The pain on Dailydiapers forum

Last month they had some malware attack so it locked down the forum where no one could post. Then it went back to October 25th and not only that, it also deleted all the stories and lot of the peoples posts leaving only quotes or the beginning of their posts. It’s very annoying and forum is still recovering from the loss. sadly people have lost their stories because they didn’t bother saving them to their computer or to Onedrive or google documents, etc.

I still have my old stories I had written from when I was in high school but they are on a disc somewhere and now I have my current stories and they are on One drive and I don’t need to use a external hard drive anymore to back up everything. I can just go to the office65 website and log into my account and I can access Word on there and access my files there on any computer.

I deleted my story thread on there since I didn’t want to bother restoring all my chapters and it was going to get deleted anyway by admin and mods and I didn’t get very many comments to the story but I did restore my other one since it was a short story I wrote.


Daddy changed my diaper again

My Bambino was reeking of urine and it needed to be changed. I felt slightly damp on my pants but discovered I had leaked a little because I had a little dark spot on my jeans. I took some photos and then went downstairs and started to turn my husband on so he could change me. I pulled my pants down and posed to him and put on a sexy face and then we went upstairs. I laid on my bed but he pulled me up and took off my shirt and I told him this would be a good video to take but he protested saying he likes his life to be private so I told him we can blur out his face and he said he wants mine to be private too. I said I would cover my face. He started to undo my diaper and he removed it and cleaned me up. I had some poop in my butt hole so he cleaned that up. Then he had sex with me and I kept talking about if I were a diaper stripper and if there was such thing and asking about making videos together and selling them to porno sites. He said he would think about it.

Then when he was done having sex, he cleaned me up again and I was on my period because he found blood. Then he put rash cream on me and diapered me but he used the wrong diaper. Oh well. Then I snapped another photo after he left. I wonder how he would react if he discovered I was putting myself out there faceless. He wasn’t too keen on diaper videos. I have always fantasized being in diaper videos so I told him not to worry because I don’t think we have any ABDL model places here or any ABDL studios. Not in our area.

Had to change at work

After I got done with work, I still had ten minutes left and my diaper was reeking of urine. I was debating if I should go change but figured I will wait until I get home. But I peed again and I sat down and I felt the wetness spread all over. I felt it was leaking too in my plastic pants so I went in the bathroom to change. I had brought my wipes and rash cream with and I took photos first and then started changing. The leg bands were all wet and I had no way of rinsing them so I stuck it in my purse where I kept my spare Tena. I also had to look for a plastic bag in the break room so I did. I used it to put my wet diaper in and by the time I was done, it was time to clock out. I clocked out and took the diaper with me and threw it away in the dumpster.

I was lucky I found a plastic bag or otherwise I would have had to go to the storage room and get a plastic bag to put the used diaper in and it would have been transparent. Luckily no one came in the break room nor was anyone on the freight elevator or on the loading dock. I am still not comfortable being seen with a dirty diaper in my hand.

Parenting fail 101

Plastic pants are supposed to hold in the smell right? Wrong. Don’t believe everything you read online.

This morning I got in the car with my kids and my son asks me “What is that smell?”
I realize I am reeking of urine and I play dumb asking “what smell?”
He said “It smells like rotten eggs, your breath.”
I roll down his window to try and air it out and he still smelled it he says. I couldn’t go inside to change because I had to get him to school or he would have been late. He moved on playing his 3DS and the smell did go away and then it came back later on the way home. I also realized how soaked my diaper felt while I felt dry this morning when I got out of bed even though I had peed in it several times at night. I woke up a couple times, laid on my back and peed and laid on my side again. None of them felt like big ones.

Regression with video games

I still have video games from my childhood and teen years. The first game I have is The Little Mermaid for Sega Genesis I got at Fred Meyer when I was seven. The rest belonged to my brothers and they all got stolen from their game cases at my parents house after I moved out. The other game I had from when I was ten is Lotus II and the other is Buster’s Hidden Treasure I got in 6th grade at toys R Us. The rest I have I got in my teens and twenties at Gamestop and other game stores or online and Sonic games I had I traded in because I have them on my PS2 under Sonic Mega Collection Plus and I had them for Sonic Mega Collection for Gamecube. Nintendo 64 games I have I had from my teens and adult years and I still have them. I started buying video games and gaming systems when I was 15 and it built up over the years. Before then, I only got a new game for my birthday or Christmas and the rest I had to rent. Back then Nintendo 64 games were 50 bucks so that was like all my allowance. My brothers and I had to pool our allowance to get it and we spent all our money on the system itself and it only came with one controller so we had to buy one extra one and my parents bought a game with it as a birthday present for my brother.

Lately I have been playing the Nintendo 64. I guess writing made me want to play it again so I was playing Goldeneye and saw how much I sucked at because I hadn’t played it in years it and I played Blast Corps and I did play Kirby 64 on my virtual console last month when I moved back into my old bedroom when my parents semi moved out. I beat the game in 3 hours and I was surprised how I still knew the secrets and where the shards were hidden and I didn’t suck at it. Though i did had to take a peek at the online walkthrough because I wasn’t sure where some the shards were hidden. I introduced my son to the game system and the game Goldeneye but he found it hard to play and couldn’t figure out the controls. I still have my original file on the game and it’s 007 because I unlocked everything using cheats when I was 15. I remember I named every character in the game with different faces, I had Nathan, Zac, and I borrowed the name Dr. Doak for enemies that had the same face as him. I also used to joke about Natalya being stupid because she always got in the way and calling her diaper butt because it looked like she had a diaper on in the Control Center level. I remember playing the game and dying a lot and failing missions and having to quit the level and try again and also failing missions on purpose to see what happens and trying to mess with glitches.
I also played South Park and sucked at it. I used to get to episode three level 1 and now I can’t make it past the first level anymore past the boss because I hadn’t played it for so long and it took me lot of practice to finally get past that first level. But I still remember Bobbybird and used that to beat the game.

Sometimes I like to go back to my childhood by playing retro games than playing my 3DS. My son has told kids at his school how many games I have and none of them believed him. I have showed him the Playstation 2 which is hard to get to work because the back piece is loose that holds the power and I have to have the cord in a certain position for it to work. He wanted to play old fashioning Sonic so I showed him Sonic Mega Collection Plus and we played Sonic 3 together. My son is finally at an age when I can start relating to him and that is with video games and he can play them now.

I have over 630 video games and I am not counting all my son’s games or my husband’s and I didn’t include our PS3 games or my game Boy Advance videos and the board games for Game Boy Advance and Nintendo DS or virtual console games or games on my 3DS from the eshop and any digital retail purchases. This is from over the years of buying video games and I have found cheap ones too after they stopped making the DS games and Game Boy ones and Game Boy Advance and it’s amazing how cheap they get now. I also ebayed a lot with video games and try and get them for cheap and hope no one bids on the game. Now it’s been a while since I have bought anything on ebay. Wait, that was a lie, I used it this summer when I got got two sets of Shopkins. I occasionally use it still. We have been using Amazon now or I use other websites to make my diaper purchases and I don’t really buy video games online anymore because I have most of them now I am interested in and there are never any particular games I am looking for. I only go for games I want to play, I don’t buy to collect so that is why I don’t have that big of selection of the Sega Master games or the PSP and I don’t have any XBOX games or PS Vita. Plus I rent from Gamefly so I can play the games and not have to purchase them though I am considering buying Miitopia so I can get another game shipped. I waited few months to get that game to play it and it’s not in our budget right now to buy it and my 3DS system is getting too full for more video games and I want to leave some space for game updates and system updates and not fill it all up to 0 blocks and I want to leave room for me to re download some games I deleted. Not only am I just a ABDL, I also like video games. I don’t know if I would consider myself a gamer, I don’t play online and I don’t do computer games. I do mobile games sometimes and then I delete the app when I am not playing it anymore to save space since my phone only has 16 GB. Anything I get interested in, I keep buying. I have done that with my Nook and Kindle, 3Ds, Lite Brite stuff, Benny & Joon, AB clothes, cloth diapers. Then I get free interests where I just read about stuff online and watch vidoes and not spend money on it unless you want to count the internet because that costs money but it’s a monthly payment. Then I never get rid of anything and I find that hard too. I have even bought clothes too and then ended up with too much of them I stopped buying them and looking at them and now I haven’t bought any in ten years I’m guessing. I have managed to get rid of half of them over the years when I would be downsizing my apartment when I was nesting and getting rid of them of them again when they get too big and keep falling down because the elastic got too worn out in the waist or I lost weight. I do not like anything hanging on my legs which is why I always wore pants up past my belly button or up to it while other kids didn’t. I tried that and it never felt comfortable because I hated the saggy feeling between my legs and around my buttocks. I have been given occupational therapy for my tactile issues but this never went away. I don’t even like saggy diapers or diapers feeling loose on me either, I only like them snug because I like the tight feeling but ironically as a child I didn’t like jeans because of the tight feeling but yet I wore stretch pants and I wore turtle necks but my youngest brother hated turtle necks because he didn’t like anything around his neck.

I sometimes wonder how I am not even broke when I go spending money on anything I get obsessed with or interested in. I think I have toned it down after having kids because they need food and clothes and then there are the holidays and their birthdays and it’s a matter of setting examples so I don’t want to teach them to be hoarders and buy junk so I often don’t buy them toys because they have toys and every few months we go through them to get rid of so they can make room for new toys. I keep the ones they often play with and even I have gotten rid of stuff I decided I didn’t need so that sets them a good example.

My mother doesn’t see what I do as hoarding because my room or house doesn’t look like the ones in those TV shows and thing I have are considered collectible and she doesn’t call it hoarding. I have even bought unopened Barbies from the 1990’s and have them up in the attic so my kids can’t get to them. I also have a bunch of unopened Happy Meal toys my husband gave me when we were in our first year of our relationship. Some lady was going through her stuff and she had a bunch of those and was going to give them away so my husband said he can take those and his girlfriend loves those things so he took two bags of them and brought them over to me. Some of them I already had from childhood so they were duplicates. Now I have them all in one bag up in the attic. I just have troubles getting rid of things so it always takes effort and when I do, that is a accomplishment. But I know what I do is nothing compared to the people on the show or what Donald Morton in Mozart and the Whale did.

Lot of stuff from my childhood is either out in the cottage in the attic here or still in Montana packed away in my parents’ old house or in my deceased grandparents’ basement. Things get lost when you move. I know I have a few items in my deceased grandfather’s chicken house and now that property is owned by my aunt and uncle, same as for the house and small house I used to live in by myself.

Bambinos failing me

Twice, Classicos have been leaking on me. They did that last time too on my last batch. This is so disappointing. Either the design is now bad and the company has gotten cheap or my hip size has shrunk too much they are now too big. I am now down to 34 inches and the diapers are supposed to fit 32-40 waist/hip size. I always go by hip size because my waist size is smaller than my hips. Part of being a woman. I now need to invest in some plastic pants again and may need to get smaller sizes this time because I am not using cloth. I took them out of the plastic bags in the basement and they were all dirty so I washed them in the tub and hung them to dry. I actually rinsed them. I would only use them on diapers that fail me that are supposed to hold well. Mediums is the smallest size the company carries. They used to carry smalls but they stopped because of not enough demand and I am not going to put on weight again just so Bambinos will work with me. I do try to make them tight and now the tabs are pretty close together. They feel like a large now.

I had to come home and change my pants and I put on a pair of plastic pants that weren’t dirty and I put on a clean pair of pants. I did measure my thighs and legs and decided to go for 21 inches. That will help me figure out the size and I should measure my hips again with the diaper on to see what size to get.

I can’t hear through the whining and yelling

Someone posted a video on a ABDL forum about a small child being forced into diapers. I watched it and didn’t understand it. What was happening in the video, why was she crying? Why is the mother yelling and what is the little girl saying and the mom? When someone is whining and crying, I can’t understand a word they are saying, same goes for the mother shouting. All I am hearing is noise noise noise and I can’t make out the words. Then I cannot judge the video because I have no idea what the hell is going on in it. But from reading the comments, the mom is mad at her for wetting the bed or her pants, I don’t know which she did and I don’t know if the mom had made her wear that diaper during the day or what but at that age it’s pretty normal to be wearing a diaper and you can’t really humiliate a small child because they have no concept of it. Though my brother got humiliated when he was three or four when my mom spanked him at our neighborhood sledding hill because he left our house without waiting for her. there were other kids at the hill and my brother has always been more advanced and my mom thinks he might have been gifted. He is very smart and excellent at math and in 4th grade he was doing 5th grade school work and in high school he was taking classes for higher grades and was allowed to not take all his freshman classes so he could do harder classes. Now he is a lawyer and is working his first year as one.

When my children whine, I can’t understand what they are saying and I can never stand to hear the sound. So when parents tell their kids they can’t understand them when they whine, I think they really do mean it and are not just saying it to get them to stop as some people have claimed. Not everyone can process the words when someone is whining. My youngest brother can’t even hear a word you are saying when you are yelling at him. That was probably why he never listened to my parents growing up because he couldn’t understand them when they were yelling at him until age 16 when he told our mother when she yells at him, all he is hearing is the yelling, not the words. What did my mother do after that, she started to talk to him in a quiet normal voice I couldn’t even tell when she was mad at him because to me yelling means mad, no yelling means not mad. Now I know you don’t need to yell to show you are mad so my question is how can you tell when someone is mad at you if they are not yelling at you? I guess this is one of those guessing games people play. I will know someone is mad if they tell me they are. They will say things like “I am not happy with you” “I am upset with you.”