Back in diapers

I am back in diapers again because the rash got better. I put on a Certainity diaper from Walgreens and I go to work and I soak it and I take a shower and then put on a Bellissimo again using rash cream. I stay dry all night until morning and my rash didn’t hurt and I stayed in that diaper all day and I peed a lot because I had too much to drink. Then I went to work in that same diaper and came home and showered and the thing was soaked in the middle but it could still hold more but I changed into a fresh one anyway using rash cream. My rash still isn’t hurting so that is good. I also remember to use wipes when I change so i get pee off my butt so I won’t get a rash. I hate taking frequent potty trips and feelings my bladder all the time. A diaper gets rid of that feeling all the time.

Diaper break again

I wasted two Bellisimos because I got a rash down there again. First I had to change out of my other diaper because my mother requested I get a diaper change and then I had to take off that diaper in the middle of the night because my bottom was stinging and I didn’t want it to get worse so I took it off and threw it away. Then i have not been diapered since because I am airing out. I am thinking of putting on a cheaper diaper than another Bellisimo so I won’t waste it. That way I can take it off when I get home after my shower and still keep airing out if my rash isn’t better. I will put diaper rash cream on it. So I am butt naked under my pajamas. No panties or a pull up. I’m such a naughty girl going without my diaper.

Memorial Day

I decided it was time to send back Pokemon Rumble Blast. Gamefly does not have the like button for it and our $5 coupon expires on the 22nd of next month. I want to be able to use it. I have been wanting Majora’s Mask so I want to get it and keep it. I had only beaten that game once because it’s too long to play and it took me about three months to beat and you have to do Groundhog Day because you only have three days to do the missions and beat the temples before the moon falls so that means doing some missions again and beating the bosses again but at least you don’t have to do the temples all over again.

Today was Memorial Day so my husband dumped this on me at the last minute about the BBQ at *Artie’s place. I was in the middle of looking at Street Fighter IV for 3DS on youtube because I was trying to decide if I should get the game or not and I already have it on PS3 but I wanted to see if both versions were the same, the levels. I like to do research on games I am thinking about so I can decide if I want to buy it or not. On gamefly I don’t have to do that because I can just add a game to my Q and get it and if I don’t like it, I can just send it right back. I can do the same for Gamestop too.

I had to change and I was poopy so it took a bunch of wipes to clean up. I don’t mind the clean up anymore. I do have a diaper rash I have had for the past few days so I always put rash cream over the sore spots and this is what it looks like:

(warning: may be graphic, it’s just a shot of my butt)

I discovered I could use my 3Ds to take photos and use imgur thanks to Reddit and we lost our camera but hopefully it will show up and my laptop doesn’t have a SD card port and I always forget to use my husband’s computer to upload. I am sure I can remove the SD card from my 3DS and upload the photos to the computer. I am still computer illiterate. It just came to my head this month that I can use my 3DS to upload photos to Imgur and post them here so you might start seeing photos in this blog now but not any face shots or any details of my home or of my kids and my husband and parents, etc.

I got finished getting changed and then dressed and my husband got ready and the he went out to water the garden he made and I got my kids dressed and her in a fresh diaper and my mom came home and she did some cleaning despite that I had done some cleaning this morning too. I also cleaned my room by sweeping and picking up my kid’s toys. Then we left to go to Artie’s and my in laws and my sister in law couldn’t make it because they didn’t have any money for gas. Plus my brother in law is using their car because he is trying to get a new job and he is also getting a used car so he had to borrow from us to get the title. He needs a car for work. Then he always pays us back with his tax return money. Artie and his wife had hamburgers, hot dogs, vegetables and dip, chips, baked beans, and chicken. I only had baked beans and my daughter ate, my son refused to have anything except for a banana they offered. They also played poker and we won 25 bucks which goes towards our trip. I didn’t play, I just read a chapter of 50 Shades of Gray and I played my 3DS and Artie’s 16 year old son played one of my DS games but not very long and we talked. It was about how long they had been living in the house, how old it is, when they added on to it, when my son was three months old and he made funny faces at him and he thought it was funny so it taught me to make those faces too to make him laugh. I copied. He also looked at my 3DS/DS games I had in the case. My son played outside with one other kid who is three years older than him and my son is almost as tall as him and he is only four. My daughter just crawled around and played. I got tired from being there, literally tired, so I felt like I was falling asleep so I told my husband I was leaving and he had me bring the kids with. It wasn’t hard getting my son to leave, I told him it was time to go and he went with me but he was upset he lost his candy my husband got him at a gas station on the way but he got over it. Then when I came home, I felt exhausted so I relaxed on the computer and then all of a sudden I had energy to go outside with my son when he brought up the swing I bought for my daughter a week ago and I had forgotten about it. I put my shoes on and took it outside and hung it and put my daughter in it. I pushed them both in their swing and my daughter leaned way too far in her swing and tipped and I caught her before she could fall out. That is why you don’t leave a baby unattended in the swing. She liked the swing and laughed as she rode in it. Then I was done and brought her inside and got her ready for bed.

My husband got a ride home from one of Artie’s kids and he played on my husband’s computer while my son laid in bed to go to sleep. I let him watch TV until past nine and I turned it off and put music on for him instead. I had him lay in my bed because I didn’t want him to disturb his sister and wake her up or keep her awake because my son can be loud. Then she woke up so I had to feed her and she only had a banana. She nearly ate the whole thing so I got her hands cleaned up and her tray and put her back to bed. But she started crying and I let her because she didn’t want to go to sleep so my dad decided to rock her and then he put her down and she went back yo crying again so I told him to just let her cry. She did and then went to sleep. She had been fed, already had her bottle and he put a clean diaper on her so what else was there to cry about? Sometimes you have to let your baby cry itself to sleep and I know this is controversial because not everyone believes you should let a baby cry to sleep. I am not saying you should ignore them if they are scared or sick or wet or messy or hungry, if they are crying just because they are having a fit because they don’t want to go to sleep, that is different to just let them cry it out. Sometimes I let her fall asleep in my lap and then I put her in her crib after she had been crying for a while and because she is wide awake.

I would say today was better because I got stressed out from yesterday due to too much noise and chaos. My husband had his mom and sister come over and his brother and my son was all hyper and running around and whining so I got over stimulated and so much demands being thrown at me. Then I had a little outburst and my mom asked me why am I so angry and I said I was too stimulated so she had to help me out. But today was calmer because it was just us at home and mom was at work and dad and my brother were still on their trip and my son spent most of his time on his 3DS watching youtube or playing Super Mario DS or Monster Hunter 4 demo and he was calm and my daughter wasn’t fussy and she took a long nap so it was quiet around here. I wish everyday was like this, all peace and quiet and no fussy baby and no whiny son or hyperactive so I was more calm and relaxed.

Oh and bonus picture:

(warning: crotch shot and it may be graphic because a little part of my breasts show)

This is me in a clean Bambino before leaving for the BBQ.

Sometimes I Enjoy Pain

I remember as a child I would sometimes run a piece of Easter grass through my gums between my teeth until they bled because I enjoyed the feeling.

I also enjoy getting my pimples popped even though it hurts sometimes but it’s still a good feeling.

When I was in labor, I actually enjoyed the whole thing even though the contractions were intense but it wasn’t bad. I would do it all over in a heart beat if all labors and births were the same. I don’t know if I will be that lucky again next time when I have another baby.

As a kid I would have this brush used on my skin to treat my sensory integration disorder ans I hated the feeling but now if I am ever itchy due to a spider bite or mosquito bite, I enjoy using that brush over the itchy spot and I enjoy the feeling. Now I am don’t know where I put the darn thing so I have used a comb before to rub on it and then used anything else and my fingers.

I remember when I was 17, I had this wart on my toe and I sometimes enjoyed the feeling down there. I would pressed on it and poke at it and my mother told me it was a wart and it can only be removed by the doctor. She made an appointment for me and I went in and had it frozen. The doctor told me that thing must hurt and I said it did. But I still preferred if it was removed because I didn’t want to live like that for the rest of my life. So he froze it and I felt nothing until after he was done. That feeling I didn’t enjoy but it went away by the time I got out to the car.

This morning I woke up and the diaper was uncomfortable because it was wet so it was making my sore spots sting. So I took it off after wetting it one last time and tossed it in the trash and then I used a wipe to clean myself up and I enjoyed running it over the sore spots and it felt good. My son just screams when we rub his sore spots but he doesn’t scream when it’s done with a wet rag. But I enjoyed the feeling when I rubbed a wipe over the spots and I could do it longer but I wanted to get back to sleep. So I put panties on to air it out and I put my pants back on and went back to sleep.

Then I got up at 11:39 and I used the toilet and then put rash cream on and a diaper and plastic pants and put my pants back on.