I think my bowels are getting weaker

I used my diapers exclusively now but sometimes that isn’t possible.

Two times at work I have felt an urge to go number 2 so I would hold it but it would feel like it will come out on its own. I don’t want to go home smelling like shit on the way so I have had to use the restroom there to go.

It happened again today when I was cleaning the former daycare so I held it because I didn’t want to walk all the way to the restrooms but forgot they had one in the former daycare. Then the urge went away and it came back while I was cleaning the break room so I had to use the bathroom in there and boy it was a big one I took.

now it seems like when the urge hits, I can go no problem but it feels like I can’t hold it.

Finally got to poop in my diaper again

It feels like it’s been a while since I last soiled myself but maybe it’s been a week. Lately I have just been doing it in the toilet because I don’t want to waste a diaper. I change and then I all of a sudden feel the urge to go number 2 and I don’t want to change out of this diaper so soon and another time I was at work when the urge hit and I was holding it till I got home to do it but I felt I wouldn’t be able to hold it so I took it off and went in the toilet at work. I guess that is how much I have trained my body to do it in diapers so now it feels it will come out on its own now if I hold it for too long.

This time I felt the urge to go again and I was home and both my kids were in bed so I pooped while I was emptying out my husband’s wastebasket to take upstairs to throw away outside to the outside trash can. It felt nice and soft. I had this one on all day so I thought ‘what the heck’ since I would have to change it anyway.

Now I am going to try and clear photos and movies off my Micro SD card now for space and put it on external hard drive.

Looks like I don’t have to get potty trained

My daughter is finally using the potty. It started with my husband buying her these Little Charmers dolls and a pack of little girl underwear that were Minnie Mouse and Doc McStuffins. We also did a sticker chart and that got her motivated to learn to use the potty. I would let her pick out a stick and I even put on my Barbie underwear and showed them to her and she got excited because she opened her mouth. Then I would put a diaper on when I would go to work and I wore them at night. It would just be during the day sometimes I wouldn’t have one on and I showed my panties to her three times and had her watch me go potty twice and it worked. I didn’t have to get potty trained after all. She still has accidents but I think one time she couldn’t get her pants down quick enough to go and this time she couldn’t get her nightgown out of the way so she couldn’t pull down her panties and she peed in them. She still needs help going to the toilet and she still isn’t bowel trained but we’re working on it. I wouldn’t consider her fully potty trained and just say she is working on it still. But at least she is going on her own now but still needs help when she has clothes on. One time she tried to go poopy in the potty and she didn’t make it and she made a big mess instead by trying to clean herself up and got it all over herself and the toilet so I had to give her a bath and it took me about ten minutes to clean up the mess she made. She also got pee on her nightgown too so I had to take it off. It looked like she sat on the toilet like that but she forgot to pull her panties down and make sure the nightgown wasn’t in the way. Now she won’t let me put clothes on her and she keeps running to the potty because she is trying to poop. Then she goes to the one upstairs because it has the toddler’s toilet seat and she is using a stepping stool to try and go. But at least I don’t have to take her every half hour anymore because she now knows when to go and can recognize when she has to go.

Funny Reddit comment

So the question was what was the worst parenting you have ever seen and if they had asked instead what was the worst parenting you have ever heard, I would have had much darker stories to tell like the time I was in 7th grade and my English teacher tells us a story about a student being beaten up by her mother one morning while drunk and she goes to school with a bloody nose and stands in front of her class and says something inappropriate, or the time I heard from my mother how it was normal in our small town for kids to be kicked out of their homes for their “out of control behavior” when in fact it was just them arguing or talking back and they were not treated like human like their thoughts mattered so they thought my parents were weird and strange and told them they weren’t normal, or the time I heard from my mother how my old school district got sued because her 13 year old son died from being frozen to death during school hours and he had been drinking and it turned out she had lost another son in the mobile home fire and he was also drunk and was too drunk to even wake up to escape and the mom never was a parent to them so she lost the case and the school district won. That happened after I moved or around the time before I moved but it was after I got out of high school and I was an adult on my own.

But anyway I wrote that about seeing a kid’s ear being pulled and someone on there who I have never even seen nor ever talked to already knew about me so she told me I pooped in my diapers in front of my children and I call that bad parenting? I looked through her comment history and she sounded like a legitimate user and not a troll so I figured my username must have drawn her attention so she must have read through my posts and maybe saw my blog here and read it and went back to make that post.

My kids don’t even know I am pooping in them because I can do stuff while shitting in it and I am not squatting or grunting so no one would know I am doing it. I just relax my muscles and give it a push and it comes out on its own and I do some pushing but there is no squatting or pausing and grunting. But the other day when the urge hit me that I needed to poop, I just went in the kitchen and pooped in there because no way was I going to do it in front of the kids if I had to stand and wait for it to come out and I did grunt and push hard and I did pause. I don’t do that in front of them. Then when I was done pooping, I went back in the living room and sat down. Then I had to change out of it later when we were going out.

So it’s funny how people just make the worst assumptions and instead of just defending myself, I just laugh about it and I could troll them if I want to so I wrote back to that lady “lol I see my username got your attention. Thanks for your comment.”

What have you found in your diaper?

I pooped my diaper twice today. I felt the urge while I was still laying down and then I got up so I could do it and I felt the urge while I was getting my kids their breakfast and then I was relaxing my muscles and letting the poop come out and then I felt it was in my diaper. I barely even pushed it out and they didn’t even notice it because I didn’t squat or pause.

Then I stayed in it for awhile and then changed before going out to get my hair cut with my son. Then I came home and not too long later, I felt cramping again and this time the cramping felt different so I pushed it out and this time I did squat and paused but I was alone when I did it and then I was done so I sat down again and I felt cramping again so I stood up and pushed more out and it was softer and I sat down and I could feel the mess being bigger and it spreading. I wasn’t in it long when my husband decided about an hour later he wanted to go out. My dad noticed the poopy smell and thought it was my daughter. One of the greatest things about having small children, people assume it’s them and they get the blame. I didn’t say anything.

I got the kid’s ready and had them dressed. My son dressed himself and I got my daughter dressed and my husband had stuff to do before we leave so I asked him in his ear if he could change me and he said he would and I told him I was poopy and he said “okay.”

Then after my husband was done paying the bills and doing stuff in a internet game on my dad’s computer we went in the basement and he changed me and it was a big mess. I had the chair in front of the door so our kids couldn’t come in and catch us. Then after he was done changing me, I had to take care of my dirty diaper and I looked at my poop and I saw how soft it was and I noticed corn shells in my diaper. I had corn a couple days ago for dinner.

I threw the diaper away in the Bambino bag the diapers came in and took it outside with the other dirty diapers I already had in the bag.

So anything weird or unusual or interesting you have found in your diapers?