Stabbed in the heart

More Twitter rant here.

If you have been following my blog for 7 years, you probably know I hate passive aggression. I think I have also mentioned I also have anxiety.

Last night on Twitter, someone posted about how hard 4th of July is for them because of their PTSD. I asked about ear plugs and noise cancelling headphones.

I don’t get a response but I do get several likes so I assume everything is fine.

But today in early noon, I find a post by this person about PTSD and it’s about fireworks. I read it and realized the whole post was about me but it was guised as a general post and as awareness. She also had it tagged as ableism. I checked her profile and saw she had unfollowed me. I felt stabbed because instead of telling me why that solution wouldn’t work, she decided to make that post instead and made me out to be some bigot. First of all, she never said fireworks were illegal where she is. I also know people with PTSD that do stay inside and put on thick headphones and listen to music or watch TV. I was trying to be helpful and supportive and this is what I get? It just makes me not want to talk to people if I am going to be reminded what a horrible person I am because of my social skills. Once someone gets offended by me, I cease interaction with them. I don’t know what else will offend them so I just drop them. I unfollowed her since I would no longer interact and I blocked her too not too long later.

I talked to my husband about it so he would know why I was in a bad mood. Interent stuff again because I had offended someone by mistake and instead of telling me what I said wrong, she had to be passive aggressive about it and unfollow me. I am not going to get offended if you tell me what I do wrong if you aren’t salty about it or mean about it or have some attitude and aren’t passive aggressive about it.

My husband thinks I did nothing wrong and it’s her problem and not mine. I was just trying to be helpful and she took it wrong. I am trying to forget about it and my husband said he doesn’t care when he offends people and it happens to him too. He will never see them again. I decided to forget her and he said “yeah forget her, you will never meet her.”

Maybe I did nothing wrong. How am I supposed to know since other PTSD people have used that stuff, even autistic people use them too for in public to avoid sensory overload. I dont think I have seen any of them scream “ableism” whenever someone suggested noise cancelling headphones. But she decided to take my question and turn it into something else.

I don’t normally block people on twitter but this time I did because she had stabbed me and I didn’t want to deal with her if she sees my rant on there too.

My anxiety just makes me not want to talk to people because I could offend them with my social skills and then they will block me or ignore me because of something I said and it makes me feel terrible. Then when I finally get myself out there, something like this happens and I am reminded again why I have anxiety and reminded how bad I am at socializing. I have messed up a lot and been singled out and rejected. I have also been stabbed in the back too. Now it just makes me angry so I have the “fuck you” attitude. So sick of this bullshit.

Edit 7/5/19

After getting support on Adisc, Heidi, my friend from Daily Diapers, my husband, I have come to realize this was not a social and communication issue on my end and it was just the other person with the problem. I still think I made the right choice in blocking her. I wouldn’t have realized I did nothing wrong if it weren’t for me posting about it. Some people really do suck.

“I thought it was my autism.”

I was at my group today and the topic was about being overwhelmed. This woman in our group who was new there today was talking about some therapy she takes for her head injury and I asked her how did she get it and she said “Domestic violence” and my eyes widened and I said “whoa” and she said “from my ex husband” and I said “You must be a single mom” and she said “I am.” Then I asked her when did she leave him and she said 2007 and I asked how long they were together and she said eight years. then the topic was about abuse and she said she had a confidential address and I asked what was wrong with her husband and if he had any diagnoses and she said he was diagnosed with borderline, narcissism, and antisocial” and I said “he was a sociopath” and she said he was. She mentioned he was high functioning so he was nice and charming and I talk about how there are red flags that lot of women miss and she mentioned she thought it was her autism that made her miss them after I mentioned how I sometimes go online read about abuse and I don’t feel alone and I feel better about myself and lot of women missed these signs too. I mentioned one thing a abuser does to lure their victim is they will be crazy over you, they will be clingy and will always think about you and always want to be around you and not want you to go to work or go home and they will also pay for everything and shower you with gifts and everything and I also thought it was my autism that made me miss the signs but I realized lot of women miss them so it’s not an autism thing. Then she said how her ex will say he has great empathy so she is realizing it might not be her autism because he is tricking lot of people by misrepresenting himself. He is nice out in public and he works as some counselor for jail. I also mentioned sometimes abusers will play the “oh poor me” and act like the victims and act like their victim was the abuser. I also thought about my ex and told the people at the table some about him but he never beat me or called me names or threatened me or broken anything or thrown things and he didn’t like violence himself. I mentioned he was just controlling and he ignored me after we were together and then it felt like I was single because he never answered his email or phone or IMs. That is something abusers also do. It was an interesting topic and I am glad she got out of there. I didn’t ask how he abused her or what took her so long to leave because it’s a sensitive topic and lot of people don’t like to think about it and remember it. I read abuse stories online sometimes and feel lucky because mine didn’t last long with him and also his abuse wasn’t bad because others had it worse and their partners acted worse. maybe mine would have gotten worse too if I stayed and thanks to him ignoring me, he lost me. I would have left him anyway if he didn’t ignore me and he wasn’t the kind of guy to make his victim stay. If you wanted to leave, leave, he didn’t care. I was like a disposable to him. There are other women out there he could find. Someone replied to my comment in LuckyOtter’s Heaven saying if I didn’t care about the guy, his silent treatment was useless. Then she gave me her interesting perspective that it sounded like my ex ignored me and then contacted me to make me think he didn’t care. If he cared, he wouldn’t have contacted me but it was just her opinion based on what I wrote.

Now I wonder if he contacted me around Thanksgiving of 2007 to see if I was still single and I was not because he maybe thought I got a new boyfriend to play a game with him but saw I was still with the new boyfriend. i never heard from him again. But he was also confusing because of things he said like how he didn’t want to be controlling so he didn’t want me doing things because I feel I have to but yet he acted like he wanted me to do things by making me feel bad because he would say I was self centered or get upset with me. Another thing he did was he didn’t care if I wanted to live with my aunt and uncle so he would say “go” whenever I expressed it but yet he would care I got a new partner? He also told me a story about how his ex girlfriend would always threaten to leave him and take their son too from him and he would no longer play that game if I did that to him. I never talked about breaking up with him to make him change and it worked every time when she did it. But I did often feel like moving out and living with my aunt and uncle. Now my rule is if you often feel like leaving your partner, then things are not working out between you two. I wonder if he sent me mixed messages to confuse me so I wouldn’t think he was abusive and controlling. It sure worked which is why I stuck with him. I ignored my feelings and my instincts thinking I was crazy and being too sensitive. I felt stupid for a while and felt it was all my fault and now I am realizing it was not and this happens to many domestic women too. I was just lucky I got out quick and that the abuse wasn’t that bad. I didn’t know then it was an abusive relationship because like most women, I thought abuse was being hit or beaten. Because he wasn’t hitting me or beating me, there was no abuse.

You have a higher chance being beaten to death by a stranger than by a family member

I was talking to my mom in the kitchen and she is on sick leave all because I hurt her back by leaving shoes in front of the door and so did my father so she slipped on our shoes and fell and hurt her back. Thank god she is still alive. She said “can you imagine if you found me dead” and I said “We would have lost the house” and she said she has life insurance and I said oh because of her job and she could be beaten to death by one of her patients and she said no because she drives for her work so since she does, she is better off having life insurance. I said maybe if she worked in a mental hospital, she would better need it because she could be beaten to death by a mental patient and she said “No that wouldn’t happen” and I said “I guess it’s only in movies and it would be rare if it did actually happen” and she said it is rare. Then I brought up about the time when Trudy was beaten to death by her 19 year old autistic son and he got hospitalized for it because he had a mind of a two year old and how many two year olds hit when they are upset? Mom then told me I had a higher chance of being beaten to death by a stranger than by a family member. I said it must be rare then for that to happen and she said it is rare and then I mentioned that statistics have showed that it’s rare for a person to commit a violent crime when they have a mental illness or disability and my mom said “yeah it is but unfortunately the media will report those rare cases so you think it’s an every day thing and it makes you fear such as fearing autism.”

So this was our conversation and it’s a relief that it is very rare for someone with a disability or mental illness to hurt you and you have a higher chance to be beaten randomly in the streets by a stranger which is also rare. I also guess the Frankie incident was rare too and it was unfortunate my family had to encounter it and I had to know someone like that. Of my time I was in special ed, I only knew one boy who was aggressive and he would pinch and hit others and one day he threw chairs and it only happened once. Then there was Frankie so that was two special needs kids I knew who was aggressive and my mom had one student who would bite and scratch and I guess he was rare too.

I sometimes do wonder if the media is trying to make people turn against autistic people and other people with mental illnesses by reporting a violet crime they have done. My parents say that is what the media does, conservatives own the Fox stations and will report things and they are bias because they want you to believe what they show and they want you to turn against Muslims so they will report a Muslim doing a bomb threat or doing a bombing and not show a white person doing it too or anyone else, only Muslims.

Then of course you will go online and then you will see parents talking about how aggressive their autistic kids are and how one of them pulled a knife on someone and I once read a story about an autistic child beating another child with a bat and now all the other parents don’t want their kids near that child and how the victim now has PTSD and I guess those are rare cases we are reading but the internet makes it sound so common that we are violent psychopaths and that we will try and harm you if we get upset and call it a meltdown. Even Dr. Phil said it’s rare for someone with autism to be violent and Issy is the 10% and that most autistic people are not violent. I know he was just saying this so no one would fear autistic people after that show. I found that as a relief too because I do get sick of hearing how violent someone with autism is or hearing about them doing something violent but hey it would be PC if no one talked about it or wasn’t allowed to.

So which is it?

You have probably heard of Tonya Harding, the figure skater who hired someone to attack another skater so she would win in the US Figure Skating Championship. Bob Rivers even has a song about it that is a parody of “Brand new key” and it’s called “Break Your Knees” and he has it on his website. (I just looked and I don’t see it so maybe he took it off or I don’t remember the exact name title). There was another incident I heard that happened in Wales. The incident made me think of Tonya Harding and her being a figure skater and the time she attacked another skater. Not literally but she had someone else do it for her so Nancy wouldn’t be able to skate and her plan failed. 20 yeah old Jemma Fitzgerald was attacked with an ice skate by another 27 year old woman Natasha Welsh who had Asprerger’s syndrome because she was smoking. She had a strong dislike in smoking because of her stepfather and former partner so she hit her with a bag and meant to hit her in the shoulder but got her in the head instead and she fell and there was blood and she saw it and kept on walking. The attack was witnessed by a bunch of teenage boys and one alerted his father and he chased after the woman and tried to make citizens arrest (what does that mean?) and she screamed and ran into a shop. The father told staff to call police and waited outside. The police came and arrested her.

I first heard this story on Facebook a couple nights ago and people on the autism spectrum were not happy about it because Natasha got to walk free from court because she had AS. There is even a petition on called Retrial Natasha Welsh. Jemma suffered a fractured skull and needed twenty stitches and she had to have brain surgery and have elements of it removed. I was not happy about it either and I looked the story up online to see if I can get more facts and not one other news sites covers it.

Now here is the ironic thing, an aspie attacks another person and causes her a head injury and left her with possibly permanent disabilities that will be caused by the head injury and a bunch of aspies get pissed about it because autism does not cause someone to be violent but yet when a Tigard family got kicked off the plane because the mom told the flight crew that her daughter will maybe try and scratch and then maybe they will help her, they went ballistic about it and called it discrimination. Wait a minute, I thought autism didn’t cause someone to be violent and the mother just told the crew that her daughter tends to scratch others and told them it can happen if she doesn’t get her preferred food. Why would this be acceptable? Don’t get me started on Issy Stapleton, she gave her mother black eyes, gave her three head injuries, kicked her into being unconscious, pushed her down the stairs, tried to run her off the road by grabbing the steering wheel, would go after her little sister to hit her and Ainsley had to lock her self in her room or in their car to get away from her, and read another story where she planned to go to McDonalds with a bunch of her friends but then found out she wouldn’t be able to go so she starts ripping the whole house apart because Kelli was not around or her little sister so she targeted the house instead and wait a minute, autism does not cause someone to be violent and there were a bunch of people on the spectrum defending this teen and glossing over all the abuse and I would say that is the worst I have ever heard because it was so graphic and horrifying to see. Oh the double standard. Now I see they are pissed about an aspie attacking someone with an ice skate and walking free from court. I said sarcastically in the group on Facebook “Maybe she was having a meltdown.” I have noticed that it seems to be acceptable to be violent if it’s a meltdown and then I see other arguments that meltdowns does not mean violence but yet I will see other people on the spectrum and parents of autistic kids calling it a meltdown when they are aggressive or their child. Wait a minute, what?

People just cannot seem to agree.

I don’t think they were kicked off the plane because of autism

Time for another politically incorrect post, I have been wanting to blog about this and how I feel about it but never gotten my mind to it. Then I ran into another blog I was linked to from another forum Wrongplanet and it’s unPC according to the blogger and I have been enjoying it so far and she sometimes blogs about being aspie. I decided I better do another unPC post.

On May 5th, a Tigard family was kicked off the plane due to “fear of autism.” The mother decided to sue the airline company but she doesn’t want money, she wants more autism awareness. There are a bunch of articles about this incident (google family kicked off plane due to autism). I saw the headline and felt skeptical because what is there to fear? If the family was truly kicked off because a child is autistic, then that is awful. But I was reading one of the articles and there I saw it. The mom said her daughter may try and scratch. Yes that was a trigger word for me because I don’t take kindly to violence. The mom had basically threatened the crew that if she didn’t get her hot steaming meal, she would try and scratch. I am sure she just got frustrated because she didn’t want her daughter to have a meltdown and then start crying disturbing other passengers and the possibility of someone getting scratched by her. I am a parent so I get that no parent wants to deal with any meltdowns, whining, etc. especially if they have autism. I am sure the mother got frustrated so she had a meltdown herself and said “maybe when she has a meltdown and starts to cry and try and scratch, then maybe you will help her.” So her daughter got her food and then they heard the captain’s announcement that they were doing a emergency landing due to someone having a behavior issue in the back. The parents didn’t know it was them they were being referred to because they weren’t in the back, they were in the front behind first class I assume since they were in economy. They landed in Salt Lake City and the police arrived on the plane and asked questions and saw no one was hurt and the daughter had been fine, she was watching a movie in her chair being all quiet. The passengers didn’t feel threatened by her and had no issues with the girl. She was howling for a while until she got her food according to one passenger. I don’t feel like doing a long blog about all this so I will leave all the details in a search engine.
This made worldwide news I found out and this discussion had popped up all over Facebook and on Wrongplanet in two sections and people are calling it discrimination but I don’t think it was so I posted my unpopular opinion that I think they were kicked off because the mom threatened them. Everyone has a right to a safe environment and it’s the pilot’s job to ensure all his passengers are safe and the mom had just told them her daughter may scratch. That is perceived as a threat so they removed the family. I figured this had to do with liability and for safety of other passengers and what happened if the girl did scratch someone, that person could sue the airline company because the pilot failed to ignore the mom’s warning. I saw in another article that the mom told KOIN local news that her daughter may scratch others and I saw in another article that she may scratch others and has before sometimes. I am sure the mom didn’t want to take that chance on the plane so she told them that and it got perceived as a threat. But not everyone in the autism community will see this and it’s not rocket science to understand. Instead they want to continue seeing it as they were kicked off due to autism and this one member on the forum wants to believe that the KOIN local news blog is saying the mom told KOIN local news that her daughter may scratch someone appears heavily biased, for people that want to support the idea that it wasn’t discrimination.

I don’t think the mother will win because the pilot did his job and according to this person

if that is how airlines really work that they make enough food for how many passenger are on board and will only have extra if someone refused their meal, then I don’t think the mother will win because the airline crew were following the rules and the mother didn’t call them ahead of time about her daughter’s special needs of needing hot steaming food. She said this was the first time they ever had a problem and her daughter refused to eat back at the Houston airport and I think next time she should call the airline company ahead of time for in case her daughter refuses her food again before boarding or see if they can microwave any food for them she brings on the plane for her. Otherwise it might come down to airline companies doing this:

“Attention all passengers, it has come to my attention from the fight staff that we have been informed by a parent that her kid may scratch if she gets too upset so we will not be responsible for any assault and injuries. If you don’t feel comfortable flying, you are free to step off the plane and we will book you another flight and give you a free meal and first class.”

Even if she does win, I still shouldn’t be surprised because this is America where crazy lawsuits happen and I have heard of people winning bogus lawsuits they did so hence all these crazy warnings we have and places having to tell us information and gives us warnings before they do a procedure or before everyone jumps off a plane to skydive. I remember when my husband and I got our son his cool swing set with a built in fort/playhouse, the manual told us how to play on the equipment so it said things like; don’t climb up the slide, slide with feet down, don’t slide with head down, don’t swing standing, etc. and my mom asked me “You do know what it really means don’t you?” and I said they were just warnings and they don’t want you doing that and how they want you to play and she said why do I think they have it there and I said they did it for lawsuits. I knew these were not rules, they were just there for liability so they wouldn’t get sued by greedy parents because little Billy fell off the swing and broke his arm because he was standing instead of sitting as he swung. I was just reading those “rules” to my mom because I found them amusing and that was when she said it.
I am also not the only person with an ASD who feels this way about the incident. I don’t blame the girl and I don’t think she did anything wrong, it was the mother and it was her and her little outburst that got them kicked off, not the autism. The one thing that grinds my gears is why are people on the spectrum glossing over the mother saying her daughter may scratch? Instead they want to keep calling it discrimination as if other people have no right to be safe if you’re autistic and you have the tendency to lash out at people. Perhaps they are uncomfortable with the truth. It feels like I am talking to a brick wall I want to hit my head against it. I have to wonder are these people really dense or are they just trolling after I have pointed out why they were kicked off?

On Dr. Phil

The last two days, I was watching the Dr. Phil show and it was about kelli and Issy Stapleton. I was hoping to hear Matt’s side of the story and the other kids and Issy but that never happened because Matt felt it should be Kelli’s story. Watching the whole thing was frightening because it was like watching a horror movie but it was with autism. They kept showing that video over and over of Kelli being attacked by her daughter who was then 13 and it sounded like something you would hear in a horror movie. I got sick of them showing that video over and over because it was horrifying and I felt haunted at work about the video and how violent some autistic kids can get and people find this acceptable? I imagined what if a movie company made a horror film and they decided to use an autistic character and it makes them kill people with their meltdowns. I bet lot of ASD people would get offended by it because they didn’t like how their condition was used to kill people in the movie. Now it was relieving to hear that most autistic people are not violent and this was just rare with Issy and most autistic kids are not violent. I can understand why autistic people would be upset by the show, they are concerned people will watch it and then fear autistic people and fear them when they find out they are on the spectrum. They fear they will have to hide their condition and not be able to disclose their autism or people might think they will attack them when they don’t get their way or when someone refuses to give into their demand or don’t do it fast enough or when they do something unintentionally that may be a sound that bothers them or if they accidentally bump into them as they walk by or maybe making a sound might make them fly into rage and assault them. It was bad enough when Adam Lanza shot his mother and went to school and killed a bunch of kids and they tried to blame it on autism. Then our fear was people think aspies are dangerous and all need to be locked up and if someone is an aspie, run from them because they might shoot you.

But face it, some autistic people are dangerous. We can’t hide it from reality because it’s the truth and get mad at anyone who talks about how violent their autistic child is. While it may be rare they are violent, there will always be someone online who will post about how aggressive their autistic child gets and what they do or how they have taken a knife and held it up to their them or pointed it at them or whatever, but that is the internet and things always seem more common when you hear about it online than in real life. Like I said in my other blog entry, of all the special needs kids I have been around growing up, only two were violent. Frankie and that one boy in my class named Russell. But statistically, most mentally ill and disabled people are not violent or destructive. It’s been stigmatized because the bad stands out more so whenever a person with a disability or someone with a mental illness commits a crime or is abusive, people find out about it because it goes in the media or the families tell the story and people gossip. So it makes it look like lot of them are violent.

What I do think  is messed up is how kelli had to attempt to kill her daughter to finally get help for her because Dr. Phil is having a foundation on his website where you can donate to help Issy with treatment. Parents shouldn’t have to attempt to kill their children to get help. That just shows how wrong the system is. This other mother who is Issy’s friend also has an autistic son who is also violent and has sent her to the hospital too and given her fractured bones and black eyes decided to end it all by stopping her car on the tracks and wait for the train to come. Then fortunately, the mother snapped back into reality and drove off the tracks after sitting there for ten minutes and the next day she lucked out because she got a call and they finally took him somewhere for him to get treatment. Now the mom is safe in her own home. I decided I want to donate to Issy so she can get better and be a good person. Instead of bitching about her in my blog and how heartless other people are and thinking it’s acceptable for her to abuse her mother just because she is autistic and how Kelli should take it all in, do something about it. Dr. Phil decided to help Kelli and her family and Issy out by doing a foundation for her so why not and donate some money to them to help the situation. But right now our money is tight so when pay day comes I want to donate a little money. A little money is better than nothing.

But here is something I find confusing. One of Kelli’s friends said how Issy is targeting her little sister and Kelli isn’t there to protect her from Issy. They have created a plan for the sister and she either locks herself in her room or in their car to get away from her when she is attacking. That totally upset me and how is this acceptable. Why is the dad allowing this? If this were my sister, she would be living in a hospital because my mom would have sent her there because everyone has the right to be safe in their own home. Then we hear a little side of the dad’s story, his name is Matt and he said the opposite. He said Issy is doing better and he fails to mention how aggressive she is towards her sister. That is something I would love to ask him.

I do think Kelli should have sent her daughter to a hospital and she was given that option. I know this because I listened to the radio interview that took place a year before the attempted murder and she said she was given that offer and it would be up to a year but Kelli refused it. She didn’t want to not see her daughter for a year. Another option was to take her other two kids and pack up and leave their home leaving behind Issy and Matt. But I wonder if they had any place to go like stay at a friends or parent or relatives? Better than attempted murder right? Either option will get you judged but it’s still better than attempted murder.  Should Kelli have called the police on Issy and have her charged with assault? The police could shoot her in self-defense if she attacks them or she could end up with a criminal record so calling the police wouldn’t be an option.  I say for any parent, be careful when you call the police on your sick child.

And I was nervous about the autistic boy I know in real life who is my husband’s old friend’s son because his wife posted on Facebook about her step son having disruptive behavior disorder and it’s a form of ODD and conduct disorder but it fits in neither of those. It’s a NOS label. My husband assured me he isn’t violent and his behavior disorder is with behavior, not aggression. I felt silly after that because I was so worried before bringing my kids to his birthday and I don’t want them to get hurt by him because what kind of parent would bring their kids to someone who is violent, especially if they are on the spectrum of ODD and Conduct disorder? I had never seen the kid violent so why was I so worried? Because of a label his step mom mentioned on Facebook? I never told her why I was so nervous about coming. I didn’t want to offend her so I ignored the question. I am sure she thinks I was nervous because of a new route there and knowing how to get there and what the route will look like and the roads and buildings because I was talking about that at the party how I had to look on Google maps so I know what to expect and I was so nervous about getting lost.

Will Issy ever get over her aggression or remain violent and be in prison someday or a mental hospital when she assaults someone when she is eighteen or older or even kill someone? Time will tell.

Only thing that bothered me about the show was when Kelli kept saying how she hated the autism and being in jail is better than a cell of autism. I wished she said instead jail is better than a cell of abuse or violence. That sounds better.

I just thought of something humorous, an aspie kept saying on the Dr. Phil page “please don’t kill me” to people who were feeling sorry for Kelli so I imagined NTs telling an aspie or an autistic person “Please don’t attack me” or “please don’t hurt me” when they find out they are on the spectrum because of ASD people and some NTs thinking it’s okay for Issy to be abusive and parents are wrong to be hurt by them and be the victims of their violence as if they have to be god. I could say to people as a joke “Don’t worry I won’t hurt you if you say no to me” or tell my boss “Don’t worry, I won’t hurt you if you give me more tasks to do.” I always tell my husband or father, “Don’t worry, I won’t kill you” when they talk about life insurance because some people have put their partners on life insurance and then kill them for the money.


I do not like bullies, I hate them. There was a 13 year old aspie boy who is being bullied at his school and lot of people are saying he brought it upon himself. Whenever we hear about a person with a disability getting picked on, we always assume they are the victim and being picked on because they are different. The truth is, I was reading two articles about it:

TEEN BULLIED: Students Post Video Online

13RAW VIDEO: Melcher-Dallas Bullying Interviews

and I found out just from reading the comments that the kid was the bully. He has chased a six year old girl down the street with a bat and she didn’t even do anything to him to provoke it. He has brought pellets to school and has threatened to kill his school mates and also would tell them to go kill themselves and even one of his victims left  comment about how he was bullied by him. This isn’t about autistic behavior he was doing, it was bullying. He called a kid a nasty name so he got socked for it. Yes I understand how we tend to lack a social filter and may say the wrong things but if we say something and get socked for it, my mom would have told me lesson learned if I did that as a kid. Okay if I called someone the n word, I cannot blame it on autism. I know it’s offensive. I don’t know what nasty word he called someone’s nephew so I can’t really comment on it and who knows what the parent meant by nasty word. How hard is it to not call someone a nasty word? How hard would it be to not call someone the n word? C’mon on people. Are they really saying in the comments who are defending the boy ASD kids are not able to not call someone a nasty word? Even members get banned from Wrongplanet if they sprout any racism or homophobia or call someone a nasty name since it’s a personal attack. We sure don’t have excuses on that forum for our autism for such behavior.

But reading the comments really lost my sympathy for the poor child. I just have no respect for bullies and I used to bully my own bullies because they were not nice to me. I still bullied them even if they were not even bothering me. It never made sense why I shouldn’t bug them, they were bullies. Then in 5th grade my mom told me to say to this kid who lived on our block, next time the kid calls me stupid, tell him to look it up in the dictionary it has a picture of him and every name he calls me, tell him to lo look that word up and it has a picture of him. So I tried it and it worked and he never bothered me again. My mom didn’t care what I did, she just told the mother her kid needed to toughen up (giving her a taste of her own medicine since she thought other kids needed to toughen up whenever her son picked on them). I also remember kids would do the “Beth germ” crap and say “blackout” as a way to protect themselves from my germs. After a while I started to just touch them to give them my germs and they would get mad at me about it and call me stupid. I never understood why it would piss them off but my school counselor told me when I was in junior high it was because I was taking away their power. But by fifth or sixth grade, the Beth germ thing stopped. They had moved on.

I have noticed that when you have autism, it seems like it’s okay to bully other kids and blame the victim (the victims the autistic kid is bullying) and if they defend themselves, they are the bullies. It infuriates me. I never got any special privileges as a kid. I was given the same rules as everyone else and expected to follow them. I had no excuses and I would also get in trouble if I did anything to my bullies. I was never treated like a label nor treated like a disability and even the school didn’t excuse me. It’s so easy to paint someone as a victim when they have a disability. I mean what happens if some autistic person tries to rape me so I fight him off me and defend myself and flee, I would get blamed for it for kicking and hurting him? Or what if he did rape me and some angry mob went after him, would people paint him as a victim? This makes me sick and that is how I view this incident. Reading the comments, I see the kid has gotten suspended before and kicked off the bus for his bullying and he is still at it. I will agree with some comments that more needs to be done since suspension has not worked and perhaps the kid should be in some behavior program. I think all bullies should be in one if they are not able to quit. Also the mother of the child posted and he does get punished at home for his behavior but the other kids on the bus didn’t get punished for theirs like touching his bag or hitting him. Good for her then for not giving him special treatment and no one ever told her about the bat incident. A parent can’t do their job if no one tells them what their kid did wrong. If my parents never told Frankie’s parents their kid threw an ax at my brothers and their friends, they wouldn’t have shipped him off to Seattle because they would not have known about it.

Also to the person in the comments who thinks it’s ignorant to think a special needs child should be removed from the room when they are acting up or having an outburst or disrupting other students or being violent just like any other child, I was always taken back to the resource room whenever I would have an episode in class or start getting disruptive with my constant questioning or my anxiety. No way was my aid going to have me disrupt the other students and the teacher so yes I agree with the mother who thinks special needs kids should be removed from their classroom if they get disruptive. No free pass. I was also given ISS for throwing a book at a girl’s face because she was insulting me about my problem. But yet she didn’t get in trouble for trying to attack me and my mom called it self defense, well I got fed up with kids being ignorant about my disability I snapped and threw a book at the girl and she happened to be the culprit. Why does this have to be backwards but not for other kids on the specturm if this were to happen to them? Mom said I wanted to be treated like a normal person, they treated me like a normal person and other parents out there want their disabled kids to be treated normal and so do they with disabilities but yet they don’t like if this happens to them or their child what happened to me? How fair is that? That’s why it all infuriates me ASD kids get a free pass to bad behavior and their victims are the “bullies.”
I have also been suspended from softball once for a day for flipping out on my teacher because I thought she was screaming at me when really she was just scared because she thought I was going to run in the street because the drivers were not watching the road (they were all distracted by the old school building being torn down) and I would get really impulsive sometimes when I would get very upset or very excited but I was no idiot to run in the street (running in the street with lot of traffic means getting hit by a car so why would an impulsive person do it if they know the consequence?)and why would I want to run in the street just to look at the building being torn down? I was seen as the one being disrespectful and got suspended from my team for one day.

Now you can understand my politically incorrect “ignorant” thought about disabilities and ASDs because of how I was raised and treated. Even Temple Grandin was raised the same way and I will quote my favorite line from her “autism is no excuse for poor table manners.” Yeah that pisses off some people on the spectrum and see her as arrogant and some blame it on her own autism for how she talks about the whole spectrum thing.

Showing signs of autism

Looks like our son will be having autistic parents. Just kidding, I wanted to say that. She only said he was showing signs of autism. My husband went to his appointment to see a psychiatrist for SSDI. She did a bunch of tests with him like blocks and puzzles and all that, things he did when he was a kid. She also asked him a bunch of questions about his past and it was very hard for him to talk about it. Even I don’t know much about his life because he does not like to talk about it so I don’t ask him about it. he even told her about his birth trauma his mom had with him and his lack of friends. Based on things he said, she told him he shows signs of autism and she got a book out on it and looked at the symptoms of it he had. But she didn’t say he had it of course because it would take a lot more sessions for her to know if he does or not and she was only there to get information, not to diagnose or counsel him.

My husband told her his wife (me) had autism and she said it would bring us closer together.

So my husband came home and told me this and I was surprised and wasn’t surprised. I wasn’t surprised because I knew from the start he had similarities with it but I figured it was from his environment due to his other disabilities he had like brain damage and symptoms overlap. I was surprised because I don’t see any symptoms ever from him. He isn’t like those aspie men I read online by their wives who are self righteous, jerks, cold, uncaring. My husband is none of that. Plus he is not rigid, he does not stim, his social skills are fine because he can read social cues and other things and he helps me in social situations, he is very sensitive and cares a lot about me, he does not get angry nor does he have any anger issues, I don’t have to walk on any eggshells and he does not get upset with change or and he doesn’t have any restricted routines. So I am surprised at what she said. My husband told me everyone is different with it and he just holds it all in and he is inward, I am outward. So how could he have signs? Is it possible to have it and not show symptoms? This is daily I am talking about and all the time. I don’t mean them coming and go. My husband also told me he used to be a lot like me and he overcame lot of it.

I have given up reading about aspies and relationships because it was so depressing. It was never anything good and I always found it offensive we were being painted that way and it was being blamed on it.

But at least she didn’t hand it out like candy like some people online have claimed doctors do. She told him he only showed signs, didn’t say he had it because it would take a lot more sessions for her to know.

Him sharing this with me didn’t make a difference or change anything. I also felt the urge to post it on Facebook but because I treat it like real life, anything I am not willing to share with everyone in real life, I don’t put on Facebook. Plus I wouldn’t want him posting about my autism on his so why would I post about a doctor saying he shows signs of it? It would only be up to him to tell people. It’s nothing important for everyone to know. It wasn’t important for me to know either.