One of my youtube vidoes was marked age restricted

A while ago I posted a video of myself playing in my wet diaper. I was just rubbing it and it wasn’t really dirty. There was no nudity and no one could see my pussy. I had that video unlisted and I uploaded it I believe to share here in this blog or on Twitter, I don’t remember. I totally had forgotten about it until I saw an email in my inbox last month from youtube about one of my videos being marked age restricted. I thought it was strange since no one would have access to that video unless they see the link to it posted somewhere. I have it unlisted. Obviously my video had been reported. I know it wasn’t by random people because they would have no way of seeing it unless they were here or on my Twitter page, wherever I had it posted. So I know it had to be by another ABDLs and they were maybe trying to take me down even though I got no money for it. I don’t even get paid on my channel because I don’t post anything there and videos I had posted were all home made and I set them all to unlisted since they didn’t have any views anyway.

Back when youtube opened, there were lot of home videos posted on there and then eventually professional film makers started to use it and people started to use it for vblogs and then people became self taught film editors and then people started uploading copyright content to it and uploading their own game play to it and even TV companies will upload their own content there and small film companies. I’d say youtube didn’t start to get good until around 2009. Before then it was just home videos and vblogs and it was all boring so I never visited it unless linked.

So to anyone out there that had the balls to report my video, sorry, you lose, it didn’t violate any terms so they marked it as age restricted and I didn’t even care. It’s not a big deal if it’s marked as adult. I don’t even have it listed as public and it’s unlisted meaning only people can access it through link. Only way a minor will see it is if they go on my page and fine the video.

Also youtube isn’t someone who just blindly shuts people down because they allow appeals and have a 3 strike system.

Seesh I wonder if I am becoming someone who is going to be harassed now like lot of people are when they get popular on their page or channels because I have heard of pages being shut down and people having to fight for appeals and videos being demonetized and this is always the risk when you put yourself out there. People could do it because they don’t agree with your life style or because they get jealous or they are mad they have to pay for your content or they get mad because they didn’t agree with you on something.

I once unfollowed someone on twitter because she made a stupid post saying if anyone comments on her stuff and they have minors on their pages or videos, she said she would report them and stuff. I unfollowed her because on my youtube, it’s a vanilla page and I follow any pages and have like videos and favorites and I even have videos on my favorite that were TV show theme songs from my childhood and they have minors in it.

I have Kids Incorporated theme intro song, Lamb Chops Play Along and Sond That Doesn’t End, Tony the Tiger commercial from 1998, Huggies Pull Ups commercial, Ramblin Rod clip, Pedophile being harassed by pedophiles, (it’s actually a satire video about someone being sexually attracted to pedophiles so this pedophile has a peeping tom on him while he is doing the same to these kids on the playground and he says how this has to be stopped while he continues doing the same to kids which made it hilarious because of the hypocrisy, it was like an Onion video), and few others that happen to have minors in it. Did this person seriously say she was going to report me for this if I comment on her content? I take threats very seriously so unfollowed it is and ignore.

My youtube isn’t even a abdl channel and I just have playlists of video game music and favorite music and I follow lot of channels and made playlists of movie scores and have them organized, same as video game scores. If someone is going to be that strict, I unfollowed but I didn’t go around harassing her and reporting her blog and her channel and her pages to get her to shut down just because I didn’t agree with her. Some people are just strict and if they want everyone to be in this tiny box just because they are into this, unfollow them and move on. There are other ABDLs out there you can follow and see their content without any petty threats and petty restrictions. I don’t she she is a bad person, I just don’t agree with her standard here. People really need to understand that not everyone is restricted to their kinks and they have outside lives and interests so not everything they post or like or favorite, etc is related to their kink. If they can’t understand that, it’s their problem and not mine.

And I don’t even get lot of comments like other popular people do but yet here I am still being harassed sometimes. They don’t need to send you messages to harass you, all they can do is just keep reporting you. If I get any bad messages, I just ignore them or hit the block button and move on and not say anything to them. I have never gotten any death threats, not ever since I have started posting online in 2002. Maybe I did once on a forum but I didn’t take it seriously. I didn’t see it as a death threat then and we were both people who didn’t like each other and I wasn’t able to ignore any meanness then, now I just hit the block/ignore button and move on. But that was the only death threat I remember but I never got it in my inbox ever.

Edit: I have removed all 4 of my videos that were related to my ABDL for safety reason.

Wow, I am lucky

I was reading stuff online about Onlyfans and I am finding out sex workers get their accounts terminated on Onlyfans. I am wondering if that is what they saw me as. They don’t even state in their TOS, no sex work. But what exactly is sex work? I would think it’s two people doing sex. I never put any of that on my page because I never felt comfortable about it. Maybe they saw diaper changes as sex work, maybe they saw nudity as sex work, maybe they saw me using a vibrator as sex work. I have gotten some requests by my followers asking me to do certain things and I never felt comfortable with it because it’s out of my fetish. Sure I have asked for any video ideas and ideas I would get was out of my league. I wonder if masturbating is sex work.

But anyway I have migrated to another platform. I am going to try it out. I don’t like having more than one account that gets you paid for content because it would be too much for me. I get some people do it for a living but not me. I don’t have time for this full time. I see it as a gig and you need a survival job. Never rely on platforms for your income because they can terminate you any time and always withdraw when you read the minimum amount. You never know if some troll will report you for a BS reason.

I am hearing that people lost out of thousands of dollars and even hundreds by Onlyfans. Their accounts got terminated randomly but at least they got an email about it, I didn’t. I had to contact them and they told me but then haven’t responded to my other emails. I withdrew all $355 that was ready and good thing I did that or I would have lost that money. It went into my bank account and my husband moved it into savings so it won’t get spent accidentally. Then about five days later, my account got terminated. So I am considering myself lucky but I am not touching that money because I never know what can happen. I could get a letter saying I need to pay that money and if I ignore it, my credit will go bad. I am hearing subscribers get refunded when they kill your account. I never heard anything about that in my email.

Another lucky thing about me, I once waited till I had $500 before I cashed out because I had been too lazy to even withdraw the money. It took me about a year to earn that much so I finally did a cash out and then again three months later when I reached that much when I started to do videos. Then I cashed out again when I got to $300 and it was as if my brain was telling me something bad is going to happen so you better withdraw it now. I originally did that when I was paying my credit card and I used the cash I had from Onlyfans I kept in my room. This was before I knew we had an extra savings account that our bank never closed when my husband requested it to be closed. So I was lucky to still get my money despite not cashing out. Now I am going to cash out every time I reach minimum amount in case my account closes randomly. I did the same in Paypal too when someone paid me for my used diapers and photos of them too, always withdraw the money and then send them so that person can’t do a charge back to their account. I have heard of people doing that so the seller ends up not getting their money and I can’t trust people so I withdrew money on paypal. I wonder if that would be considered sex work by them?

I’ve had people ask me if I had any pictures they would buy that I posted online and would pay me $25 but sadly I never kept my photos and I delete them. I also gotten if I sell videos and that is how I got into Onlyfans. If a few people were having the balls to ask, it made me think there are other people out there that are willing to buy this stuff and want me to sell content. So that is what got me started. Plus getting an email one time asking if I had any premium than this blog and I started my onlyfans page.

But my biggest fear was being accused of being a scammer if my content wasn’t good enough or they felt it was too original so I made my page $4.99 a month. If people paid low money for it, they couldn’t be disappointed and call me a scammer if they didn’t like my page. Plus I would have less pressure and not be stressed out having to keep doing content if I did a high price. Only 5 bucks. People can subscribe to see my content and unsubscribe and they see it for 30 days until their subscription expired. I still got messages sometimes saying how they like my content so that made me feel happy to know people were enjoying it and it built my confidence.

One of my other fears is disappointing people and thinking I am not good enough and that I had scammed them because they didn’t like it.

I still don’t know how my account closed since they are a small business it looks like. I googled their address and they are in some small building in London. I was with them for almost 2 years so either someone reported my account or they were just too lazy to monitor all accounts so they rely on reports. Or maybe me contacting them about me having problems with uploading images and them not being upright made them look at my account and maybe they didn’t like it so they closed it and no email was sent about it. This happened right after my response to the email about photo uploads. Maybe if I had used a different email address this wouldn’t have happened.

But I am lucky I got my money before my account was randomly closed and I am lucky I lost only $100. Now I wonder if my subscribers are getting refunded that was left in my account. But it’s weird how they processed my funds and never terminated me before. You would think they check out every page when they withdraw amount. That is why I think someone had reported my page and specifically targeted me or other ABDL pages would have been shut down as well. My husband says someone probably got jealous because I am pretty and I said “how would they know, they never saw my face” and he said “you have a good body” and I said “so do other ABDLs, why not report their accounts too?” Then I said I think I was just targeted because my page was booming and I have a disability. He said how would they even know that and I said it’s pretty obvious online if I have been called slow and them saying I am on the slow side and that I am close to being retarded. Then I asked him remember how he felt when his Twitter account got suspended, he thought it was because of his disability and he said it was because he can’t spell well so he wrote firing squad because he couldn’t write capital punishment so he picked that word because it’s what he can spell and it got seen as harassment. I told him it was probably considered a death threat because if you post any memes or images of any deaths or guns and stuff, if can be seen as a death threat so don’t do it.

My husband thinks those people only said those things to me just to be mean and I told him normal people don’t get called that stuff.

It’s been a few days now and I still haven’t heard back and I can’t get the site to load and all pages say “coming soon” but yet the site works fine on my phone so I am going to assume they have my IP address blocked. I have no idea what I did wrong to make them hate me so much and this is all very strange. I have found other platforms and I read one of their Terms of Services and once I got to they didn’t allow age play, urine, poop, I clicked back knowing they would not accept ABDL content and took that website off my list. I also found another one that will be coming soon that seems to be a spin off from Onlyfans and I noticed their TOS was a copy pasta from it but this time they are from out of Las Vegas than in London, UK. I am thinking about going there but sent them a message on Twitter asking what do they consider obscene. They haven’t responded yet but I will email them if I don’t hear from them within 24 hrs. I am going to wait and see if it’s legit first. It could be possible they don’t even visit their Twitter page so email is best.

Also here are the lessons here I learn, I maybe should’t talk about how much I got from my content because maybe just maybe that is what got my page shut down because I got someone jealous and this is why people don’t like to talk about their income because they don’t want to make themselves a target for harassment and false reports and losing their accounts unfairly. Even mentioning how I earned enough for a phone finally is indicating how much I get for my content.

Hopefully I still start getting money for my content again.

But what makes me lucky I am saying, I didn’t lose out of thousands of dollars like some other people did and I got my money withdrawn before it even happened and it was processed so I only lost around $100 and this will ever be the last time I ever mention how much money I make for my future content and if my videos sell online. I don’t wanna make myself a target for silent harassment. Someone may have won the first time.

I can be dumb sometimes because of my own naivete and I don’t know what I am setting myself up for.

Just imagine if all my supporters flooded their email about my unfair termination, I wonder if they would give in or if they would think I created all these proxy IPs and different emails to contact them lol.

I would not recommend using this site anymore but if you want to use it, always withdraw your money when you reach minimum amount, consider other places to go to if your account is randomly shut down, no email, nothing about anything you did. Clearly they will just randomly reject people and not even send you an email unless you reach out to them and they will say they are not able to assist you right now. Then you never heard back from them ever again so clearly they do not care about false reports or care about their customers or else they would let you appeal and let you take down anything they thought was a violation of their TOS. Some people say they are scammers. That is because they randomly shut down their account and took their money they earned. Or they withdrew their money and bam account was closed and money never got processed into their bank account. Why mine got processed and put into my bank and then terminated a few days later is very strange so I am thinking someone reported me and did a false report and Onlyfans is too lazy to even bother or care. They will just blindly believe anyone and shut you down and they say in their TOS you agree you won’t slander them, fuck that shit, since I am no longer with them and they won’t respond to my emails, it doesn’t even matter if I am not welcome there. I lose respect for anyone when I get treated unfairly so I will speak my mind about how I feel about all this. Plus if they won’t even bother telling me what I exactly did and what I exactly violated, they shouldn’t be surprised when people say stuff about them. Them failing to tell me tells me this is over something BS and they just shut down accounts randomly and they don’t really care for the truth and facts.

Crummy Christmas



I have always gotten anxious and very upset when an account of mine would be randomly terminated. This has happened with my Yahoo accounts as well when I was 17. One time it was because they deleted a yahoo group and I was a moderator of it so they deleted all the mods of that group. Another time it was because I had a ABDL profile and they decided to make it no ABDLs so I deleted all ABDL content on my account and left all ABDL groups. I can remember the backlash about it and people talking about boycotting it and other ABDLs saying it’s their house, they make the rules, don’t like it, go somewhere else. This has happened with me in other things too like with a mistake on the bill, unexpected charges, any major change and anything that gives me lot of worries.

Now years later my onlyfans account was terminated randomly and I did get a email back from them and one of the staff person from the team said:

Hi there,

Thanks for reaching out.

We are sad to inform you that your account has been rejected by OnlyFans. Accounts are typically being rejected due to suspicious/fraudulent activity, promoting escort services, advertising or selling merchandise or due to violating the Acceptable Use policy.

We are sorry that we are not able to assist at this time.

(name redacted)
OnlyFans

I did none of this stuff. I never sold anything on my account either. I never promoted escort services. I didn’t do any fraud, I didn’t harass anyone or post anything that violated their terms. I even looked at their TOS and didn’t see anything I was violating. Now it is possible maybe someone working for Onlyfans saw my page when I sent them an email because I was having problems with my photos being uploaded upright and didn’t like the page for some reason and deleted it. Maybe use a different email address you don’t use for your account when contacting a service.

But anyway this had to happen on the holiday and luckily the whole family was sick so I came off as sick too. My husband knew why I was upset and I even had troubles sleeping and I finally went to sleep and got up and it was 5 AM and I laid there. I didn’t feel excited for Christmas like my son did and then my daughter was up and once my mom came in the house, I came upstairs. I film everyone opening presents except my husband since he wasn’t in the camera view. I was going to spend some time with my kids and help them put together their toys but instead I was very upset what still happened and Onlyfans did get back to me and I got that message so I felt even worse. Then I couldn’t figure out how to transfer my son’s account to his Nintendo switch he and his sister got for Christmas from the elves. It kept redirecting me back to the “have a parent or Guardian look at this” and I would send an email to myself to get permission and I somehow fucked up. Now he is no longer under supervised under my account and somehow his birth year was changed to the year 2000 and I must have put that in by mistake and now his account is unusable on my Switch and password will not work and it keeps saying have a parent or guardian look at it. I am going to contact Nintendo tomorrow to try and get this fixed and tell them I put the wrong year in by mistake because I was frustrated and upset because I couldn’t figure it out and it kept redirecting me to that page. Now it is a separate account and no Network ID connected and because the year is wrong, I can’t connect it to his account. Because my emails are already registered to Nintendo, I can’t re add him to my account and then it says he is already a member of a family. Sucks how me being very upset made me fuck up like this.

Then because I was very upset, I had no appetite so I barely ate and wasn’t hungry. When I get very upset, I don’t eat because I lose interest in food and don’t feel hunger so I don’t eat much. Lot of people eat more when they are this way but I eat less when this happens so I can’t understand emotional eaters and how food can be their friend when their friend betrays them. Ever watch My 600 LB Life? I know lot of people aren’t that heavy but you know what I mean?

My mom had to help my daughter with the Crayola Barbie set where she designs barbie outfits and decorating the doll and my dad had to help my son with some toy and so did my mother and she even played a Shopkins card game with her because I was too upset. Then I felt even worse because me being this upset keeps me from wanting to be with anyone and I want to be alone and isolate. My husband also hugged me in bed and I wanted to take a new photo of me in a ABabyoutfit for a profile pic but he didn’t want to do it right now. He didn’t want to make any videos either with my parents and kids home fearing they could walk in on us even though they were staying downstairs.

I know there is no rush in printing off the W2 form and signing it and taking a photo of it to upload. In fact I plan on doing it when everyone goes to bed.

Today was one bad say and I was labeled as being sick and not feeling good which is the truth because I didn’t feel good and I was sick. I consider it being sick when you are so unhappy you can’t enjoy your day and bother being around people and losing your appetite.

Lot of people would say this isn’t a big deal but for me it is because I would find it stressful and then having to figure out how other places work and I am always worried about people not liking my content so they would accuse me of fraud and report me so that was the only reason why I did Onlyfans because I had it as low price so people would feel satisfied and not feel cheated in case they didn’t like it and they get all this content for free for one low price. On other websites like clips4sale and manyvids, each video costs money so basically things will be more expensive now for everyone for my content now since some asshole decided to report my page or I was naive to use my email address I use for onlyfans account and contact their support. There is no number to call or live chat and the fact they can just close an account if it gets reported without any investigation.

Maybe I wasn’t active enough and there I was having a promotion to subscribe $3 for a month even though I had posted some new content this month. Maybe it was members asking me in PM from time to time asking me to do stuff I didn’t feel comfortable with so I always ignored it because I am afraid of confrontations and how they might react to “no” and onlyfans saw it as me selling escort services. Maybe it was my email I used and someone didn’t like my page so they closed it randomly so it’s always assumed you did something wrong when your account is terminated randomly so of course they wouldn’t want to assist me. But I hear if you talk to a different person, they do things different. You just gotta call back, for only fans, you gotta email back. I decided to send them another email and I sent them a fresh PM on twitter deleting the other conversation. I am still having hope here.

I am also wondering if they didn’t like my low charge so they saw it as fraud. I wasn’t breaking any rules because I used what they had like the minimum charge so I used that to keep it cheap as a way to get subscribers. I like cheap things too. That is why I got Hulu for 6 months for $2.99 till March. I even subbed to someone’s page for $3.99 because it was also cheap and her page boomed too like mine and she was higher up than me. I was at the 30%. Her page is still there. But she uploaded more often than me. They didn’t have a requirement for how many videos you should be posting every month.

After this long stressful day, I managed to link my son’s account on his Nintendo Switch but I didn’t want to delete the Nintendo account I accidentally made by putting in the wrong birthdate or he would have lost his Fortnight data he just created. But it still wouldn’t let me link his account to the Switch because it said it was already on another game system. I thought you could link the same Network ID to multiple Switches. I guess not. Just like how I notice a child can’t collect gold coins to get prizes. Looks like he can now just as long as he uses the admin account. When I transferred his ID, somehow it created a new account. But I was able to get his other data over by signing him up for a free trial Nintendo online membership and doing a cloud save and then downloading it on the new game system. Then I deleted his from my system after cloud save.

My whole family also skipped roastbeef because none of us were feeling good.

The account loss sure ruined my Christmas. I was going to put a photo of me sitting on my messy diaper today but decided since my account is deleted, I will just sell the photo for a price and so far I hadn’t gotten a single DM. I will save the photo maybe for snapchat but I would have to see if they allow that content. If their reasons for why my account was deleted, I will just accept it and move on and accept I misunderstood the TOS because they didn’t have everything listed what you can’t do or what their requirements were. But if it’s over anything false, I won’t accept it and will just look down on that website and not recommend it knowing you can lose your account randomly. I know you can’t sign up again using the same email address because it will say it’s been registered but open a new account no problem but then you have to upload your ID and your face holding it and they would know you are the same person unless they don’t pay attention but I think it would be too risky. If their requirement is you have to use the same name listed on your ID, screw it. They once had my real name on there when I linked my bank account and I freaked out and changed the name fast. So I would check it all the time to be sure the name is not my real name and they should know no one uses their real name online so it’s not like I was pretending to be someone else. Also sex workers use fake names all the time. I always doubt the names sex workers use online is their actual name. I always assume it’s their stage name. Same as ABDLs who sell their content and charge people to see it.

And here is the thing, I always knew doing this gig should never be relied on because industries can reject you, onlyfans is a industry, they can reject you so the money goes with it you never withdrew so it’s a good idea to always withdraw money when it reaches the minimum amount in case stuff like this happens. They aren’t going to care if you had lot of fans and your page was booming. You can go to other places and they can reject you too once a real person sees your account.

Now off to take my shower and print off that W2 forum and maybe make some videos with my husband and get my profile pic taken.



My onlyfans page gone

I don’t know what happened. But just today or a few moments ago, I was not able to log into my page so I figured the website was down and went back to my game and watching James Bond.

I come back around 11 PM and try to log in again and the page is still logging me in so I refresh and I try and log in and it won’t log me in. Thinking it’s a glitch, I ask about it on twitter and no responses. I decide to check the other two only fan pages I know and I follow their twitter accounts. They are still there so I delete their onlyfans name in the url and put in mine and page is not found. I did send onlyfans an email about my account.

I don’t know if they terminated my service or if I got hacked and they deleted my account so I signed up for manyvids to see and I might just have to sell my photos for cheap and see if anyone buys them. I had a promotion going on and it was $3 to join till New Years and it got deleted so that means those that subscribed lost their money. I lost $100 so it makes me glad I withdrew my money in time which was $355.

This really sucks and I am upset now and I can’t relax and given this is the Holiday, I don’t expect to hear back from my only fans support till after the holidays. I plan on sending them a fresh email to contact them in case they only respond to fresh new emails when I ask a new question.

I did look at the terms to see if I broke any and I know I didn’t break any because none of it fit that I violated.

I did create a new Onlyfans account but will hold off posting any new content to it or re posting content. Same as adding any bank information to it.

I am sorry guys. My account had been removed or suspended, who knows or maybe I was hacked and they got my account deleted. If I do reopen my page again and re upload any content, I will have a stronger password and write it down and keep it safe in my notebook. I don’t know if someone had falsely reported my page or what and decided to silently harass me but I hear that happens among ABDLs and they also had their accounts disappeared mysteriously.

I wonder if anyone has opened a new account on the same website having to re verify their identity and started from scratch there?

More to add and it’s after midnight as I write this:

I know mindlessly Diapered made a video and I believe the same thing happened to her and she said people are trying to shut her down.

It’s a rant and I never thought it would happen to me. I don’t know if it was because I am not active enough or I won’t do customs and stuff I get requested from time to time is stuff I am not into. I had my price low for a reason because I didn’t want the stress of trying to keep active. People could subscribe and cancel anytime. But her video is pretty empowering. If you don’t want to pay, don’t pay. That is why I don’t buy paid videos or pay to follow pages except I did with one other person because she was also doing a sale on her onlyfans page so I followed for $3.99 a month and was going to subscribe. Now I can’t view that page unless I pay to follow again which I won’t. But I would never ever try and harass someone and try and get them shut down because I didn’t like to pay. I just go somewhere else.

I know there are other options out there like many vids which I created an account for, patron and I can also try and sell some extra photos or clips individually and there is clipsforsale website. But I realize paypal does not allow anyone to use their service to sell sexual things. That would also mean my real name gets outed which I don’t want and I don’t really want to have to create a new paypal account with a fake name. Plus it takes a few days to set it up. Plus someone can just decide to report my account to shut me down just because. I don’t know why people do these things.

It’s the holidays so I decide I will just relax and take some extra photos and videos if I can and enjoy my holiday and not worry about this right now. I also don’t expect to hear anything from Onlyfans till tomorrow Dec 26th and I am not expecting manyvids to approve me within 24 hrs because of the holiday.

And it’s funny because I had my Onlyfans page Christmas Eve morning and now it was gone in the evening around 6PM and I just shrugged it off and thought it was just being slow and the server was acting up. I don’t know if it was because I had troubles with my images being upright and I didn’t know what sizes they were when they asked me when I contacted them about it. But I never heard back from them again and I also shrugged that one off and figured it’s the holiday so maybe they are closed and will be back in business after Christmas.

I think I am mostly upset because I was getting free money and that got taken away and I lost $100 and I had $38.00 of it in my account that was ready to be withdrawn. I had around $70ish still waiting for approval. But I am so glad I withdrew $355 in time before this happened.

I am still viewing the guidelines to see if I violated anything and I can’t see any. I am hoping I can get this fixed.

I am also viewing guidelines for manyvids to make sure I won’t violate any rules and what their policies are.

When I think about it, I also just remembered someone else I follow saying on her page that her Snapchat got deleted randomly. I don’t know if she got it back. I know she is doing premium again but she didn’t say. I also wonder if baby Emma got her onlyfans page deleted too. I remember the time she lost her wordpress blog and it’s still gone. But she has her Instagram, I don’t know if she still has her tumblr. Too bad she doesn’t do PM or I would have talked to her about all this and see what she does now and how does she advertise her business now. But I could still try and if she doesn’t respond, no worries.

I have clips4sale on my mind, patron, many vids for other options to make some extra money. I wonder if there are other paid social medias like onlyfans.

My only? chance to make a Christmas video

My parents decided to take my kids to some light show out of town that is an hour away. They invited me to come but I declined because I wanted to make a Christmas video. My parents are home now so this would be my only chance to make that video before the Holiday is over and I don’t know when I would be alone again without my kids being home. My husband said I wanted to do something with him today (which was no lie) so they said “okay.”

I spent a day out with my son and the local art museum was doing free admission today so I took him. Then we stopped at this one IKEA tent they were having in the square and it was toys, most of them being stuffies. The square was also holding a Christmas concert with a band performing with instruments. Then we also went to the crafty wonderland fair another place was holding and it was not a Christmas Bizarre fair so we were not there long. Lot of it was hand made stuff but lot of it wasn’t related to Christmas. There was a hotel holding the same thing but it was called Christmas crafty geeky fair or something and it was just mostly handmade stuff than Christmas. Then we went to the dying mall and it was crowded which surprised me. I had not seen that mall filled with people in a really long time. And “Last Christmas” was not playing on a loop as the local article here claimed. It is half vacant but there were lot of people there and I looked at cell phones but couldn’t buy a new one right now because I didn’t bring my money with and I never transferred the money from the savings into our checking. I am thinking of the Samsung s10e phone. I asked the man there what phone would he recommend for social media and games and he directed me to that phone. Then I left the mall with my son because it was too crowded and he was acting up so that was too much for me to handle. I used the “we have to be home because grandma and grandpa are taking you kids out this evening” excuse. Then I said “see it’s already getting dark” because of the clouds and it was after 3. These were real excuses because when we got home, the kids got ready right away and they left with my parents.

I had to charge my phone and get things ready to shoot and I brought down my tripod just in case and I got my Christmas outfit out of the storage bin in the basement where I keep all my ABaby clothes. My daddy helped me get changed into the outfit and he got so turned on. I also got my present from top of the shelf to open in the video my daddy had gotten me for Christmas.

I put my mask on and he films me and I open the present and it’s a party dress from Little For Big and I take off my romper and dress into that dress. I show it on me and lift my dress up to show my diaper again when my daddy decided to end the video. I put the tripod away and put my phone back on the charger.

My daddy was so turned on he changed my wet diaper and put me in a fresh one.

We also went out and I went out in my new outfit but I had on my winter jacket that covered my outfit and we went to IHOP and there was another person there who had on pajama bottoms and Rugrats sweatshirt. I thought it was a child but my husband said it was a young lady and thought she was one of us, an AB. I didn’t pay much attention to her. I am sure that is how others felt about me too so they paid no attention to me to notice my outfit because I didn’t even have my winter coat zipped. I got Holiday pancakes and the whip cream on them melted and we also ordered another stack to take home so my kids will have them in the morning and my husband said he didn’t want whip cream on it because it would melt so they left it off and only had on the frosting and this candy stuff.

We went to Goodwill next and he found a coffee pot and I found a Snakes and Ladders version except it was called Ski Lifts and Slopes and it had never been opened so I got it for $3. I also got bathtub fingerpaint for $1 and it was unused. Then we went to The Dollar Tree and I got gift tags and Frozen stickers to decorate my diapers with and gift boxes and we also stopped at a 7-11 and he got energy drinks and I got two more Nintendo Games from the Redbox because the games were cheap and at the lowest price I would see them at. Then I had gotten an email and text message from my credit card company for “suspicious activity” and I confirmed it was me. That was because the purchases showed they were made from out of state because the headquarters are in Illinois so it showed up as me making a payment from there so the card thought it was possible fraud and it would have locked my card if I hadn’t confirmed it was me. I’ve heard stories about credit cards not working on trips because people would use them and then their card would be declined because it would get blocked. It’s worse when it happens over seas because then you can’t call your card company and then you have to go through the hassle to get some plan so you can make over sea calls. Now I know that probably happened because they didn’t get a text about it or email and didn’t confirm it was them so their card got locked.

We stopped at the adult store near our house on the way back and my daddy got me some stuff, he got me a little vibrator and I got some body suit and a unicorn wig and tail and some high socks with bows. I honestly wish that store had more innocent and cute stuff than hardcore sexual items. I went to one other adult store that is now selling Tykables and they had little stuff there, regular cute socks you would find in normal stores and they had these Crayola socks you color and I think that store is better than the one near us because they have more innocent items there along with sexy items. And the Tykables there are $45 and I am not spending that much on a pack of 10 and on the retail website it’s $40 so they don’t cost that much more and you are better off buying a case and getting free shipping because you then pay $20 per pack or $18.75 when you spend $160 or $150 on a case. Also the lady in the adult store near us noticed my outfit and said how cute it was. My husband thinks she knows because it’s a adult store and she probably knows all sorts of fetishes out there. Now I just wish adult stores would sell cute clothing that looks like something kids would wear. I have seen school girl stuff there and devil stuff and horns and bunny ears and the tails and just sexy clothing and lingerie. They also sell panty hose and some of them are cute. Their stock is always changing so I go there maybe once a month.

We came home and my parents were still gone so I wrapped presents and put them with the rest of the Santa presents. I’m lucky my kids don’t snoop or I would have had to put them in the attic and that would be so inconvenient. I have ruined so many Christmas presents as a child because I was a little snoop and I would find some toys and play with them and I once ruined my birthday presents too when I was looking in the pantry and I pulled something and two Barbie outfits fell on the floor and got excited because I had found some new toys and my mom said “that was for your birthday, you can open them now.” My mom had them on the top shelf and I was up on a bar stool looking up there for something and I pulled on a plastic bag and they fell out. My little brothers were never snoops, I was. Then finally they started putting the presents in the Trunk of my dad’s old Honda he rarely drove. I never snooped in the car and never got the car keys to look in there do they picked that spot because I would never have a reason to be in the car or going in the trunk and getting the car keys to go looking in there. I can’t imagine how hard that must have been for my parents. I was everywhere in our home, the attics, the closets, drawers, pantries, under the stairs, laundry room behind the dryer, my dad’s office, master bedroom, their bathroom so when my ex boyfriend Jeremiah tried to tell me my parents had sex toys and all parents use them, I told him they never had sex toys or I would have found them in their room because I always snooped and ruined birthday surprises and Christmases and other surprises. But to him it was so alien that someone wouldn’t use a vibrator or use any kink items so he didn’t believe me when I said it. I even remember as a kid I would get yelled at for finding presents on accident and told they were not mine and to put them back only to find them on Christmas day wrapped that were addressed to me from Santa. But that still didn’t stop me from getting into things and looking in places to see what is in them.

I also had to change into my bathrobe in case my parents came home so I wouldn’t be seen in it. Then I changed out of it after my kids were in bed and I put the clothes away back in the bin and put blankets and pillows back on top.

Since I accidentally spent more money on wants, I guess I now have to take $200 from my only fans money but I told my husband if money is tight when we pay our credit card, he can take some of the money from it to pay for what we bought. He said that was what he figured. So far I have $895 saved now after subtracting $200.

I made a little happy

Last weekend I went to the local munch and we were doing the gift exchange. I brought in a gift that was a building set of a Pokemon character and I couldn’t even get that thing together because the pieces wouldn’t stay and the store that sold used games wouldn’t take it back because it had been opened. My son was upset because it was his money his trade in credit he bought it with when he traded in his games. So we bought it from him and he got his ten bucks back and I decided to regift it. I had it wrapped and ready to go and it came with the instructions too and I had the pieces in a bagie. That saved me some money.

This year not many people showed up so the room was pretty empty. It’s the holiday season so I am pretty sure people were just busy and had other things going on so they couldn’t come there.I was nearly called last again and I was worried I might get the gift that was mine I brought it. I lucked out because there was one other gift left on the table and it was a art set someone made. They had put it all together and had instructions taped telling what each item is for. I figured I could always give it to my kids since my daughter loves to scribble and draw. I can try to make the stars and it said I could find the instructions online. Some other guy got my gift and he opened it and liked it because I saw someone else was putting it together. Hopefully they will be able to do it. I just find those toys too frustrating and they are not like Legos. It does say 14+ on the box.

I was talking to another person about my gift because she asked me about it and I said I wasn’t into arts and crafts and didn’t like it because I am not very creative but one of the things about gifting is someone shares their interest with you and you try it because that is what getting gifts is all about. It’s the thought. But some other little over heard me and came to me with her Stuffie she got as a gift exchange and said to me “I over heard you saying you don’t like crafts so would you like this stuffie here?”

I was hesitant about it because I didn’t know what she was asking and she had caught me off guard. I asked if she was asking for a trade and she said “no, I want to make you happy so do you want this?”

I asked her if she didn’t want it and she said she wanted to make me happy and I said “are you sure you want to give it to me and you don’t want it?” and she goes “Yeah, I want you to be happy” so I take the gift.

I had to double check here she was actually giving it to me because she wanted to, not because she felt obligated and she really meant it and this wasn’t some game she was playing. Sometimes people will play a game where they ask you something and you are supposed to do the opposite they ask of you and they get mad at you for taking their offer.

It was a Stuffie I got and it has pockets and the mouth opens because it has a zipper and the back opens too and you put stuff in it. I put my hand made ornaments in there I made. Each table had paper, this fake snow stuff, table desorations and blank orbs to put stuff in to make your own ornament I made two because there were not lot of people there.

Then towards the end of the munch, another little walked up to me holding her giant Boo beanie owl and said in a nice voice “hey are you willing to trade this for your arts and crafts. I like arts and crafts.”

I take my giant coloring book out someone had left there because they also didn’t want that gift they got in their gift exchange and I double check the bag to be sure none of my stuff was in it and she is getting all giddy and jumping up and down because she gets all excited. I felt happy I was making someone happy and I was giving it to someone who actually is creative and enjoys these things because most likely this would just sit in my room and I never do anything with it because I lost interest in it quickly. Or I might have just regifted it to my daughter and would have gotten my son another gift to make it even.

I gave my exchange gift to her and she was very excited and was saying thank you and I had two stuffed animals and a coloring book. There were lot of great gifts this year but most of them were big stuffed animals. Lot of them were just gift bags with tissue in them.