The labels “little” and “littlespace.”

These are words I have often heard in the ABDL community. It means they act like kids and have emotions of them and when they get into littlespace, they are doing childish things. Supposedly this is a kink. But people with it say this isn’t a kink so why the term “little?” Why apply this word to yourself if none of this is sexual?

My rant is ABDLs who have kids have to ask how they can get into little space or something when they have a kid around, especially a toddler.

To me, this is ridiculous this even has to be asked. It’s called being a parent. There is no difference between a ABDL and a vanilla playing with their child. No one would call it little space if a vanilla plays with their kid so why call it that as an ABDL?

Now, I am not the label police so I am not going to be telling people what they can and can’t call themselves because:

“But you are autistic, you shouldn’t be calling yourself a little because are you being immature on purpose and role playing when you stim and have meltdowns?”

“But you have anxiety, you shouldn’t call yourself a little because are you faking your emotions when you have panic attacks and act immature when you are upset?”

“But you are child like, you can’t call yourself a little because are you having childish interests on purpose? Are you role playing when you watch Rugrats?”

“But you are a parent, you can’t call yourself a little or else you are role playing when you are spending time with your kids. That is so pedophilia.”

See? People can label themselves a little all they want, that is their choice. Let them deal with the consequences because little implies kink and kink implies choice and that is something you can control and turn on and off just because people might be too stupid to tell the difference and see them as them but instead they see everything about them as ABDL no matter how vanilla they are being.

That is why I do not call myself a little, I also do not call my interests littlespace. To me, that would be insulting to call it a kink. If I play with my kids, I would not call it role playing because it would be very insulting just like it would be insulting to call me a little because my happiness was too immature and too childlike. No, I am not role playing you dolt. Little implies role play.

It screams Jerryism when anyone tries to say this is a kink and you are being a pedophile or borderline pedo when you suggest you can do fun activities with your kids like cook, watch TV with them, play with them, cook together, and someone calls it involving them in your kinks.

People are free to label themselves a little all they like and call it their littlespace all they like while I choose to not use these labels on myself. Maybe Jerry had something to do with it so it’s too triggering. There is a reason why age regressers or why people with ASDs may not want any kinksters following them, especially littles and other ABDLs because they do not want their disability and their persoanlity, their emotions, etc. to be sexualized and be accused of doing “their kinks” 24/7 because people would be confused and assume they are also kinsters because of who is following them. They don’t want to deal with any Jerries or get any Jerry comments.

If someone who is child like wants to call themselves a little, that is their choice. I won’t tell them they can’t call themselves that or else they could deal with Jerries out there because they would see everything they do as ABDL and not see them as them. Same as for the word age play. I wouldn’t call it age play if a parent gets on the ground with their 3 year old and starts playing with them and building forts with them and going in there. But if they decided to call it age play, they are opening themselves to judgment because age play implies kink, sexual.

It’s very hard for me to apply any kink labels to myself other than ABDL. Pacifiers are a choice and so are AB nurseries and AB clothing. They are not a personality. But, I would not call someone an AB if they had to sleep in a crib for medical reasons. If that were me, I might have also have a hard time applying ABDL to myself if I had to wear diapers, needed a caretaker and always needing assistance for feeding and bathing, getting dressed, etc.

Like I say ABDL implies kink and kink implies choice so if someone needs care assistance and needs to be in a crib and they are incontinent, I would not label them as an AB but however, it would be up to them if they want to call themselves ABDL. That is their label, I won’t tell them they can’t call themselves that or else they are implying they do all these things on purpose and are just gaming the system so they can live their AB life. Anyone who would make that assumption about them because of the ABDL label is an idiot. I am smart enough to not be a Jerry about it by calling them pedos or saying they are putting their kinks in front of their caregiver and other kids that come to the home to visit.

It’s funny how my ex was able to separate all these things but couldn’t do it with me which makes me think my ex did it on purpose. If I were not into ABDL, I don’t think this would have happened.

So that is why I refuse to call anything of mine little space or even call myself a little. I am child like and childlike is not a kink, it’s a personality.

My advice to parents out there who have kids and wondering how they can do littlespace, drop the “littlespace” label if you are concerned. If you have a toddler, drop that label and just call it parenting. It’s not littlespace, it’s called being a parent and playing with your kid, you are not role playing, you are being a parent. Now your problem has been solved, no more worries. This is not a kink, it’s being a parent. Anyone who calls it pedophilia just because you are a little and go into littlespace is an idiot and being a Jerry because they are forgetting this is what normal parents do except they don’t call it littlespace. So that is why I will tell you, drop that label if you are that concerned. You can use that label again when your kid is old enough and has outgrown the playtime you like to do. There is no difference between vanilla parents and ABDL parents, just the label.

Call yourself whatever you want, it’s your label.

God’s way

I am not a religious person, I am in fact an atheist. That means I don’t believe there is a god and he is a made up story tale like Santa Claus and I also don’t believe in religion.

But some people use religion to cope with the unknown or use it to cope with bad situations or to deal with grief. Even religion seems to be common in death row inmates because they live every day in their cell not knowing if someone will come up to them and tell them their death warrant had been signed and they are scheduled to be executed. They have no idea if they will even be alive the following year either. Some terminally ill patients may even use religion to deal with their upcoming death and their family members and their partner.

Lets pretend I am indeed religious. I lost my Onlyfans page so I decide to use religion. This is how I would deal with the unknown, my grief over losing my revenue. This was god’s way of telling me I was taking myself for granted and not giving myself enough credit for my content because I was being too cheap by charging everyone 5 bucks and then only 3 bucks. for a subscription. Most creators charge a lot more than that and charge very low when they want to make more money so they get more subscribers and make more sales. I don’t believe in greed, I don’t believe in money grubbing. I believe in going out and getting a job and work and gigs are just gigs. It makes sense to charge a lot if it costs you supplies to make it, plus shipping and all that. But I am only shooting videos and photos and that costs me nothing. I have been called a socialist. To me if I am getting plenty of money to live comfortably, I don’t need to ask for more. Most businesses will go “gimme gimme gimme, more, more, more” even though they were making plenty of money already, enough to pay their employers and enough to pay to maintain their buildings and lot of people will complain about businesses being greedy. If Netflix decided to add in some extra charges like you now have to rent movies on their stream service, you bet that will cause lot of backlash and that will give them loss in revenue because people would be cancelling their subscription. That is what greed can do.

Nintendo jumped on the bandwagon to start charging people to play online and lot of people were pissed. They used to not charge and then decided to. But luckily they are cheap about it. But it is still greed. Reminds me in a Bearenstein bears episode where Brother and Sister bear had figured out how the system worked. They wanted to buy these jackets but Momma and Pappa Bear would not buy them for them and suggested they earn them. So Brother and Sister did exactly what they wanted, they started to find ways to earn money but they turned to greed. Instead of just doing things for others and helping, they were now charging everyone for their time. The episode basically showed a flaw in capitalism. This is basically what businesses do because of capitalism. It’s all about making profit than about people. So Momma and Pappa Bear were mad at their cubs than realizing how messed up the system is and being proud of them figuring out how the system works. But I don’t think capitalism is the problem, it’s people. Mama Bear and Papa Bear certainly didn’t like it how their kids jumped onto that level.

But anyway, I moved onto other platform, I now have Patreon, Manyvids account, have a shop on scatshop. This was god’s way of trying to make me charge more for my content because of capitalism and he didn’t like me being a socialist. Now I am having problems getting another video uploaded and I wonder if this is his way of saying, “you need to charge more for your videos, no more $9.99. Go higher.” Or maybe it’s his way of telling me, “Don’t make videos doing something outside your interest for revenue, keep making diaper change videos.” After writing this part, the video got approved after I used a still photo as a featured photo than a GIF.

Without using religion, I had tremendous anxiety when I lost my Onlyfans page because of the unknown. I didn’t know if someone had falsely reported my page, do I have an enemy, was it someone from K***farms or 8**.net or *chan. I had no idea if someone would try and shut me down again on other websites. This is why people sometimes turn to religion to cope with the unknown. Without god, you are having worries and paranoid thoughts because of a situation you had no control over and you can’t get answers. I have no idea if other people get very stressed out and also have anxiety when they lose their account randomly without warning. I was never given an email when it shut down and I had to email them to ask what was going on and I was only given a general answer, no reason given. Then the rest of my messages were ignored and then I was eventually blocked from their site. I might have been a computer that did it and since they won’t bother to look at it, that is why their customer service sucks.

I haven’t used the toilet since last summer

It’s been going very well. It’s not too hard to mess my diapers and my body is still on a timer for when not to mess because it seems to know when I am out in public with people around which is good. But I am still dealing with the urges and then it comes out when I am alone.

I was once at Gamestop when the urge hit but I didn’t mess my diaper until I got home and another time when I went to a play with my son for his field trip, the urge slightly hit but it came and went. Then finally back at school I was waiting in my car when the urge got very strong so I messed my diaper. This stuff is normal for me.

So it’s just all been diapers, no toilets. I still have my Red Bulls and that also makes me mess and I notice if I do a couple days without, I get massive head aches and I also don’t poop either unless I have caffiene. With the outbreak now, I have been drinking more diet pop and more Crystal Light to substitute for Red Bulls because our state went into quarantine. Now only essential places are open and you can only leave the house for essential reasons and we can still go out for walks or go to hiking trails. I think that is stupid because those places are always crowded. Everyone wants to do something out of the house so they go out to places where there are no people but, here is the thing. Everyone has the same idea so hiking trails have been crowded, even beaches are crowded that some of the towns had to shut down their resorts and hotels and RV and campsites to kick out tourists. Plus they told them to leave or get arrested.

Another thing about this outbreak is my family was struggling with toilet paper because we ran out and I had to bring some home from work from the restrooms I cleaned. They were just used rolls that had been replaced with new rolls. My parents could not find any toilet paper and this was not something I thought about because I wear diapers and don’t use toilet paper. But then I heard about shortage on wipes so I had to run to the store and get a case before they were all gone. But all the cases were gone so all they had left were single packs or small packs so I grabbed 3 packs of wipes, the cheapest, and went home. That should last me a few months because it takes me a while to go through a whole case of wipes. Plus I had to go on Amazon to order another tub of 16 oz Desitin because I saw there was also a shortage on rash cream and I was running low on mine. That also lasts me a while too.

Getting toilet paper has become getting a new gaming system because people now have to leave early and wait in line for toilet paper and stores have each pack limited 1 per customer. My dad had to get up early and go to Albertsons at 7am and get a pack and it cost him $24 because he had to get the expensive ones because they barely had any and he picked up the first one he saw. I don’t even have to worry about any of this but my family does because they don’t wear diapers.

I also got a Tykables subscription and every 3 months I will cancel and them resume when I run low of diapers. My last Tykables case lasted me two months because their diapers hold so much I can go from day one to day 2 without a change and then I need a clean diaper, not because it will leak but because it starts to smell. Unless I mess, then I will need a new diaper sooner. But because they ship every 28 days, I will be having lot of diapers so I would need to cancel my subscription and then resume it or else I will get buried in diapers and pretty soon our house will look like a hoarder house with diapers because I don’t use them fast enough. I use the base subscription because I don’t need all 6000 ml diapers.

I still have bladder control in case you’re wondering. I still am aware of my bowels. I’m pretty sure everyone in the household is aware I am toilet free because I never use the toilet and I am only in the bathroom when I shower or brush my teeth or clean them.

COVID-19

The whole world is pretty much shutting down and my parents have quarantined themselves because of their age and my mom has a weak immune system. Her birthday is pretty much cancelled because they are doing nothing for their birthday but I am thinking of getting a cake or something for them.

My brother has his wedding in September and it’s too soon to tell. But so far my state has shut down the schools till April 28th so I like the fact I don’t need to get up at 6 anymore but I wonder if my son will still have his therapist appointment this Friday. I will still make them do school work so they are still getting their education in. I honestly think school work should be mailed to each student so they won’t get far behind and won’t have to cancel summer vacation. Just today I hear all the restaurants and bars got shut down so basically St. Pat’s Day was cancelled and they even cancelled the Shamrock Run.

I went to my Union meeting this weekend and only very few workers showed up and they had chairs spread apart and they had so much snacks left over, they told us upon leaving to take as much as we want.

People are being laid off now and some workers are lucky to have the privilege to work from home. I am lucky to even still be working despite that daycares had shut down but if people stop coming into work and work from home and they cancel all conferences, there won’t be any more work for us and and I am planning on applying for temporary work at Amazon or at a grocery store or department store with food since they are in high demand for more workers because of the pandemic.

But I am so glad there are still diapers available and people aren’t panic buying diapers that ware houses can’t keep up but there are shortage on wipes. Luckily you can still buy some on Amazon but all the Pampers and Huggies are all sold out.

This Sunday we got snow and I was honestly hoping for a few inches so the city will shut down so everyone will stay home. But once the flakes stopped, the snow melted and now everything is dry again and zero snow. My kids got to play in it while there was still snow and they made a tiny snow man before it all melted. I even went to the store in the heavy snow and got some baby wipes and they were all out of cases. All they had were packs so I grabbed 3 small packs and an energy drink and went home and ordered a 16 oz container of Desitin on Amazon since I was running low on it.

I honestly think people are over reacting and even medical professionals are saying healthy people don’t need to wear masks. Even they are saying people are over reacting and Dr. Phil is saying the same too. While I am fine with places shutting down, I still think the way people are panic buying is an over reaction. It’s not like stores will sell out or that they will all shut down, people will need food, people will need toiletries.

I am not really scared of getting this virus and if I do, I will get over it and won’t die, I think it’s the elderly and those with weak immune systems that really need to worry. While I am not going to places but store and work, I am still carrying on with my life. Heck, people are still going out and doing stuff in my area because it is not a ghost town here and there are still lot of cars on the road and when I went to my Union meeting, there were still lot of people downtown but the hotel I used to work at was all bare and empty and even the restaurant there was closed and the market there too. Then after the meeting I just went straight home. The media sort of got to me because I don’t want to help spread the virus and have my parents get sick if someone is carrying it and I happened to go near them and I carry it and bring it home. The whole thing is making me think of the movie Outbreak.

My parents are still planning on going to a friend’s house and just hang out and play a board game. Even they are not too freaked out and my dad had always told me since 6th grade “worrying is a waste of time” so that is why I am just taking it a day at a time and not worrying about this virus going around.

Some people are acting like this is the end of the world and I wonder if this is the beginning of Life After People because scientists have said humans can die off someday due to some virus and I am thinking well if that happens, why worry, worrying is a waste of time and won’t make it not happen if it does.

One thing I find strange is scientist have been saying how someday we will have this huge Mega Earthquake or how someday Mt Hood could erupt and no one has freaked out about it and made it into a crises like they are with this virus. I know it’s the media that’s been doing it so people are really scared and having anxiety. But at least they are helping people get jobs that have lost their jobs already. Some money is better than no money. Some people are so freaked out about the virus, they are going to the hospital over minor things like a couch or a sniffle which I think is wasting doctors time because there are people out there who could be really sick and need to go in or have some sort of emergency so doctors need openings for those people. I cough all the time and sneeze and have sniffles and I am not going to the doctor.

The “coming out” argument

From time to time I will see gruff posts in the ABDL community about coming out as an ABDL and they see it as comparing it to LGBT and I just saw a thread about it again about last week.

Many of us are aware that being ABDL is not like being LGBT but that still doesn’t minimize the struggles of being a ABDL. We also don’t pick this either or else many of us would have stopped. But we have heard about binge and purge cycles and many of us have also gone through it. I never tossed everything out and then buy it over again. I have never blocked anyone online for being ABDL just to move on. But all these things have happened in the community with others.

No ABDL has ever been murdered for being ABDL.

No ABDL has ever been beaten up for being ABDL.

No ABDL has ever been denied marriage or an adoption for being ABDL.

There have never been any laws against ABDLism. I am not aware of any country that has a law against it either.

But people have been harassed for being ABDL, people have lost their jobs or custody to their ex for being ABDL. All it takes is ignorance.

Oh and kids have been forced into therapy to get over their ABDLism and we all know how successful that is.

While I have written before that being an adult ABDL is a lot easier than being a kid ABDL, it is not easy being a minor with it.

You will have to deal with parents who don’t understand it. Imagine being 12 and you have been going to ABDL sites. Your parent catches you. Now if it had been regular porn, your parents will be able to explain it all to you and have the talk about it and explain all the common kinks but what if your porn was ABDL because you had been into it for a while and you had discovered there are people out there who are also into it. But you get caught with it, your mom does not take it well so she tells you how sick and twisted this all is and how it’s all disgusting. You as the child think you are sick and disgusting and twisted. Now you have all this shame and you can’t talk about it to your school counselor or therapist because you don’t want them to think you are sick and twisted and disgusting. You have no support. You may even think you can get over it by pretending you are not into it so you lie to yourself.

As adults when we are told these things about our fetish, we understand that is just their opinion, they are ignorant so we are not affected by their words but when you are a child, you don’t understand this because they are the adult, adults are always right, they are your teacher. Everything they say are facts and the truth. So these words have affect on you and your self esteem. You are a sick and twisted person and a horrible one but you can’t go to anyone about it because they will think this of you. Your parent had just insulted you and told you how sick you are. So you keep it bottled up inside.

Kids have been disowned or kicked out of their homes for being ABDL, their stuff has been taken from them and thrown out because their parents didn’t approve.

We all know what happens when we try to suppress this about ourselves. Even I have written about before what it was like when I wasn’t acting on it.

Now people don’t need to know about our bathroom habits or what underwear we wear and if anyone finds out about our diapers, we still don’t need to “come out” because we can pass it off as a medical issue and people are not going to say anything when they discover your diapers. I am talking about random people here and co workers and your boss. Your kids don’t need to know about your life style and what their mommy and daddy do in their bedroom or when they are at school or when they are visiting their grandparents or out with their grandparents. They may find out about your diapers but that is it, it’s not like you are walking around in the house wearing nothing over it. I think when they are infants and small toddlers, that isn’t an issue because they won’t remember it. But once they start to show awareness of what is happening around them is time to not do it around them. Some will be a year and a half when you need to stop or some might be older than that.

If your parents discover your diapers, you will need to “come out” because you would want them to know you are not having any medical issues (parents worry about their kids) and you just like wearing them. Plus there will be the smell in your clothes, on your bed, in the trash, so they are going to think you are having accidents and may confront you about it and may start their snooping and even start looking in the trash because they are your parents and parents worry about their kids and they may think you are too embarrassed to say anything. So we will see posts online asking how they can hide their diapers or dispose them. If they “came out”, they wouldn’t have any of these issues. If their parents just accepted, there would be no issue here.

Hiding ABDL from your room mates or your family, people you live with is stressful. I am not saying we should all use our pacifiers or sippy cups or bottles in front of people or openly wear our AB clothing but all these things will eventually be discovered because trying to keep it put away all the time is stressful. Someone is going to find it in your room. If you have a AB nursery, you simply keep that door closed but someone who is nosey could find that room. Even if you lock it, you could forget to lock it one day and that secret room is discovered and how will you explain to guests why they can’t use that spare bedroom? You could call it your study but how will you explain why they still can’t sleep in there? Maybe call it your office and see if that works.

For some ABDLs this is something they do from time to time but for other ABDLs this is something often done so it’s going to be harder to keep it hidden because there will be slip ups and you will forget to put stuff away, especially if someone comes in your room. Even if you do keep it put away, someone in your home could still be looking for something and they find your baby bottles or your kiddie cups and dishes, how do you explain that when you don’t have a child? If you happen to have kids, you can pass that off those dishes belonged to your children of if you have grand kids, you can pass that off for your grand kids and you don’t need to explain anything. If you have kid movies and kid shows and have toys, you can pass that off as being child like and toys are your collectors items. But if they are baby toys, how will you explain that? If you have a room full of toys, how will you explain that?

Mindlessly diapered who has her own websites made a youtube video about being out as ABDL and she simply is honest about herself when her toys are seen and baby stuff and they always think she has a kid and ask where is the baby and she goes “I am the baby.” And lot of people don’t care. She has also gotten hate too for her lifestyle because she lives it 24/7 but she has a job and pays her bills. If she had kids, things might have been worse. But I am sure she wouldn’t be all open like that if she had any and wouldn’t be putting out as many content. That is just common sense. I am also sure her wearing AB clothing and her talking in a babyish voice and acting all immature is just for the videos. Also common sense to make that assumption. I also doubt she goes to work as a ABaby and talking in that voice and acting all immature.

But seriously when you get over the fear of people finding out about your lifestyle, you’re free. In that sense you “come out” when your items are discovered or your diapers if they ask you about it and it can’t be passed off for anything. You can choose to be honest or just lie but many people suck as lying and the truth always comes out so why risk it?

And there is a reason why I don’t have a AB nursery, can you guess why?

Onlyfans deletion a Blessing?

You know how bad things happen and sometimes it becomes a good thing because something positive happens.

My mom jokes how a medical situation in her family brought them all back together and her and her oldest sister are speaking again. I had no idea they were acting estranged despite living so close together.

Another time I was in a car accident when a young guy around my age at the time pulled out in front of me so I T boned him thanks to the roads being wet, I ended up with a hole new hood and the scratch an animal had put on it was gone.

If it were not for me meeting Jerry, I might not have met my husband.

If it were not for me having a miscarriage, my son wouldn’t have been born.

After Onlyfans deleted my page, I moved onto Patreon and Manyvids and Scatshop. I decided it was time I learn to try and learn video editing so I looked up different video editing programs and all of them were crap but that is what you get for freebie. So I bought Wondershare and did a one time purchase since I found it easy to use and had the blur mode in it too. Plus videos don’t corrupt in it. I also learned to watermark and I use a free program for that, Paint 3D I use and I can upload it on wondershare and put it on the video.

If Onlyfans decided one day they made a mistake and it was their computer that rejected my page and they decided to look into it and give me back my account, I might not even go back to it because I had move on from it. I mean what would I even put there? Same content? Besides I liked having tiers. Maybe if enough people keep asking me about my Facebook or Instagram I might add that as a tier but make it be costly because it’s my personal one and I don’t think anyone is going to want to pay a bunch of money to add me as a Facebook friend or to know my name on Instagram to follow me just to out me as a ABDL to put ABDL stuff on my page. But that is something I always fear so I never given out my personal social media. I won’t even put the same photos there I had put on Twitter or the other way around. I know a simple image search can bring you to the website it’s been posted at and I know someone on my FB friends can do a image search and find my Twitter page.

But anyway I had found lot of bad reviews (google “Onlyfans are scammers”) about it and they are on Twitter too and some on Reddit. I even remember someone emailing me telling me to take their email off my list because they unsubscribed from my page and they are still being charged. Sadly I had no control over it because I have no way of seeing my fans email address so I told him to contact Onlyfans. But this seems to have been an issue with other users before, they unsubscribe from a page and their card would still get charged by Onlyfans. Plus people complaining about never receiving their payouts. People were even saying how they never responded to their email for weeks or for over a week for a problem they were having.

I do admit I do get some anxiety that I am going to log onto my Patreons and see my page is randomly suspended. I have heard of ABDLs losing their pages but just as long as I am not doing any lewd things, (nudity is fine) not having any sex toys or doing any masturbation or any sexual acts I should be good and not showing any open scat. I know someone who got her Patron page suspended but got it back up a week later but she had to remove all her messy content so that is why I am not doing any messy diaper changes on Patreon. I have seen other ABDLs on Patreon provide lewd content for high price tier but let them risk it.

I just have to remember that getting suspended is just normal stuff and part of being a creator. How many times have I heard any creators say out there they had their account suspended so they had to get it back or had their social media suspended? A lot. But that is more likely to happen when you do controversial stuff. Then you are going to have to file an appeal to get unsuspended.

Wow, this is crazy

I wonder how rare it is for a website or any play to close your account randomly and maybe I had rolled that dice. So I google “my account was closed randomly” and I get results about banks closing your account.

I started reading a few Reddit threads about it and I find if you open a new bank account and out too much money into it, it can randomly close it because it could look suspicious. If you are all of a sudden earning lot of money from commissions or from your website, they can cost you your bank account because it looked suspicious and banks don’t want to take any chances.

So what did I learn here folks? You can get punished for your Onlyfans page, you can get punished for your youtube channel, you can get in trouble for your Patreon page or from other commissions if it is giving you too much revenue because it looks suspicious to your bank.

I have a new theory about if the real reason why my Onlyfans account was terminated was because it was booming all of a sudden and it looked suspicious. I put my subscription price on sale because I saw others were doing it so I decided to jump on the band wagon and I got even more people joining my page. I wonder if that raised suspicion so they thought I was doing something wrong and terminated my account because they didn’t want to take chances.

I also wonder if this is why some Patreon creaters limit how many people can join their Patreon page because they don’t want to raise suspicion to their bank. I might have to add that feature too if I get too many people joining my page. I don’t want to lose my bank account or else it will cause me lot of stress, why? Because I would have to go to my work headquarters to stop my automatic deposits and I would have to sit and wait to see someone to change my payment method from automatic deposit to paycheck. I would also have to go to the Social Security office to also change my payment method and the wait there is long and can be several hours. This would all have to be done while my kids are in school. Also my husband would have to go online to stop the automatic withdrawal.

This all made me glad I have a credit card with a different bank, a JC Penney credit card and a savings account with a different bank. People were saying in their comments this is why they have different bank accounts and credit cards for back up for in case this stuff happens. Some even said they keep some extra cash in a fire safe.

So you can actually be punished for earning more money and if you get too many people joining your page, it raises alert for fraud alert. Instead of investigating, they close your account instead. Maybe this is why I lost my page. Too many people joined it and it put me on the list for fraud alert and bam, account terminated. It went from 30 fans to 68 fans fast in a week all because of that sale price I put.

Since joining Patreon and creating my page and based on the emails I get from them that indicate they want to help you build your page and get Patreons, I don’t think they are going to randomly suspend my account if it jumps high in Patreons in a week. Maybe 30 new fans in a week was too suspicious for Onlyfans. I wonder if that will look bad to Patreon too if that many people decided to join my page and it all happened in a week.

So there you have it people, possibly too many people joining your Onlyfans all at once and too close together can actually cost you your page.

Also how are you supposed to fight back or even sort things out if they don’t tell you why they closed your account. Mistakes happen and I had a friend who was denied a loan for a house and she was given the reason why and when she saw this couldn’t be right, the bank worked with her and they found out their mistake, someone in Florida has the same name as her and she had bad credit and they got her name mixed up with hers and this took her like 3 weeks for her to sort. If they hadn’t told her why they denied her a loan for a house, she would have never known this and she would have walked with bad credit and not know about it because of some mistake.

Same thing has happened with my mom as well. She and my aunt (my uncle’s wife) have the same name and the same middle name. It’s crazy and they were both born in Wisconsin. But they have different maiden names. But anyway my mom had found out one time the banks had put her credit history and her sister in laws all together because of the same name and my mom also had to sort that out. They have different birth dates and different social security numbers and this still happens? Just shows how people lack detail.

So I find if I do withdrawal too much from my Patreon page because I am taking precaution in case it gets terminated randomly, I can lose my bank account but if I don’t do withdrawal often and I only do it once a month, I am still at risk losing that money so there is no win here. I guess I would rather lose that money than go through stress if we lost our bank account because it would create roadblocks and lot of inconveniences and give me anxiety because of the change.

If I knew why my page was terminated, I wouldn’t have had to change my name online, hide how many Patreons I have on my page and my earnings per month, or even think I was targeted and they got me suspended somehow because of how lazy Onlyfans is, and now I am thinking too many people joining my page too close together got my account terminated so I might need to limit how many Patreons can join my page and raise it gradually every few weeks so it won’t raise suspicion and go through this again? I don’t know if Patreons suspends accounts when they get suspicious if too many patreons join a page so close together and it would be a pain to get it reinstated. I already know computers tend to suspend accounts so you have to file an appeal and a real human looks at it and gets your account reinstated. But Onlyfans doesn’t care to do that which makes them a bad service to use.

Because I don’t know, I am taking every precaution I can think of to avoid it from happening again. I even checked my IP address and looked at if it’s on the bad list and if that got me suspended. Another precaution I had taken. I even started using a VPN but then realized that isn’t a good idea or else that will raise suspicion and I would hate to be blocked on websites due to suspicious activity. So I keep that turned off and my husband should get rid of that program because we don’t need it. I also don’t think it’s a good idea to use VPNs for your accounts online because that can get you suspended for suspicious activity. If you travel often, I would be concerned about going to the same websites under your account.

Edit: I must say I have been noticing when you decide to log into your account, some places make you log into your email account to verify it is you. I like it because I think this will keep you from being banned or blocked by mistake. I guess when you clear your cookies, it also clears your IP so the system sees your IP as a whole new IP and you have to verify it again.

I am finally feeling better. I have started my Patreon page but haven’t launched it yet. I am still trying to figure it all out and I have decided on tiers. I was told they do not allow any messy content because someone had to take their messy content off their page to get it back up again. So messy diaper changes would be out of the question. I know some other ABDL does them but let her take that risk. Maybe she hasn’t been targeted yet and Mindlesselydiaper was. She was the one who told me this. Someone already paid me money to show my used diaper content until I get my page started so I will be taking photos of my used diapers and sending them to him via Twitter DM. I wonder if Paypal will call this sex work but he sends me money through friends and family so therefore I get all my money and Paypal won’t know where that money is from and what it is for. I told him my idea for Patreon and he liked it and said he would join my page.

But I find you have to submit your page for review when you are done so I assume your page does not appear to the public until they see it so I don’t know if they will allow this tier. I plan on a tier for used diaper content only and the diapers will be rolled up and closed, not opened. Not all ABDLs are into this which is why if they don’t select this tier, they won’t see any of this content. I don’t always post my open used diapers on Twitter for a reason because not everyone is into it just like I don’t want to see any dicks and pussies so when someone keeps on liking it too much or posting it too much, I unfollow them. I don’t want it on my feed. What I do want to see is diaper content and used diapers too and cute things. I am not into art and furries but if someone posts it too much, I unfollow them. It’s all about balance.

It took me 3-4 days to get approved for some other website that is like Onlyfans. The reason why it took the owner so long was because of my diaper fetish and he had been hesitant to approve me. He sent me an email after I deleted all my content and video and photos saying this and explain he had a bad experience with my fetish and told me they didn’t allow dirty diapers, scat and urine. He asked me I need to tell him I won’t post that content on my page before he approves me so I promised I won’t put that stuff there. I got approved.

So far I have not posted anything again yet but I will leave that page for back up. Clearly he isn’t a ABDL bigot because he is fine with age play and all and he only said he didn’t allow dirty diapers so no way does that indicate he hates us and sees us as sickos and pedophiles. He just has his own preferences and it’s his website so he gets to make the rules and what he wants on there. He clearly doesn’t hate people wearing diapers either, he just doesn’t want to see any used diaper stuff. He never said anything about clean diapers so clearly he is okay with diaper content just as long as you can’t see it being used and if it’s unused.

With Patreon, I see you can’t just upload a video there, you can use vimeo or use a url to a video of yours so that means I would have to use another service where I upload my videos too. I have youtube but the issue is youtube has their own policies on content and it doesn’t matter if you set them to unlisted, some troll can join my page and mass report my videos on youtube to try and shut me down again. In order to keep trolls from trying to take you down, you have to follow the policies religiously and it doesn’t matter what others are posting because let them take risks. This is why I haven’t launched my page yet because I still need to figure out what content I should put. I am sure my used trash would be fine but not diaper changes since it would involve nudeness. I see nothing on youtube saying you can’t post videos of you taking out the trash and they would be in the trash bag tied up. But me changing my diaper would be out of the question to put there because it would contain nudity and that would leave it for trolls to report it to shut me down again.

I feel like I am jumping through hoops here because it means I have to figure out where to upload videos and look at guidelines to protect myself from trolls. It doesn’t matter if the videos are set to private. It’s their platform and they make the rules so they are not going to care if your videos were restricted to who can view it via link. If you violate their TOS, they can terminate your account or suspend it. Trolls use the TOS to shut you down.

The problem with Onlyfans is their TOS is very vague so that means anything you do on it can violate their TOS. Like I can go on someone’s ABDL page and expect to see open messy diapers because they wrote in their text that they mess their diaper and I subscribe to see it but see they never take their diaper on and they only stay in the diaper and they keep grunting and pushing and then they go downstairs and lay on the coach and read a book, I could report that page and say how it was misleading and call it fraud and I have this BS claim and bam they shut the page down and suspend the account because it says in their TOS you cannot have anything misleading.

Another thing they have in their TOS is, “content that causes annoyance, inconvenience, or needless anxiety or is likely to upset, embarrass, alarm, or annoy any other person;”

This can apply to nudity and I can mass report pages that show breasts and dicks and sexy clothing and underwear. So clearly they don’t care about creaters, they care about subscribers. Just like how ebay will protect buyers most of the time so that means buyers can scam sellers and win the claim against them because of their BS story. But sellers can also scam buyers too. I once ordered Shopkins Kinstruction sets on ebay from toysrus and they only shipped two of them but the rest never came. I also saw they shipped to another location and said they arrived at my home. An employee may have changed the address to my orders and I never got my money back when they said they would refund me when I called them. I even talked to poaypal and they said since I got it on ebay, file a claim on ebay. Because I didn’t know what dispute to open, they auto closed it because it showed they had been delivered. I also was not able to leave negative feedback for them either because it showed they arrived. I called ebay and the woman was nice to refund my money and told me it was a one time thing. Two months later, toysrus was totally going out of business. So it’s possible an employee at the warehouse purposely tampered with my order because they were losing their job and they didn’t care. But anyway never order electronics on ebay or order from anyone with lot of negative feedback despite having lot of good feedback too. It’s very common to order a phone or a computer and have it be shipped to the wrong address because it’s a common scam which is why I never want to buy phones online or laptops and buy from a legitimate company, not from a third party seller. My husband has ordered his gaming computer over the phone or from the Dell site because they are legitimate. It is no surprising Toys R Us went bankrupt because their customer service was always so shitty.

Also it clearly states in Onlyfans TOS they can suspend your page at any time and no reason given so that means they can just randomly shut you down and you hear nothing from them about it. That is what happened with me, it was all random it happened. I know other websites have this in their Terms too because I know this is just something they put in there to protect themselves from lawsuits. But no one thinks they are going to just randomly shut them down if they are not doing anything against the TOS. Same reason why we see dumb warnings on labels and you wonder who is going to do that but they just put that there for liability. When I got my son a swingset from Costco when he was 2 and it also came with a fort and a picnic table, the instructions were basically telling you how to play on the equipment and how to play on the slide but I knew this was all done for liability. Also websites do not have their phone numbers listed for a reason, why? Because they don’t want people mass calling them and tying up their phone line and wasting their time because they shut down their account for unknown reason or because they didn’t agree with their reason or because they were violating their TOS and they didn’t like the consequences and they also don’t want other people calling them for that person tying up their line.

But places that have their TOS be vague and then refuse to assist you if you unknowingly violated their TOS makes them a shitty service. Now youtube has pretty clear guidelines about what they don’t allow on their website. Patreon has pretty clear guidelines too, they just said they allow nudity but not sexual stuff like masturbation and sexual intercourse. So if I were to do diaper changes, I must not pleasure myself during my changes and just do the clean up and put fresh diaper on and done. But I can’t put that video on youtube due to their policy and I don’t want to risk it.

My impression with Onlyfans is you can pretend to be offended or upset with any content you see as a way to get that person’s page to shut down. You can say anything is obscene, like I see a penis, oh I am gonna report it for obscene content because it’s in their TOS. You didn’t show me your naked breasts because you have censored out the nipples, I am reporting it for misleading content even though it’s not their fault I got that impression. So I am going to say no model on there is protected from false reports from subscribers. They will always side with the subscriber.

And the fact they make their TOS so vague, it makes anything you put on your page violates their TOS but that is up for the subscribers to decide and up for how the Onlyfans staff want to apply the terms. So I will never recommend them to anyone for paid content because of this risk.

It’s been over a week now since the page shut down and I still have not heard anything yet so hopefully everything will be fine and my money is still mine forever. But the rest that was still pending and the rest that was ready to be withdrawn is all gone which is what we call a legal scam.

They also say in their terms that you will not slander them? Is this their way of saying “you will not give us a bad review about our company and tell anyone your bad experience with us.” Sorry but if I am wrongfully terminated because of trolls and you can’t be bothered to investigate or allow people to file appeals and can’t be bothered to have clear guidelines, I will not shut up about this and your terms no longer apply because I am suspended and IP banned from your site so I no longer care about your terms of use and they no longer apply to me because I am not using the website. Also I am protected by freedom of speech here in the US.

Vague TOS just indicates the company doesn’t give a shit about their users and they will just randomly shut people down for no given reason just because they can. They may pretend all they want on their social media page they care about their customers. Any company can make themselves look good and people who have not had a problem with them yet will not have anything bad to say. No one wants to believe you can be terminated randomly until it happens to them. I have had it happen to me before so I believe it. I have had lot of my yahoo accounts close out of the blue so I have lost online friends that way because I couldn’t remember how their yahoo ID was spelled. Because this was a normal thing for me, I started to write down each yahoo ID on my YIM list in my notebook so I can re add them again and not lose contact with them. Surprisingly this hasn’t happen since my senior year of high school so I have been using the same yahoo account ever since. I also dropped yahoo groups and stopped interacting in them so that could be why. I might have written something someone didn’t like so they mass reported me and maybe sent their friends to do it and bam I am shut down. I didn’t write anything political or hateful. I have had my accounts closed when I hadn’t even posted anything in a yahoo group so that was always very strange it happened. It’s been suggested by my online friends someone must really hate me. Then they gave up and left me alone. When they would delete your yahoo account, you were not able to log in for one and if you signed into messenger, a message would pop up saying your account had been closed for security reasons. Even back then they had no number listed but you could still reach them via email so I did that and I never heard back from them. Back then yahoo was a crappy service and I remember when many people in the ABDL community saying they don’t use them.

I remember when they all went Jerry, they deleted all the ABDL groups and accounts associated with it so I am not gonna lie and say this isn’t why I lost my account, I lost my other accounts that were not associated with ABDL so that is why it was all random that they were closed. They decided that ABDLism had something to do with minors. That was because back then many ABDLs were stealing photos of minors in diapers from other places and putting them in ABDL groups even though they were not meant to be sexual and I saw nothing sexual about diapers then and kids wearing them. All those groups got shut down including adult ones too without minors in them and Yahoo banned anything ABDL but left up Overcoming Infantilism yahoo group. Can you really blame Yahoo for their confusion on ABDL? I can’t.

So there you have it, back then it was very easy to get accounts shut down for any BS reports and lies. Now today it is very difficult to do when you aren’t doing anything wrong and it takes more than one report to do it and it’s the computer that suspends your account and you can file an appeal so a human can look at it. At first I thought that was the case with Onlyfans and I understand that you sometimes have to email or call them (any company in general) multiple times before you get to someone very helpful. So I sent them about three emails about it, on Twitter, from their website and email from my own email address because I thought it was a computer that did it and I wanted them to look at it. But they ignored me and their website would no longer load and I saw they must have blocked my IP access because it loads fine on my phone and when I use a VPN but on our home network, it stays on the loading page and goes no further. I will say Onlyfans is 17 years behind because this was how it was online with social media back in the days, it was easy to shut anyone down with bogus reports. And I think they are a small business too and their TOS page is a mess because it’s too vague. Some people even call them scammers and someone told me it’s called a legal scam because they can just take your money you earned by shutting down your account randomly before you even withdraw it or before it’s done pending and they give you no notice at all and don’t say why they closed it and it’s stated in their terms they can do this. This is actually legal which is why it’s called a legal scam. I am sure any lawyer out there will tell you there is nothing you can do and your money you have earned is gone forever and they might advise you do withdrawal every time you reach the minimum amount.

On Adisc it’s been suggested it could have been nudity and stuff I posted could have fallen under those terms but they also said it is very vague which is a problem. Now I don’t think they are siding with them and they are just telling me how this all sucks for me and their terms of use. Vague TOS is always an issue and as someone else told me, all it can take is one report to shut you down. I already guessed this is what happened and someone got jealous and targeted me or else they would have shut down other ABDL pages too by also reporting theirs. There was someone else who did a video of her masturbating in her sexy underwear and pleasuring herself and I could have reported it to get it shut down and use their TOS and bam her account would have been gone too if the Onlyfans people were offended by it. But I am not that kind of person and all it takes is a heartless person to do it.

One of my youtube vidoes was marked age restricted

A while ago I posted a video of myself playing in my wet diaper. I was just rubbing it and it wasn’t really dirty. There was no nudity and no one could see my pussy. I had that video unlisted and I uploaded it I believe to share here in this blog or on Twitter, I don’t remember. I totally had forgotten about it until I saw an email in my inbox last month from youtube about one of my videos being marked age restricted. I thought it was strange since no one would have access to that video unless they see the link to it posted somewhere. I have it unlisted. Obviously my video had been reported. I know it wasn’t by random people because they would have no way of seeing it unless they were here or on my Twitter page, wherever I had it posted. So I know it had to be by another ABDLs and they were maybe trying to take me down even though I got no money for it. I don’t even get paid on my channel because I don’t post anything there and videos I had posted were all home made and I set them all to unlisted since they didn’t have any views anyway.

Back when youtube opened, there were lot of home videos posted on there and then eventually professional film makers started to use it and people started to use it for vblogs and then people became self taught film editors and then people started uploading copyright content to it and uploading their own game play to it and even TV companies will upload their own content there and small film companies. I’d say youtube didn’t start to get good until around 2009. Before then it was just home videos and vblogs and it was all boring so I never visited it unless linked.

So to anyone out there that had the balls to report my video, sorry, you lose, it didn’t violate any terms so they marked it as age restricted and I didn’t even care. It’s not a big deal if it’s marked as adult. I don’t even have it listed as public and it’s unlisted meaning only people can access it through link. Only way a minor will see it is if they go on my page and fine the video.

Also youtube isn’t someone who just blindly shuts people down because they allow appeals and have a 3 strike system.

Seesh I wonder if I am becoming someone who is going to be harassed now like lot of people are when they get popular on their page or channels because I have heard of pages being shut down and people having to fight for appeals and videos being demonetized and this is always the risk when you put yourself out there. People could do it because they don’t agree with your life style or because they get jealous or they are mad they have to pay for your content or they get mad because they didn’t agree with you on something.

I once unfollowed someone on twitter because she made a stupid post saying if anyone comments on her stuff and they have minors on their pages or videos, she said she would report them and stuff. I unfollowed her because on my youtube, it’s a vanilla page and I follow any pages and have like videos and favorites and I even have videos on my favorite that were TV show theme songs from my childhood and they have minors in it.

I have Kids Incorporated theme intro song, Lamb Chops Play Along and Sond That Doesn’t End, Tony the Tiger commercial from 1998, Huggies Pull Ups commercial, Ramblin Rod clip, Pedophile being harassed by pedophiles, (it’s actually a satire video about someone being sexually attracted to pedophiles so this pedophile has a peeping tom on him while he is doing the same to these kids on the playground and he says how this has to be stopped while he continues doing the same to kids which made it hilarious because of the hypocrisy, it was like an Onion video), and few others that happen to have minors in it. Did this person seriously say she was going to report me for this if I comment on her content? I take threats very seriously so unfollowed it is and ignore.

My youtube isn’t even a abdl channel and I just have playlists of video game music and favorite music and I follow lot of channels and made playlists of movie scores and have them organized, same as video game scores. If someone is going to be that strict, I unfollowed but I didn’t go around harassing her and reporting her blog and her channel and her pages to get her to shut down just because I didn’t agree with her. Some people are just strict and if they want everyone to be in this tiny box just because they are into this, unfollow them and move on. There are other ABDLs out there you can follow and see their content without any petty threats and petty restrictions. I don’t she she is a bad person, I just don’t agree with her standard here. People really need to understand that not everyone is restricted to their kinks and they have outside lives and interests so not everything they post or like or favorite, etc is related to their kink. If they can’t understand that, it’s their problem and not mine.

And I don’t even get lot of comments like other popular people do but yet here I am still being harassed sometimes. They don’t need to send you messages to harass you, all they can do is just keep reporting you. If I get any bad messages, I just ignore them or hit the block button and move on and not say anything to them. I have never gotten any death threats, not ever since I have started posting online in 2002. Maybe I did once on a forum but I didn’t take it seriously. I didn’t see it as a death threat then and we were both people who didn’t like each other and I wasn’t able to ignore any meanness then, now I just hit the block/ignore button and move on. But that was the only death threat I remember but I never got it in my inbox ever.

Edit: I have removed all 4 of my videos that were related to my ABDL for safety reason.

Wow, I am lucky

I was reading stuff online about Onlyfans and I am finding out sex workers get their accounts terminated on Onlyfans. I am wondering if that is what they saw me as. They don’t even state in their TOS, no sex work. But what exactly is sex work? I would think it’s two people doing sex. I never put any of that on my page because I never felt comfortable about it. Maybe they saw diaper changes as sex work, maybe they saw nudity as sex work, maybe they saw me using a vibrator as sex work. I have gotten some requests by my followers asking me to do certain things and I never felt comfortable with it because it’s out of my fetish. Sure I have asked for any video ideas and ideas I would get was out of my league. I wonder if masturbating is sex work.

But anyway I have migrated to another platform. I am going to try it out. I don’t like having more than one account that gets you paid for content because it would be too much for me. I get some people do it for a living but not me. I don’t have time for this full time. I see it as a gig and you need a survival job. Never rely on platforms for your income because they can terminate you any time and always withdraw when you read the minimum amount. You never know if some troll will report you for a BS reason.

I am hearing that people lost out of thousands of dollars and even hundreds by Onlyfans. Their accounts got terminated randomly but at least they got an email about it, I didn’t. I had to contact them and they told me but then haven’t responded to my other emails. I withdrew all $355 that was ready and good thing I did that or I would have lost that money. It went into my bank account and my husband moved it into savings so it won’t get spent accidentally. Then about five days later, my account got terminated. So I am considering myself lucky but I am not touching that money because I never know what can happen. I could get a letter saying I need to pay that money and if I ignore it, my credit will go bad. I am hearing subscribers get refunded when they kill your account. I never heard anything about that in my email.

Another lucky thing about me, I once waited till I had $500 before I cashed out because I had been too lazy to even withdraw the money. It took me about a year to earn that much so I finally did a cash out and then again three months later when I reached that much when I started to do videos. Then I cashed out again when I got to $300 and it was as if my brain was telling me something bad is going to happen so you better withdraw it now. I originally did that when I was paying my credit card and I used the cash I had from Onlyfans I kept in my room. This was before I knew we had an extra savings account that our bank never closed when my husband requested it to be closed. So I was lucky to still get my money despite not cashing out. Now I am going to cash out every time I reach minimum amount in case my account closes randomly. I did the same in Paypal too when someone paid me for my used diapers and photos of them too, always withdraw the money and then send them so that person can’t do a charge back to their account. I have heard of people doing that so the seller ends up not getting their money and I can’t trust people so I withdrew money on paypal. I wonder if that would be considered sex work by them?

I’ve had people ask me if I had any pictures they would buy that I posted online and would pay me $25 but sadly I never kept my photos and I delete them. I also gotten if I sell videos and that is how I got into Onlyfans. If a few people were having the balls to ask, it made me think there are other people out there that are willing to buy this stuff and want me to sell content. So that is what got me started. Plus getting an email one time asking if I had any premium than this blog and I started my onlyfans page.

But my biggest fear was being accused of being a scammer if my content wasn’t good enough or they felt it was too original so I made my page $4.99 a month. If people paid low money for it, they couldn’t be disappointed and call me a scammer if they didn’t like my page. Plus I would have less pressure and not be stressed out having to keep doing content if I did a high price. Only 5 bucks. People can subscribe to see my content and unsubscribe and they see it for 30 days until their subscription expired. I still got messages sometimes saying how they like my content so that made me feel happy to know people were enjoying it and it built my confidence.

One of my other fears is disappointing people and thinking I am not good enough and that I had scammed them because they didn’t like it.

I still don’t know how my account closed since they are a small business it looks like. I googled their address and they are in some small building in London. I was with them for almost 2 years so either someone reported my account or they were just too lazy to monitor all accounts so they rely on reports. Or maybe me contacting them about me having problems with uploading images and them not being upright made them look at my account and maybe they didn’t like it so they closed it and no email was sent about it. This happened right after my response to the email about photo uploads. Maybe if I had used a different email address this wouldn’t have happened.

But I am lucky I got my money before my account was randomly closed and I am lucky I lost only $100. Now I wonder if my subscribers are getting refunded that was left in my account. But it’s weird how they processed my funds and never terminated me before. You would think they check out every page when they withdraw amount. That is why I think someone had reported my page and specifically targeted me or other ABDL pages would have been shut down as well. My husband says someone probably got jealous because I am pretty and I said “how would they know, they never saw my face” and he said “you have a good body” and I said “so do other ABDLs, why not report their accounts too?” Then I said I think I was just targeted because my page was booming and I have a disability. He said how would they even know that and I said it’s pretty obvious online if I have been called slow and them saying I am on the slow side and that I am close to being retarded. Then I asked him remember how he felt when his Twitter account got suspended, he thought it was because of his disability and he said it was because he can’t spell well so he wrote firing squad because he couldn’t write capital punishment so he picked that word because it’s what he can spell and it got seen as harassment. I told him it was probably considered a death threat because if you post any memes or images of any deaths or guns and stuff, if can be seen as a death threat so don’t do it.

My husband thinks those people only said those things to me just to be mean and I told him normal people don’t get called that stuff.

It’s been a few days now and I still haven’t heard back and I can’t get the site to load and all pages say “coming soon” but yet the site works fine on my phone so I am going to assume they have my IP address blocked. I have no idea what I did wrong to make them hate me so much and this is all very strange. I have found other platforms and I read one of their Terms of Services and once I got to they didn’t allow age play, urine, poop, I clicked back knowing they would not accept ABDL content and took that website off my list. I also found another one that will be coming soon that seems to be a spin off from Onlyfans and I noticed their TOS was a copy pasta from it but this time they are from out of Las Vegas than in London, UK. I am thinking about going there but sent them a message on Twitter asking what do they consider obscene. They haven’t responded yet but I will email them if I don’t hear from them within 24 hrs. I am going to wait and see if it’s legit first. It could be possible they don’t even visit their Twitter page so email is best.

Also here are the lessons here I learn, I maybe should’t talk about how much I got from my content because maybe just maybe that is what got my page shut down because I got someone jealous and this is why people don’t like to talk about their income because they don’t want to make themselves a target for harassment and false reports and losing their accounts unfairly. Even mentioning how I earned enough for a phone finally is indicating how much I get for my content.

Hopefully I still start getting money for my content again.

But what makes me lucky I am saying, I didn’t lose out of thousands of dollars like some other people did and I got my money withdrawn before it even happened and it was processed so I only lost around $100 and this will ever be the last time I ever mention how much money I make for my future content and if my videos sell online. I don’t wanna make myself a target for silent harassment. Someone may have won the first time.

I can be dumb sometimes because of my own naivete and I don’t know what I am setting myself up for.

Just imagine if all my supporters flooded their email about my unfair termination, I wonder if they would give in or if they would think I created all these proxy IPs and different emails to contact them lol.

I would not recommend using this site anymore but if you want to use it, always withdraw your money when you reach minimum amount, consider other places to go to if your account is randomly shut down, no email, nothing about anything you did. Clearly they will just randomly reject people and not even send you an email unless you reach out to them and they will say they are not able to assist you right now. Then you never heard back from them ever again so clearly they do not care about false reports or care about their customers or else they would let you appeal and let you take down anything they thought was a violation of their TOS. Some people say they are scammers. That is because they randomly shut down their account and took their money they earned. Or they withdrew their money and bam account was closed and money never got processed into their bank account. Why mine got processed and put into my bank and then terminated a few days later is very strange so I am thinking someone reported me and did a false report and Onlyfans is too lazy to even bother or care. They will just blindly believe anyone and shut you down and they say in their TOS you agree you won’t slander them, fuck that shit, since I am no longer with them and they won’t respond to my emails, it doesn’t even matter if I am not welcome there. I lose respect for anyone when I get treated unfairly so I will speak my mind about how I feel about all this. Plus if they won’t even bother telling me what I exactly did and what I exactly violated, they shouldn’t be surprised when people say stuff about them. Them failing to tell me tells me this is over something BS and they just shut down accounts randomly and they don’t really care for the truth and facts.