Sometimes I Enjoy Pain

I remember as a child I would sometimes run a piece of Easter grass through my gums between my teeth until they bled because I enjoyed the feeling.

I also enjoy getting my pimples popped even though it hurts sometimes but it’s still a good feeling.

When I was in labor, I actually enjoyed the whole thing even though the contractions were intense but it wasn’t bad. I would do it all over in a heart beat if all labors and births were the same. I don’t know if I will be that lucky again next time when I have another baby.

As a kid I would have this brush used on my skin to treat my sensory integration disorder ans I hated the feeling but now if I am ever itchy due to a spider bite or mosquito bite, I enjoy using that brush over the itchy spot and I enjoy the feeling. Now I am don’t know where I put the darn thing so I have used a comb before to rub on it and then used anything else and my fingers.

I remember when I was 17, I had this wart on my toe and I sometimes enjoyed the feeling down there. I would pressed on it and poke at it and my mother told me it was a wart and it can only be removed by the doctor. She made an appointment for me and I went in and had it frozen. The doctor told me that thing must hurt and I said it did. But I still preferred if it was removed because I didn’t want to live like that for the rest of my life. So he froze it and I felt nothing until after he was done. That feeling I didn’t enjoy but it went away by the time I got out to the car.

This morning I woke up and the diaper was uncomfortable because it was wet so it was making my sore spots sting. So I took it off after wetting it one last time and tossed it in the trash and then I used a wipe to clean myself up and I enjoyed running it over the sore spots and it felt good. My son just screams when we rub his sore spots but he doesn’t scream when it’s done with a wet rag. But I enjoyed the feeling when I rubbed a wipe over the spots and I could do it longer but I wanted to get back to sleep. So I put panties on to air it out and I put my pants back on and went back to sleep.

Then I got up at 11:39 and I used the toilet and then put rash cream on and a diaper and plastic pants and put my pants back on.