My Game Over Onesie

When it came in the mail yesterday. I just had to wear it. I put it on for my work out and worked out in the onesie only and in my socks and shoes. It felt good and it looks like a regular clothing item except it has snaps at the bottom and it hid my diaper pretty well.

My son would’t quit knocking on the door and asking to come in and I kept telling him no. He does not take no for an answer so he will keep pushing and pushing, another reason why I never take him out and I get cranky when I have him and then I am mad at him at the end and need to be alone and I can’t talk. I am so worn out.

But my son finally comes in my room and doesn’t knowledge my new outfit and my daughter comes in too and she also doesn’t notice my outfit. They just play with my toys in the toy chest. Lot of them are just Happy Meal toys and some others are My Little Pony dolls from my childhood and I have some Pocahontas toy set from my childhood I bought at Disneyland with my own money I got from our garage sale from stuff I sold. I also have a virtual 102 Dalmatians pet I found as a newly adult. I dunno if it still works, batteries had corroded in it. 102 Dalmatians has also been one of my favorite movies and Cruella De Vil is my favorite villain. It has been weird seeing Glenn Close in her other movies as a good person so that just means she did great with her role in the Disney film. Some other toys in my toy box I have had since my teen years which are just happy Meal stuff like the 102 Dalmatian toys and those electronic Sonic games. I used to have more of those electronic games but got rid of them when the batteries died in them. And some other toys I got as an adult from Happy Meals. I even have Shopkins and Cutie cars in there from the Happy Meals. I mostly just buy the toys. That was how I completed my Toy Story 4 RV set.

My daughter then notices my suit and says I have a tail and my son then sees it and I asked him to read the words on my butt and he tries to sound it out but says it wrong so I asked him to spell the word. He spelt it out and I said it said Nerf and then he read the second word. Then he put two and two together for the words and the dot and said “Oh I get it, we are supposed to shoot you there, I have my Nerf gun, can I shoot at it” and I tell him I don’t want anything being shot at me. He also recognizes it’s a video game outfit and I tell him it’s just a body suit. I wasn’t going to tell him it was an adult onesie. He also said I had padding in there. That was my diaper and he just thought it was part of the outfit. The padding was to protect me from the Nerfs he thought and I let him think that.

I wanted to wear it around the house too but was unsure how my parents would feel if they saw me in it so I out some shorts on after the work out and wore it like that until I had to get ready for work.

The next day I decided to wear it again but this time under my normal clothes. At least it will keep my diaper from showing and I can wear anything. I pick out a pair of skinny jeans that are too big on me I have had since I was 18 and I pick out a t shirt with Koala bears all over and I tuck it in. I even use a belt and tie it around my waist to hold the pants up.

I took my son to this story time event at Barnes & Noble (Toy story 4 they were doing and each child makes their own Forky and they get a $4 coupon for the B&N cafe for the kid’s meal thing there and a choice of drink or milk) and told my daughter I will do an outing with her next time. My reason is I just can’t handle two kids and my husband wanted to stay home because of his feet and my parents had plans. So I wore my onesie there under my outfit and the shirt stayed tucked but the pants kept riding down because they were big on me from weight loss. Even with a thick diaper, I would think they would stay up but they don’t. The belt doesn’t stay tight either so I had to keep retying it to make it tight again. But that is what my onesie was for. I also wore a jacket that was made of cotton.

Then after the story event, I went to a neighborhood yard sale and took my son there and he had brought his piggy bank along. He did buy some Boomblox stuff at B&N and fortunately they were not busy because lot of the money he had were just change so we had it all over the counter and me and the cashier were counting it out. He was the only cashier. Then after my son paid for his toys, i paid for my little Shopkin.

My son got a Nintenddogs game (Dalmatian version, he loves Dalmatian and I tell him they are both alike so I already have a Dalmatian and he wants a dog which we refuse to get because we don’t want to take care of any pets) and I got my daughter a dress and I got a pair of pajama bottoms that were child looking and I also got her a Disney Princess doll for free and I got a Shopkins book for free because some neighborhoods here do this book drop off thing where people just put their books in there for anyone to take. It’s a socialism thing they do. Have books you already read and would like to share, just put them in there for someone else to take to read but you take at least one book, not all of them. I wish my neighborhood did something like that. My son also got himself some lemonade and a cookie with his own money. Where did he get all these coins, he said he had been finding them all over the house and on the ground. Plus I gave him some of that money my work buddy found in the dorm in one of the desks and said to me “I never saw this money, you can have it” and had me clean it out of the drawer.

We also did the bouncy toy together, one of those bouncy things on air that blow up and you jump in and the neighborhood was also doing some block party so they had the street closed off. I got to go in there because I was light enough and some other parent went in there too and she was also pretty skinny.

Then after that we went home and I changed out of my onesie and changed into a different pair of pants but kept the same shirt and socks but I changed my shoes. I then did some yard work; pulled some weeds, cut up some thorn bushes and put them in the compost bin. I am clearing out this section in our yard that was being swallowed by that weed. Then I cut the grass in the front yard and way in the back yard.

I enjoyed wearing my Onesie. I plan on wearing it again tomorrow under my normal clothes. I can even wear short skirts again with nothing under it because the onesie will just hide my diaper and I don’t have to worry about them showing. I wore a pair of underwear (I found at Goodwill and brand new too) over my diapers and they hid them well so I wore my Hello Kitty skirt for it.

I found a yard sale on my local craigslist here and they are selling a bunch of video games and I want to check it out tomorrow. They had a bunch of photos too of their stuff they are selling and the prices they are showing. I won’t be surprised if lot of the games are gone because 50 cents each for a PS1 game. I will bring my daughter this time since it would be her turn for an outing. I love looking at video games and buying them whatever catches my interest. But then I never even play them so I guess I hoard things. I see myself more of a collector and I just play with them by stacking them and looking at them and organizing.

A fantasy I want to try

A thought popped in my head. My family is planning on going to Montana in August and I requested vacation time again.

A fantasy came to my head, more like a social experiment, Montana is a conservative state so it made me think how me and my husband shall go out alone to Missoula or Kalispell, just the two of us and I am dressed up like a baby, an obvious baby and I carry a diaper bag around and I am obviously diapered. Then we will both see how much attention we get. How do people react, will conservatives feel threatened by something unusual and give me trouble about it? They hate change. Or will they go the liberal route and say nothing and just ignore it? Would it be because they are secretly judging us or because they wouldn’t dare to confront you because you could be one of those crazy leftists?

I told my husband about it and he liked the idea and said he will do it too, dress him up like a baby and I am the normal one and we will see what different reactions we get between a man and woman doing it. We will both take turns and do it two days in a row.

Now this is just an idea here, it doesn’t mean we will actually do it. Anything there could be preventing us from doing it or maybe it will be because we didn’t get the courage to do it. Do I really want to be seen like that by my family, what about by my brothers’ friends if they are there? What about our kids? I have thought we could always change in a restroom after we leave and no one would know. Then we change back into our regular clothes when we go home.

We can’t do that here in the West coast where everyone is too liberal because no one isn’t going to care. Plus we live in a city where our motto is to keep everything weird so if I went out as an obvious baby and obviously padded, I doubt that is going to get me any attention and everyone is just going to carry on and mind their business and act like they don’t notice. I have already done this twice at a nude beach (or maybe 3), go and be there diapered and have nothing on and how much attention had I gotten, almost zero. Last time I did it, I only got attention from 1 person and that was it. But we did get lot of stares and that was it. But no one cared.

And we also don’t want to be doing it in two small towns where I grew up because I don’t want to be seen by people I knew as a teen. In small towns you are most likely to run into people you know. Then what am I going to explain to them? That I am just doing some social experiment to see what reactions I get for how I am dressed? That I had lost a bet perhaps or that I did a dare and now I must take photos now to show that I actually did it?

No more toilets challenge

My birthday is coming up in 4 weeks. I already got a birthday present from daddy, it was that Game Over onesie. Amazon came and dropped it off and I got a email about it but it wasn’t at either door. I got scared someone had stolen it already or maybe the carrier did. So I went to my account and tracked the package and I saw the package was on our patio and they had just tossed it on the ground next to the busted frog which my dad said he would clean up the other day. So I went out there and got it.

I had decided on something. Since I have always wanted to be fully dependent on diapers and do everything in them, I had decided I will mind as well start bringing some extra diapers with for in case I have to do a bowel movement when I am out of the house and then go change. I am already carrying a diaper bag around and the other day I had used my hiking back pack because I had decided to carry one extra diaper so I put my other stuff in it too I keep in my purse.

At work yesterday I had used my regular diaper bag again because I only had one extra diaper and I decided to not change into a fresh one before work so I put on my Hello Kitty plastic pants and wore them to work. I had a slight leak when I got off the train after work and I didn’t know I had badly leaked until my husband took them off for my diaper change. They were dripping and the diaper was wet and on the outside too. I did wash the pants in the sink after the sex and diaper change. Then I just hung them up on the hanger above the sink and then turned the washer on because I had clothes in it that needed to be washed and I am washing my work shirts and my skinny jeans I leaked on.

I decided after my birthday, how many days can I go without even using the toilet. That means possibly going through some extra diapers a day due to poop. I put a clean diaper on and then I already have to make a BM a few hours later or even an hour later. If it gets too expensive, I can always just go back to using the toilet again for number 2’s to save on diapers and I only mess in them if I am going to change it anyway or have had it on for too long so I would have a reason to change. Daddy won’t know I am breaking the rule. I am supposed to be doing everything in them and not ever use the toilet. I also don’t want to be taking Nullo or Devrom because of how expensive they are and because you have to take so many of them a day for them to be effective. They are also used for body odor too, some people have very bad BO when they sweat so they might take those pills too.

Last time I did something like this was when I was 19 ( I might have done that same challenge again in later life but can’t remember) and it was with an eating disorder when I was throwing up my food but that is another story. I will say I haven’t done that in a real long time and my teeth are fine but maybe that is why they are yellow now. I sometimes worry it will come back so I work out and just control my food portions and limit sweets and I feel more empowered that way. Eating disorders are no fun.