Today I was in the basement on the computer with my son and listening to music on my husband’s computer. I come back to the basement after I checked up on my daughter who is napping. Then my husband calls me to come here and I walk up to him and he whispers in my ear that I leaked. I didn’t feel any wet spots so he pointed to my butt and there was the tiny wet spot. I asked him how bad it was and he said it was pretty pad. I must have peed through my diaper in the back. So I grab a clean diaper and go change in the laundry room and I looked at my pants after taking them of. Sure enough there was a wet spot in the middle of them on the butt and a tiny wet spot on the side. I change and put on some clean pants. Good thing this didn’t happen in public and the diaper was very wet almost to the top. I must have peed a lot so that is a good thing. Maybe that made me pee off a pound or so.
This is why I should always keep a spare in my purse. I took my husband to get his pills and then I headed to the mall because he said he would just take the train home. I park my car at the mall and I wet myself and then I leak because I had peed through the diaper again. I thought about turning the car back on and just going home but then I might be late to work because I didn’t know how bad traffic would be. Last time the freeway was slow so we both ended up going to the mall and then my husband and I separated and he did his own thing while I went to the bookstore until work. So I headed inside anyway and my pants were wet, just the front where my leg is and part of the back and I don’t think they were noticeable because they were jeans and I had on a long work shirt. I head into the restroom and just wipe off my diaper to dry it off using toilet paper and my finger nail scratched the outside of the diaper leaving two slits. I had to stay in the same diaper and not pee it again so I ended up with a full bladder and dealing with the pain to go while working. The wet spots did dry eventually and I didn’t wet the diaper again until I was taking it off and I flooded it and it felt like I was swimming in it. It must have been a defective diaper again because it was the second time it’s happened. Last time I was in bed when it happened.
This happened yesterday.
I changed in the bathroom and I took my diaper off and clean my bottom and then I peed again and it went down my leg and on the floor. It wasn’t a lot and it was not vaginal discharge. I used the wipe to soak it and then I got another one and wiped my leg and the floor. Also when I went in the bathroom today to take a dump because I didn’t want to use my diaper for it and waste it, I saw I had a little bit of pee in my diaper because of the small yellow spot I saw. I leak urine sometimes and if I really had an excuse to wear protection, it would be pads because they would take car of my leaks sometimes when it happens. But I wear diapers instead and it’s not for this reason. But I do admit leaking urine does excite me, especially when it went down my leg in the bathroom and I had to clean it up even though it was annoying. I don’t want to pee outside my diapers but yet whenever I leak urine when not wearing a diaper, it excites me. It still does when I leak it into my diaper. This is what sometimes happens when you have kids. Bladder leakage. In fact someone at work has that problem too but it’s way worse than mine because I found Poise pads soaked with pee when I emptied out the sanitary napkin holders and it had two of them in there. Either someone used both of them at once because they won’t use a pull up or a diaper for their problem or they changed it twice in there. But I had seen them upstairs too when I have cleaned the restrooms on the main floor so I assume they came from the same person. It could be from a mother who had bladder leakage but hers is a lot worse than mine.
When I worked in a hotel in downtown, I saw a bunch of trash in the service area from a room attendant and one of the bags was popped open and in there was a very wet adult pull up with a bunch of drenched paper towels soaked with pee. I figured someone wore them in their pull up as soakers and I thought “Why didn’t they just use a diaper, it looks like they need more protection.” but sadly diapers are still stigmatized even people who need to wear them won’t wear one. They might stick with pads or pull ups instead and change like every half hour or so and waste a lot of products when they might be saving money with diapers that have tabs. My goal is not to stigmatize diapers for my kids for if they ever need to wear them such as for bed wetting or if they ever get a medical condition where they might need to wear one. You just never know what can happen to your kids in their lifetime; car accident, UTI, being beaten up, surgery, etc. I have always told my son he didn’t need to wear them anymore so he had to learn to use the potty and he won’t have to get his diapers changed anymore or having to get his butt wiped and he won’t have to be wet or messy anymore. Well that turned out to be a lie because he has wet messy farts so his underwear gets all messy, he still has to get his butt wiped after he poops or when he does wet poopy farts and thanks to my husband, he thinks diapers are for babies because he had told him kids will think he is a baby if he wears them and threatens to put him back in them and kids will make fun of him and think he is a baby because only babies wear them and saying he is a big boy now. what have I done about it? Nothing really except disagree about it and I never bother correcting him (our son) if he says diapers are for babies because I don’t want him to get into diapers and wanting to wear them. (We don’t want to raise our kids to be AB/DL) Plus I have told him his sister pooped because she is a baby and that is what babies do. How else do I explain why she did it when he asked why she pooped or why is she wet or smelly? It’s like he has forgotten I wear them so that shows us wearing them doesn’t make a difference to our kids. They will still associate diapers with babies and not seem to care that we wear them. Instead they might think that only babies and their parent only wears them because that is how concrete they are. But I don’t remind him about me wearing them and I as a mom don’t feel comfortable calling them diapers in front of him when they are mine. It feels like I am pushing my fetish in his face if I do and involving him. I also won’t even let him see me in them anymore and I also won’t let him see pictures of adults in them because I view it as porn and it’s not something I want him to be exposed to. He’s four now so times change as he gets older. Kids can see their parents naked but when they get to a certain age, their parents no longer let them see them naked but in my family we always could if we were the same gender like my brothers could see our dad naked but I couldn’t see him naked and I could see our mom naked but my brothers couldn’t see her naked but my mom and dad could see each other naked because they are married. I thought it was like this in all families but apparently not. Now my dad doesn’t care if I see him naked but I don’t want to see him naked, my mom doesn’t want me to see her naked because then I end up staring at her body. Not that it’s sexy or hot, she doesn’t have a good body but I always like looking at gross and unusual things and things that are different than what I have seen in magazines. But she is fine with seeing me naked including in a diaper but I am not comfortable with the diaper part. Yes we are a weird family.
Today I decided to wear a pair to work instead of taking them off. I got two packs at Big lots and there were seven in a pack so 14 total. I wear them to work and I pee in them but not a lot but when break time comes, I sit down and after break, I notice the back of my pants are wet like I had sat in a puddle. No humiliation here. i just kept on working and then I change after I get done working and I tear the pull up off and put on a Walgreens diaper.
I swear these pull ups are made for accidents when the woman stands but they are not made to hold when she sits because she is expected that she will change after her accident because she didn’t make it to the bathroom in time. So they leaked when I sat. I will never wear them to work again and a Walgreens diaper holds more than this.