learn here folks? You can get punished for your Onlyfans page, you can get punished for your youtube channel, you can get in trouble for your Patreon page or from other commissions if it is giving you too much revenue because it looks suspicious to your bank.

I have a new theory about if the real reason why my Onlyfans account was terminated was because it was booming all of a sudden and it looked suspicious. I put my subscription price on sale because I saw others were doing it so I decided to jump on the band wagon and I got even more people joining my page. I wonder if that raised suspicion so they thought I was doing something wrong and terminated my account because they didn’t want to take chances.

I also wonder if this is why some Patreon creaters limit how many people can join their Patreon page because they don’t want to raise suspicion to their bank. I might have to add that feature too if I get too many people joining my page. I don’t want to lose my bank account or else it will cause me lot of stress, why? Because I would have to go to my work headquarters to stop my automatic deposits and I would have to sit and wait to see someone to change my payment method from automatic deposit to paycheck. I would also have to go to the Social Security office to also change my payment method and the wait there is long and can be several hours. This would all have to be done while my kids are in school. Also my husband would have to go online to stop the automatic withdrawal.

This all made me glad I have a credit card with a different bank, a JC Penney credit card and a savings account with a different bank. People were saying in their comments this is why they have different bank accounts and credit cards for back up for in case this stuff happens. Some even said they keep some extra cash in a fire safe.

So you can actually be punished for earning more money and if you get too many people joining your page, it raises alert for fraud alert. Instead of investigating, they close your account instead. Maybe this is why I lost my page. Too many people joined it and it put me on the list for fraud alert and bam, account terminated. It went from 30 fans to 68 fans fast in a week all because of that sale price I put.

Since joining Patreon and creating my page and based on the emails I get from them that indicate they want to help you build your page and get Patreons, I don’t think they are going to randomly suspend my account if it jumps high in Patreons in a week. Maybe 30 new fans in a week was too suspicious for Onlyfans. I wonder if that will look bad to Patreon too if that many people decided to join my page and it all happened in a week.

So there you have it people, possibly too many people joining your Onlyfans all at once and too close together can actually cost you your page.

Also how are you supposed to fight back or even sort things out if they don’t tell you why they closed your account. Mistakes happen and I had a friend who was denied a loan for a house and she was given the reason why and when she saw this couldn’t be right, the bank worked with her and they found out their mistake, someone in Florida has the same name as her and she had bad credit and they got her name mixed up with hers and this took her like 3 weeks for her to sort. If they hadn’t told her why they denied her a loan for a house, she would have never known this and she would have walked with bad credit and not know about it because of some mistake.

Same thing has happened with my mom as well. She and my aunt (my uncle’s wife) have the same name and the same middle name. It’s crazy and they were both born in Wisconsin. But they have different maiden names. But anyway my mom had found out one time the banks had put her credit history and her sister in laws all together because of the same name and my mom also had to sort that out. They have different birth dates and different social security numbers and this still happens? Just shows how people lack detail.

So I find if I do withdrawal too much from my Patreon page because I am taking precaution in case it gets terminated randomly, I can lose my bank account but if I don’t do withdrawal often and I only do it once a month, I am still at risk losing that money so there is no win here. I guess I would rather lose that money than go through stress if we lost our bank account because it would create roadblocks and lot of inconveniences and give me anxiety because of the change.

If I knew why my page was terminated, I wouldn’t have had to change my name online, hide how many Patreons I have on my page and my earnings per month, or even think I was targeted and they got me suspended somehow because of how lazy Onlyfans is, and now I am thinking too many people joining my page too close together got my account terminated so I might need to limit how many Patreons can join my page and raise it gradually every few weeks so it won’t raise suspicion and go through this again? I don’t know if Patreons suspends accounts when they get suspicious if too many patreons join a page so close together and it would be a pain to get it reinstated. I already know computers tend to suspend accounts so you have to file an appeal and a real human looks at it and gets your account reinstated. But Onlyfans doesn’t care to do that which makes them a bad service to use.

Because I don’t know, I am taking every precaution I can think of to avoid it from happening again. I even checked my IP address and looked at if it’s on the bad list and if that got me suspended. Another precaution I had taken. I even started using a VPN but then realized that isn’t a good idea or else that will raise suspicion and I would hate to be blocked on websites due to suspicious activity. So I keep that turned off and my husband should get rid of that program because we don’t need it. I also don’t think it’s a good idea to use VPNs for your accounts online because that can get you suspended for suspicious activity. If you travel often, I would be concerned about going to the same websites under your account.

Edit: I must say I have been noticing when you decide to log into your account, some places make you log into your email account to verify it is you. I like it because I think this will keep you from being banned or blocked by mistake. I guess when you clear your cookies, it also clears your IP so the system sees your IP as a whole new IP and you have to verify it again.

I am finally feeling better. I have started my Patreon page but haven’t launched it yet. I am still trying to figure it all out and I have decided on tiers. I was told they do not allow any messy content because someone had to take their messy content off their page to get it back up again. So messy diaper changes would be out of the question. I know some other ABDL does them but let her take that risk. Maybe she hasn’t been targeted yet and Mindlesselydiaper was. She was the one who told me this. Someone already paid me money to show my used diaper content until I get my page started so I will be taking photos of my used diapers and sending them to him via Twitter DM. I wonder if Paypal will call this sex work but he sends me money through friends and family so therefore I get all my money and Paypal won’t know where that money is from and what it is for. I told him my idea for Patreon and he liked it and said he would join my page.

But I find you have to submit your page for review when you are done so I assume your page does not appear to the public until they see it so I don’t know if they will allow this tier. I plan on a tier for used diaper content only and the diapers will be rolled up and closed, not opened. Not all ABDLs are into this which is why if they don’t select this tier, they won’t see any of this content. I don’t always post my open used diapers on Twitter for a reason because not everyone is into it just like I don’t want to see any dicks and pussies so when someone keeps on liking it too much or posting it too much, I unfollow them. I don’t want it on my feed. What I do want to see is diaper content and used diapers too and cute things. I am not into art and furries but if someone posts it too much, I unfollow them. It’s all about balance.

It took me 3-4 days to get approved for some other website that is like Onlyfans. The reason why it took the owner so long was because of my diaper fetish and he had been hesitant to approve me. He sent me an email after I deleted all my content and video and photos saying this and explain he had a bad experience with my fetish and told me they didn’t allow dirty diapers, scat and urine. He asked me I need to tell him I won’t post that content on my page before he approves me so I promised I won’t put that stuff there. I got approved.

So far I have not posted anything again yet but I will leave that page for back up. Clearly he isn’t a ABDL bigot because he is fine with age play and all and he only said he didn’t allow dirty diapers so no way does that indicate he hates us and sees us as sickos and pedophiles. He just has his own preferences and it’s his website so he gets to make the rules and what he wants on there. He clearly doesn’t hate people wearing diapers either, he just doesn’t want to see any used diaper stuff. He never said anything about clean diapers so clearly he is okay with diaper content just as long as you can’t see it being used and if it’s unused.

With Patreon, I see you can’t just upload a video there, you can use vimeo or use a url to a video of yours so that means I would have to use another service where I upload my videos too. I have youtube but the issue is youtube has their own policies on content and it doesn’t matter if you set them to unlisted, some troll can join my page and mass report my videos on youtube to try and shut me down again. In order to keep trolls from trying to take you down, you have to follow the policies religiously and it doesn’t matter what others are posting because let them take risks. This is why I haven’t launched my page yet because I still need to figure out what content I should put. I am sure my used trash would be fine but not diaper changes since it would involve nudeness. I see nothing on youtube saying you can’t post videos of you taking out the trash and they would be in the trash bag tied up. But me changing my diaper would be out of the question to put there because it would contain nudity and that would leave it for trolls to report it to shut me down again.

I feel like I am jumping through hoops here because it means I have to figure out where to upload videos and look at guidelines to protect myself from trolls. It doesn’t matter if the videos are set to private. It’s their platform and they make the rules so they are not going to care if your videos were restricted to who can view it via link. If you violate their TOS, they can terminate your account or suspend it. Trolls use the TOS to shut you down.

The problem with Onlyfans is their TOS is very vague so that means anything you do on it can violate their TOS. Like I can go on someone’s ABDL page and expect to see open messy diapers because they wrote in their text that they mess their diaper and I subscribe to see it but see they never take their diaper on and they only stay in the diaper and they keep grunting and pushing and then they go downstairs and lay on the coach and read a book, I could report that page and say how it was misleading and call it fraud and I have this BS claim and bam they shut the page down and suspend the account because it says in their TOS you cannot have anything misleading.

Another thing they have in their TOS is, “content that causes annoyance, inconvenience, or needless anxiety or is likely to upset, embarrass, alarm, or annoy any other person;”

This can apply to nudity and I can mass report pages that show breasts and dicks and sexy clothing and underwear. So clearly they don’t care about creaters, they care about subscribers. Just like how ebay will protect buyers most of the time so that means buyers can scam sellers and win the claim against them because of their BS story. But sellers can also scam buyers too. I once ordered Shopkins Kinstruction sets on ebay from toysrus and they only shipped two of them but the rest never came. I also saw they shipped to another location and said they arrived at my home. An employee may have changed the address to my orders and I never got my money back when they said they would refund me when I called them. I even talked to poaypal and they said since I got it on ebay, file a claim on ebay. Because I didn’t know what dispute to open, they auto closed it because it showed they had been delivered. I also was not able to leave negative feedback for them either because it showed they arrived. I called ebay and the woman was nice to refund my money and told me it was a one time thing. Two months later, toysrus was totally going out of business. So it’s possible an employee at the warehouse purposely tampered with my order because they were losing their job and they didn’t care. But anyway never order electronics on ebay or order from anyone with lot of negative feedback despite having lot of good feedback too. It’s very common to order a phone or a computer and have it be shipped to the wrong address because it’s a common scam which is why I never want to buy phones online or laptops and buy from a legitimate company, not from a third party seller. My husband has ordered his gaming computer over the phone or from the Dell site because they are legitimate. It is no surprising Toys R Us went bankrupt because their customer service was always so shitty.

Also it clearly states in Onlyfans TOS they can suspend your page at any time and no reason given so that means they can just randomly shut you down and you hear nothing from them about it. That is what happened with me, it was all random it happened. I know other websites have this in their Terms too because I know this is just something they put in there to protect themselves from lawsuits. But no one thinks they are going to just randomly shut them down if they are not doing anything against the TOS. Same reason why we see dumb warnings on labels and you wonder who is going to do that but they just put that there for liability. When I got my son a swingset from Costco when he was 2 and it also came with a fort and a picnic table, the instructions were basically telling you how to play on the equipment and how to play on the slide but I knew this was all done for liability. Also websites do not have their phone numbers listed for a reason, why? Because they don’t want people mass calling them and tying up their phone line and wasting their time because they shut down their account for unknown reason or because they didn’t agree with their reason or because they were violating their TOS and they didn’t like the consequences and they also don’t want other people calling them for that person tying up their line.

But places that have their TOS be vague and then refuse to assist you if you unknowingly violated their TOS makes them a shitty service. Now youtube has pretty clear guidelines about what they don’t allow on their website. Patreon has pretty clear guidelines too, they just said they allow nudity but not sexual stuff like masturbation and sexual intercourse. So if I were to do diaper changes, I must not pleasure myself during my changes and just do the clean up and put fresh diaper on and done. But I can’t put that video on youtube due to their policy and I don’t want to risk it.

My impression with Onlyfans is you can pretend to be offended or upset with any content you see as a way to get that person’s page to shut down. You can say anything is obscene, like I see a penis, oh I am gonna report it for obscene content because it’s in their TOS. You didn’t show me your naked breasts because you have censored out the nipples, I am reporting it for misleading content even though it’s not their fault I got that impression. So I am going to say no model on there is protected from false reports from subscribers. They will always side with the subscriber.

And the fact they make their TOS so vague, it makes anything you put on your page violates their TOS but that is up for the subscribers to decide and up for how the Onlyfans staff want to apply the terms. So I will never recommend them to anyone for paid content because of this risk.

It’s been over a week now since the page shut down and I still have not heard anything yet so hopefully everything will be fine and my money is still mine forever. But the rest that was still pending and the rest that was ready to be withdrawn is all gone which is what we call a legal scam.

They also say in their terms that you will not slander them? Is this their way of saying “you will not give us a bad review about our company and tell anyone your bad experience with us.” Sorry but if I am wrongfully terminated because of trolls and you can’t be bothered to investigate or allow people to file appeals and can’t be bothered to have clear guidelines, I will not shut up about this and your terms no longer apply because I am suspended and IP banned from your site so I no longer care about your terms of use and they no longer apply to me because I am not using the website. Also I am protected by freedom of speech here in the US.

Vague TOS just indicates the company doesn’t give a shit about their users and they will just randomly shut people down for no given reason just because they can. They may pretend all they want on their social media page they care about their customers. Any company can make themselves look good and people who have not had a problem with them yet will not have anything bad to say. No one wants to believe you can be terminated randomly until it happens to them. I have had it happen to me before so I believe it. I have had lot of my yahoo accounts close out of the blue so I have lost online friends that way because I couldn’t remember how their yahoo ID was spelled. Because this was a normal thing for me, I started to write down each yahoo ID on my YIM list in my notebook so I can re add them again and not lose contact with them. Surprisingly this hasn’t happen since my senior year of high school so I have been using the same yahoo account ever since. I also dropped yahoo groups and stopped interacting in them so that could be why. I might have written something someone didn’t like so they mass reported me and maybe sent their friends to do it and bam I am shut down. I didn’t write anything political or hateful. I have had my accounts closed when I hadn’t even posted anything in a yahoo group so that was always very strange it happened. It’s been suggested by my online friends someone must really hate me. Then they gave up and left me alone. When they would delete your yahoo account, you were not able to log in for one and if you signed into messenger, a message would pop up saying your account had been closed for security reasons. Even back then they had no number listed but you could still reach them via email so I did that and I never heard back from them. Back then yahoo was a crappy service and I remember when many people in the ABDL community saying they don’t use them.

I remember when they all went Jerry, they deleted all the ABDL groups and accounts associated with it so I am not gonna lie and say this isn’t why I lost my account, I lost my other accounts that were not associated with ABDL so that is why it was all random that they were closed. They decided that ABDLism had something to do with minors. That was because back then many ABDLs were stealing photos of minors in diapers from other places and putting them in ABDL groups even though they were not meant to be sexual and I saw nothing sexual about diapers then and kids wearing them. All those groups got shut down including adult ones too without minors in them and Yahoo banned anything ABDL but left up Overcoming Infantilism yahoo group. Can you really blame Yahoo for their confusion on ABDL? I can’t.

So there you have it, back then it was very easy to get accounts shut down for any BS reports and lies. Now today it is very difficult to do when you aren’t doing anything wrong and it takes more than one report to do it and it’s the computer that suspends your account and you can file an appeal so a human can look at it. At first I thought that was the case with Onlyfans and I understand that you sometimes have to email or call them (any company in general) multiple times before you get to someone very helpful. So I sent them about three emails about it, on Twitter, from their website and email from my own email address because I thought it was a computer that did it and I wanted them to look at it. But they ignored me and their website would no longer load and I saw they must have blocked my IP access because it loads fine on my phone and when I use a VPN but on our home network, it stays on the loading page and goes no further. I will say Onlyfans is 17 years behind because this was how it was online with social media back in the days, it was easy to shut anyone down with bogus reports. And I think they are a small business too and their TOS page is a mess because it’s too vague. Some people even call them scammers and someone told me it’s called a legal scam because they can just take your money you earned by shutting down your account randomly before you even withdraw it or before it’s done pending and they give you no notice at all and don’t say why they closed it and it’s stated in their terms they can do this. This is actually legal which is why it’s called a legal scam. I am sure any lawyer out there will tell you there is nothing you can do and your money you have earned is gone forever and they might advise you do withdrawal every time you reach the minimum amount.

On Adisc it’s been suggested it could have been nudity and stuff I posted could have fallen under those terms but they also said it is very vague which is a problem. Now I don’t think they are siding with them and they are just telling me how this all sucks for me and their terms of use. Vague TOS is always an issue and as someone else told me, all it can take is one report to shut you down. I already guessed this is what happened and someone got jealous and targeted me or else they would have shut down other ABDL pages too by also reporting theirs. There was someone else who did a video of her masturbating in her sexy underwear and pleasuring herself and I could have reported it to get it shut down and use their TOS and bam her account would have been gone too if the Onlyfans people were offended by it. But I am not that kind of person and all it takes is a heartless person to do it.

One of my youtube vidoes was marked age restricted

A while ago I posted a video of myself playing in my wet diaper. I was just rubbing it and it wasn’t really dirty. There was no nudity and no one could see my pussy. I had that video unlisted and I uploaded it I believe to share here in this blog or on Twitter, I don’t remember. I totally had forgotten about it until I saw an email in my inbox last month from youtube about one of my videos being marked age restricted. I thought it was strange since no one would have access to that video unless they see the link to it posted somewhere. I have it unlisted. Obviously my video had been reported. I know it wasn’t by random people because they would have no way of seeing it unless they were here or on my Twitter page, wherever I had it posted. So I know it had to be by another ABDLs and they were maybe trying to take me down even though I got no money for it. I don’t even get paid on my channel because I don’t post anything there and videos I had posted were all home made and I set them all to unlisted since they didn’t have any views anyway.

Back when youtube opened, there were lot of home videos posted on there and then eventually professional film makers started to use it and people started to use it for vblogs and then people became self taught film editors and then people started uploading copyright content to it and uploading their own game play to it and even TV companies will upload their own content there and small film companies. I’d say youtube didn’t start to get good until around 2009. Before then it was just home videos and vblogs and it was all boring so I never visited it unless linked.

So to anyone out there that had the balls to report my video, sorry, you lose, it didn’t violate any terms so they marked it as age restricted and I didn’t even care. It’s not a big deal if it’s marked as adult. I don’t even have it listed as public and it’s unlisted meaning only people can access it through link. Only way a minor will see it is if they go on my page and fine the video.

Also youtube isn’t someone who just blindly shuts people down because they allow appeals and have a 3 strike system.

Seesh I wonder if I am becoming someone who is going to be harassed now like lot of people are when they get popular on their page or channels because I have heard of pages being shut down and people having to fight for appeals and videos being demonetized and this is always the risk when you put yourself out there. People could do it because they don’t agree with your life style or because they get jealous or they are mad they have to pay for your content or they get mad because they didn’t agree with you on something.

I once unfollowed someone on twitter because she made a stupid post saying if anyone comments on her stuff and they have minors on their pages or videos, she said she would report them and stuff. I unfollowed her because on my youtube, it’s a vanilla page and I follow any pages and have like videos and favorites and I even have videos on my favorite that were TV show theme songs from my childhood and they have minors in it.

I have Kids Incorporated theme intro song, Lamb Chops Play Along and Sond That Doesn’t End, Tony the Tiger commercial from 1998, Huggies Pull Ups commercial, Ramblin Rod clip, Pedophile being harassed by pedophiles, (it’s actually a satire video about someone being sexually attracted to pedophiles so this pedophile has a peeping tom on him while he is doing the same to these kids on the playground and he says how this has to be stopped while he continues doing the same to kids which made it hilarious because of the hypocrisy, it was like an Onion video), and few others that happen to have minors in it. Did this person seriously say she was going to report me for this if I comment on her content? I take threats very seriously so unfollowed it is and ignore.

My youtube isn’t even a abdl channel and I just have playlists of video game music and favorite music and I follow lot of channels and made playlists of movie scores and have them organized, same as video game scores. If someone is going to be that strict, I unfollowed but I didn’t go around harassing her and reporting her blog and her channel and her pages to get her to shut down just because I didn’t agree with her. Some people are just strict and if they want everyone to be in this tiny box just because they are into this, unfollow them and move on. There are other ABDLs out there you can follow and see their content without any petty threats and petty restrictions. I don’t she she is a bad person, I just don’t agree with her standard here. People really need to understand that not everyone is restricted to their kinks and they have outside lives and interests so not everything they post or like or favorite, etc is related to their kink. If they can’t understand that, it’s their problem and not mine.

And I don’t even get lot of comments like other popular people do but yet here I am still being harassed sometimes. They don’t need to send you messages to harass you, all they can do is just keep reporting you. If I get any bad messages, I just ignore them or hit the block button and move on and not say anything to them. I have never gotten any death threats, not ever since I have started posting online in 2002. Maybe I did once on a forum but I didn’t take it seriously. I didn’t see it as a death threat then and we were both people who didn’t like each other and I wasn’t able to ignore any meanness then, now I just hit the block/ignore button and move on. But that was the only death threat I remember but I never got it in my inbox ever.

Edit: I have removed all 4 of my videos that were related to my ABDL for safety reason.