Regression with video games

I still have video games from my childhood and teen years. The first game I have is The Little Mermaid for Sega Genesis I got at Fred Meyer when I was seven. The rest belonged to my brothers and they all got stolen from their game cases at my parents house after I moved out. The other game I had from when I was ten is Lotus II and the other is Buster’s Hidden Treasure I got in 6th grade at toys R Us. The rest I have I got in my teens and twenties at Gamestop and other game stores or online and Sonic games I had I traded in because I have them on my PS2 under Sonic Mega Collection Plus and I had them for Sonic Mega Collection for Gamecube. Nintendo 64 games I have I had from my teens and adult years and I still have them. I started buying video games and gaming systems when I was 15 and it built up over the years. Before then, I only got a new game for my birthday or Christmas and the rest I had to rent. Back then Nintendo 64 games were 50 bucks so that was like all my allowance. My brothers and I had to pool our allowance to get it and we spent all our money on the system itself and it only came with one controller so we had to buy one extra one and my parents bought a game with it as a birthday present for my brother.

Lately I have been playing the Nintendo 64. I guess writing made me want to play it again so I was playing Goldeneye and saw how much I sucked at because I hadn’t played it in years it and I played Blast Corps and I did play Kirby 64 on my virtual console last month when I moved back into my old bedroom when my parents semi moved out. I beat the game in 3 hours and I was surprised how I still knew the secrets and where the shards were hidden and I didn’t suck at it. Though i did had to take a peek at the online walkthrough because I wasn’t sure where some the shards were hidden. I introduced my son to the game system and the game Goldeneye but he found it hard to play and couldn’t figure out the controls. I still have my original file on the game and it’s 007 because I unlocked everything using cheats when I was 15. I remember I named every character in the game with different faces, I had Nathan, Zac, and I borrowed the name Dr. Doak for enemies that had the same face as him. I also used to joke about Natalya being stupid because she always got in the way and calling her diaper butt because it looked like she had a diaper on in the Control Center level. I remember playing the game and dying a lot and failing missions and having to quit the level and try again and also failing missions on purpose to see what happens and trying to mess with glitches.
I also played South Park and sucked at it. I used to get to episode three level 1 and now I can’t make it past the first level anymore past the boss because I hadn’t played it for so long and it took me lot of practice to finally get past that first level. But I still remember Bobbybird and used that to beat the game.

Sometimes I like to go back to my childhood by playing retro games than playing my 3DS. My son has told kids at his school how many games I have and none of them believed him. I have showed him the Playstation 2 which is hard to get to work because the back piece is loose that holds the power and I have to have the cord in a certain position for it to work. He wanted to play old fashioning Sonic so I showed him Sonic Mega Collection Plus and we played Sonic 3 together. My son is finally at an age when I can start relating to him and that is with video games and he can play them now.

I have over 630 video games and I am not counting all my son’s games or my husband’s and I didn’t include our PS3 games or my game Boy Advance videos and the board games for Game Boy Advance and Nintendo DS or virtual console games or games on my 3DS from the eshop and any digital retail purchases. This is from over the years of buying video games and I have found cheap ones too after they stopped making the DS games and Game Boy ones and Game Boy Advance and it’s amazing how cheap they get now. I also ebayed a lot with video games and try and get them for cheap and hope no one bids on the game. Now it’s been a while since I have bought anything on ebay. Wait, that was a lie, I used it this summer when I got got two sets of Shopkins. I occasionally use it still. We have been using Amazon now or I use other websites to make my diaper purchases and I don’t really buy video games online anymore because I have most of them now I am interested in and there are never any particular games I am looking for. I only go for games I want to play, I don’t buy to collect so that is why I don’t have that big of selection of the Sega Master games or the PSP and I don’t have any XBOX games or PS Vita. Plus I rent from Gamefly so I can play the games and not have to purchase them though I am considering buying Miitopia so I can get another game shipped. I waited few months to get that game to play it and it’s not in our budget right now to buy it and my 3DS system is getting too full for more video games and I want to leave some space for game updates and system updates and not fill it all up to 0 blocks and I want to leave room for me to re download some games I deleted. Not only am I just a ABDL, I also like video games. I don’t know if I would consider myself a gamer, I don’t play online and I don’t do computer games. I do mobile games sometimes and then I delete the app when I am not playing it anymore to save space since my phone only has 16 GB. Anything I get interested in, I keep buying. I have done that with my Nook and Kindle, 3Ds, Lite Brite stuff, Benny & Joon, AB clothes, cloth diapers. Then I get free interests where I just read about stuff online and watch vidoes and not spend money on it unless you want to count the internet because that costs money but it’s a monthly payment. Then I never get rid of anything and I find that hard too. I have even bought clothes too and then ended up with too much of them I stopped buying them and looking at them and now I haven’t bought any in ten years I’m guessing. I have managed to get rid of half of them over the years when I would be downsizing my apartment when I was nesting and getting rid of them of them again when they get too big and keep falling down because the elastic got too worn out in the waist or I lost weight. I do not like anything hanging on my legs which is why I always wore pants up past my belly button or up to it while other kids didn’t. I tried that and it never felt comfortable because I hated the saggy feeling between my legs and around my buttocks. I have been given occupational therapy for my tactile issues but this never went away. I don’t even like saggy diapers or diapers feeling loose on me either, I only like them snug because I like the tight feeling but ironically as a child I didn’t like jeans because of the tight feeling but yet I wore stretch pants and I wore turtle necks but my youngest brother hated turtle necks because he didn’t like anything around his neck.

I sometimes wonder how I am not even broke when I go spending money on anything I get obsessed with or interested in. I think I have toned it down after having kids because they need food and clothes and then there are the holidays and their birthdays and it’s a matter of setting examples so I don’t want to teach them to be hoarders and buy junk so I often don’t buy them toys because they have toys and every few months we go through them to get rid of so they can make room for new toys. I keep the ones they often play with and even I have gotten rid of stuff I decided I didn’t need so that sets them a good example.

My mother doesn’t see what I do as hoarding because my room or house doesn’t look like the ones in those TV shows and thing I have are considered collectible and she doesn’t call it hoarding. I have even bought unopened Barbies from the 1990’s and have them up in the attic so my kids can’t get to them. I also have a bunch of unopened Happy Meal toys my husband gave me when we were in our first year of our relationship. Some lady was going through her stuff and she had a bunch of those and was going to give them away so my husband said he can take those and his girlfriend loves those things so he took two bags of them and brought them over to me. Some of them I already had from childhood so they were duplicates. Now I have them all in one bag up in the attic. I just have troubles getting rid of things so it always takes effort and when I do, that is a accomplishment. But I know what I do is nothing compared to the people on the show or what Donald Morton in Mozart and the Whale did.

Lot of stuff from my childhood is either out in the cottage in the attic here or still in Montana packed away in my parents’ old house or in my deceased grandparents’ basement. Things get lost when you move. I know I have a few items in my deceased grandfather’s chicken house and now that property is owned by my aunt and uncle, same as for the house and small house I used to live in by myself.