Weight loss is a sensitive topic

I have seen threads about people being too small to fit into adult diapers because of how difficult it is to find mediums. Most people just tell them to put on weight or tell them about websites that sell adult size smalls. I have given that advice too.

But the opposite happened. someone wrote on a forum about being too big to fit into diapers and how most places won’t sell in his size with a 48 waist and how he requested to ABU to make a XL but they said no because of not enough demand. I gave him advice to lose the weight so he can fit into ABDL diapers. I told him to make his portions smaller, cut out calorie drinks and only drink water, cut back on sweets, work out for at least a half hour a day and he doesn’t need to join a gym for it, youtube has work out videos. Then I said I worked out three times a week and lost 14 lbs and I also cut back on sweets and did the gym.

Two hours later he deleted his OP saying he had been ridiculed and being told what a fat slob he is. I never said he was one and I never ridiculed him. But I have been seeing at r/fatlogic about fat people getting offended about someone losing weight or trying to change their life by deciding to change their diet to lose the weight or getting offended about how weight loss works and how they can lose it when they whine about how they can’t lose any and then someone telling them how it is possible and what they need to do. Lot of people are overweight because of how much  calories they consume and also because they give themselves the amount of calories their body uses so of course they’re not going to lose weight. Very few are overweight due to a medical issue. I also learned on r/fatlogic how high or low metabolism is a myth and it has to do with how much energy you use and how active you are and people tend to overestimate how much they eat or under estimate how much they eat. Sure I can have one day of over eating and then I drop the weight because I don’t eat like that everyday but that doesn’t mean I have high metabolism. I can eat one big meal and then not eat for the rest of the day and that is okay and skipping meals is not starving yourself nor is it an eating disorder and eating little isn’t one either, it’s actually normal and you’re not supposed to eat three big meals a day and having a sandwich for lunch and nothing else is fine. What I was doing is normal not an eating disorder I have been diagnosed as having. I think I recovered from it and just as long as I stay active and work out, I won’t have one.

I stood on the scale this morning and was up to 121 again, I have had too much to eat is why and now I am back to cutting back on sweets again and I had that one day where I consumed lot of calories because I ate at the IHOP which was 740 calories for the stack of pancakes and the glass of orange juice, then I had a cupcake and a can of mac and cheese which was two servings and it was 500 calories total. Then I had another cupcake. Then yesterday i had two cupcakes again and a banana and some other sweets I found at work and I had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich at home and for dinner I had some salad and chicken and it was a small plate but still too many calories that day I consumed because of sugar. Now I am going to cut back on calories again and that will keep my weight down. hat is why we have scales so we know our calorie intake and can watch our weight and know to cut back. I also forgot to mention I had diet pop yesterday but I didn’t have the whole can. But I finished it today and I had yogurt and one Reese’s candy. I love chocolate but I couldn’t have a bunch of it or have more than one and I will not eat again until noon.


Working out in poopy diapers

I sometimes work out in my poopy diaper. I have even gone running in it too outside. I do a two mile run when it’s nice out and not cloudy. I also work on my Wii Fit if I can’t go out and run and I have done it in a poopy diaper. I have never hit the gym in poopy diapers and have no desire too but I will go out and run in one because I am not going n any places and I am just outside and I run or walk past people. I did it this morning. I woke up in a poopy diaper I made last night while I was sitting on the couch watching TV and then I went to bed in it and woke up and watched more TV and had some breakfast and went out and ran.  I go about two miles and can do it in a half hour. I can probably go further now without getting tired but I would rather not spend hours working out and I already am trying to keep my weight at 120. I just keep dropping so I eat more food as a result of it by letting myself snack or having some sweets or have a calorie drink so my weight fluctuates between 117-121.


I am wearing a Tena Maxi Slip under my shorts and yes I am wearing a poopy one under them. Taken after my work out. Also those shorts look good on me and don’t make my hips or butt look big and I didn’t get cat called today. I just ignore it when it happens.



My big messy diaper

It’s been awhile since I last made a post here.

Last night I was in my room watching TV while my kids were having their baths and after they were in bed, I went to the laundry room to do some laundry when I messed my diaper. It was nice and soft and I pushed it out and it also came out on its own. Then I sat in it and I felt it spread all over and it went to the front too and peeing in it made it even softer. I even took a picture of it to show how big it is:


I have the wipes on the diaper I cleaned the mess with.

This is with it closed:



I also dripped on the floor and it was white but I cleaned it up.



Undergrowing my diapers?

So I got up to 134 and I was going to be heading for another eating disorder which I don’t want so I decided to join a gym and start working out. I didn’t want to get fat and I worried my weight will keep going up and up and before I know it I would be back at my high school weight followed by my Junior high weight and I didn’t want that and then be obese because that is how people get fat in the first place or overweight. So I joined a gym and started to work out there three times a week and also doing some weight lifting and what do you know, my weight went back down again and I could finally eat again without any anxiety and I got down to 129 again and then I was at 127 at the 4th of July and gained a couple of pounds from food and then lost that couple of pounds again in a few days. I also started to run twice a day when I am not working and I run every morning and since it’s summer, I can go run outside but i still kept my gym membership because this weather won’t last long and soon it will be cold again and rainy. It rains here everyday in the fall and winter so don’t move here. Plus when it snows, it becomes a gridlock on the roads and your car becomes unsafe on the road and you are at a higher risk for a collision and this is over a couple inches of snow and it’s very difficult to drive in it here because they don’t sand them or even plow them because we have only a few of them. In Montana, no problem driving in the snow but only because they are equipped for it and my area is not.

But I also decided to start doing classes so I do ZUMBA every Wednesday and Friday and I tried Yoga and I didn’t like it so I only do workouts with weights and use the elliptical on Mondays. I got down to 123 last time I weighed myself and I don’t even starve myself, I still eat three times a day and snacks but I am still losing a pound. My parents decided to give me flack by telling me I am getting to skinny and I needed to eat more food and I am going to look anorexic and getting there. But my BMI is still in the normal range. So to satisfy them, I decided on some sweets for breakfast and told them how many pieces of pie I had and then I had a dairy Queen Blizzard that day but I had a size small.

I have been noticing the tabs on my Bambino diapers and they are closer together now and the top ones are close together and the bottom part of my diaper feels loose in the back and I think that is why I have been leaking lately because they are getting too big on me so I might be in between sizes now even though my hips are now measured 35 inches and I noticed my belly where my navel is shrunk an inch when I measured and my tummy is starting to look fit and I am noticed holes in them now meaning the skin is going in so there is a dip in my tummy on the side. For years I was never satisfied with my body and always felt fat and then accepted no matter how much weight I lose, I will never be happy with my body and it’s all in my head. I got down to 119 once after I had my son and I noticed I had more bones showing on my back and I got scared of being an anorexic I wouldn’t let myself go below 119 no matter how fat I looked and how big my thighs are and my hip size. But now they are shrinking and I am down to 123 as of last week when I last weighed myself. I just had to do different work outs and I think ZUMBA is helping. I did read it does help tone your belly and your body and I do lunges and I lay on the floor and hold my legs up in the air and down again. I read that also helps tone your belly too. Walking on the treadmill won’t help tone your body alone.

Now I might look into smaller sizes now and see if Bambino carries a size small and ABU and stuff and if not, I will still use mediums but try and make the bottom tighter. I have also noticed how far back the front of the diaper goes when I put one on and try and make it tight. The side of the front goes all the way to the back of my buttock.

I still see my big thighs and butt even though I have lost weight. But it’s in my head right?

I think my bowels are getting weaker

I used my diapers exclusively now but sometimes that isn’t possible.

Two times at work I have felt an urge to go number 2 so I would hold it but it would feel like it will come out on its own. I don’t want to go home smelling like shit on the way so I have had to use the restroom there to go.

It happened again today when I was cleaning the former daycare so I held it because I didn’t want to walk all the way to the restrooms but forgot they had one in the former daycare. Then the urge went away and it came back while I was cleaning the break room so I had to use the bathroom in there and boy it was a big one I took.

now it seems like when the urge hits, I can go no problem but it feels like I can’t hold it.

Finally got to poop in my diaper again

It feels like it’s been a while since I last soiled myself but maybe it’s been a week. Lately I have just been doing it in the toilet because I don’t want to waste a diaper. I change and then I all of a sudden feel the urge to go number 2 and I don’t want to change out of this diaper so soon and another time I was at work when the urge hit and I was holding it till I got home to do it but I felt I wouldn’t be able to hold it so I took it off and went in the toilet at work. I guess that is how much I have trained my body to do it in diapers so now it feels it will come out on its own now if I hold it for too long.

This time I felt the urge to go again and I was home and both my kids were in bed so I pooped while I was emptying out my husband’s wastebasket to take upstairs to throw away outside to the outside trash can. It felt nice and soft. I had this one on all day so I thought ‘what the heck’ since I would have to change it anyway.

Now I am going to try and clear photos and movies off my Micro SD card now for space and put it on external hard drive.