Just this morning I saw a Tweet on Twitter by someone of how they don’t relate to other ABDLs. They don’t like pacifiers, don’t like messing and two other things. I couldn’t find that Tweet again when I refreshed my feed.
From time to time someone will bring up how they don’t fit in or are questioning their ABDLism. I have never questioned mine because there is no box and no criteria. It’s just a label anyone can take and put on themselves if they like diapers or have any desires or have one baby thing.
There have been things about it I don’t relate to like the binge and purge cycle. I have never tossed out all my baby and diaper stuff. I have never blocked my AB friends just to move on.
I don’t put on a bunch of diapers to make them real thick. To me that is just a waste of diaper. If I want thickness, I buy thick diapers which I do anyway. I have put on two diapers for more absorbency and that was it. I also use doublers when I have them and thinking about buying a pack from Northshore to use in cheap diapers and Supreme Lite.
Another thing that makes me different than other ABDLs are I am not into today kid shows like Paw Patrol. I have also been not into modern Disney animated movies but had only watched the latest ones due to the game I play.
Another thing about me is I outgrew bottles and sippy cups.
I decided I am an adult kid than an adult baby but yet I still like printed diapers and will get some from time to time. I still would like an adult sized crib and a nursery and put all my toys in there and my chapter books and kid books from my childhood and decorate the walls with wall stickers of Shopkins. But that won’t be for another 20 years when the kids are grown and moved out. I still like my pacifier I use for stress relief. I still like ABaby clothes.
I also don’t buy stocks of diapers and have a huge diaper stash. I don’t want to use my savings so spend hundreds of dollars and I don’t have room for all these diapers. These people will have a whole entire closet filled with them or have a whole entire bookshelf filled. I am not like that. I buy one case and order more when I get to my last pack from that case. I used to order two cases until our son started going to school because we needed to pay for preschool and then our daughter started going when he went to kindergarten. Now she will be in it the following year and we will have more money again. But buying two cases every other month, we are still spending the same amount of money but we are just buying every month now than spending double. But every other month it was like we had more money. Our diaper budget is $120 a month but I always spend less than that.
Then there are the extreme types I don’t understand. They are the ones who want to be a baby 24/7 and never adult and I couldn’t imagine having that life. I like my freedom and I admit never having to work again would be nice. My son often asks me what would I do if I got $2,000,000 and I always say I would quit my job and put it all in savings and live off interest. But when he asks if I had win it, my answer changes because you always have to give out your name and get a photo when you claim it and it makes you more vulnerable to lawsuits and fake friends, losing family members and real friends because they all start using you as a bank and buy them stuff or to get them out of debt. I tell my son it would all be horrible if I won that money.
I also don’t understand the need to go AB in public than leaving it at home. I don’t feel I am not being who I am if I don’t use my pacifier openly or wearing my AB overalls openly. I mean that stuff can stay in your home or you can wear it under your clothes or bath robe like I do from time to time. Another thing I don’t relate to with other ABDLs.
More things I do not relate to with other ABDLs:
I never felt sad or upset whenever my ABDLism would fade. I would just lose interest in diapers and engaging in it it wouldn’t bother me. Each time I thought I was over it but then it would always come back.
I never wore diapers to feel naughty and nasty and in fact I had always hated the feeling.
I don’t wear them for a thrill to not get caught nor do I wear them out in public for a thrill as a hope to get caught.
I don’t feel the need to let everyone know I wear diapers. I just feel it isn’t anyone’s business. If they find out, they won’t confront me about it. Only people who have were my aunt and uncle here because I was living with them and I was stinking up their outside trash can with my diapers and throwing my used ones in the closet in the spare room, I was staying in for me to take out later when they are gone. They must have looked in my room while I was at work and they found my clean diapers and my used ones in a bag in the closet with their other clothes they kept in there and their shoes too. Or maybe they just happened to go in there to look for something and they found them. But that was how I got my diaper pail. My parents have also confronted me about it when they find out and that was it.
I let diapers become normal than only wearing to keep the thrill and I wear 24/7 just to keep them off my mind and I feel normal.
I have one online friend who lives in Ohio and he has been told by other ABs he is not a real AB because he doesn’t watch children shows and doesn’t like cute things. He likes Dallas and CHIPS and his sports and he drinks his beer in a baby bottle. Talk about gate keeping. That is something he doesn’t relate to other ABs.
And one last thing, little space. I never understand the meaning of it and why it’s even a thing. When I watch a children’s show from my childhood or decide to use a pacifier or look at my Shopkins or Happy Meal toys, I don’t call it my little space. I just see it as me engaging in one of my normal activities. Same as if I get in the mood to wear an AB outfit. I have never called it a little space and makes no sense to me when I am just being myself. Minus the AB stuff, I would still do the other stuff if I weren’t an ABDL.
I am pretty sure there are many things other ABDLs do I am not into and it would sound foreign to me. I never got into the erotic ABDL stories because they are mixed with other kinks like bondage and BDSM and slavery and toilet slave and meh, not my thing. I am on the innocent side. I had to learn to like sex during a diaper change though and you have to thank my husband for that. But I will only go that far and nothing further. I guess I got into the rape thing because I joke I am being raped by him because little girls don’t have sex and he goes “adult baby girls do” and I know how much sex is important to him and it would be selfish of me to not ever have it with him so I let him fuck me during my diaper change. If he just let me say no, he would never get it from me so I decided to just let him have it whenever he wants. It’s not like he has a high libido or is highly sexual or oversexual. It’s rare when I even feel the urge to have it so I let him make that decision because he is daddy and I am not allowed to say no. I do often wonder now if I am really a gray-a or do I just have a low libido but that is another story.