I don’t think I have posted this yet here because I looked and found no results.
I think it’s very hard liking diapers as a child and having baby desires because as a kid, you don’t have lot of control over your life and no income. You have to earn your own money through chores or doing odd jobs from your neighbors. And plus you do not drive and you have no bank card so you have no way to make enough to buy diapers or to even go to the store to get some unless there is one a walking distance away. The closest store to us that would sell diapers is a mile away and that would be too far for a child. I don’t think a kid can get a bank card until they are eighteen so that makes it impossible to order online and stealing your parents credit or debit card just to order something online, you will get caught because it will show up on their statement and how would you explain to them what you bought online?
Then don’t forget about your friends and other kids. Kids have mouths, they notice more things than adults, they lack filters due to their brain development, they lack empathy for the same reason, they will say something if they notice and make a big deal about it and tease you about it. So even if you do buy diapers, you have to keep them well hidden and make sure your friends will never find them and wearing to school is like committing social suicide. All this anxiety and shame you have to carry and to keep hidden because you know diapers are unacceptable and not normal because you don’t see anyone else wearing them but very small children. Then there are your parents and they won’t accept it or even allow it. I think being a DL and liking baby stuff is very difficult as a minor.
But when you are an adult, you earn your own money now through employment, you have a bank card now so you can now order online and even pick up the case at the local Fedex office if the website offers that option. Your parents can’t make you not wear them unless they tell you to move out or threatening you they will stop paying for your school. Adults are too busy to even notice things around them and even if they do notice, they say nothing because they are too busy with their own lives to even care. So that makes it a lot easier to wear them and not worry about being judged or shamed.
I remember when I was a kid, I liked diapers but felt ashamed and embarrassed about it. I knew it wasn’t normal and this was another weird thing about me. I would occasionally take a diaper from next door and they had a two year old and my mom was friends with the mother. Then when he was potty trained, they no longer had the diapers. According to my mother I would take some from the store and wear them in 6th grade and I even took one from my school too. That was one battle there between us in 6th grade and I so desperately wanted them and I even felt suicidal over it. That is how hard it is being a DL as a kid. Then the city was going to build a store right outside our neighborhood which is now a Walgreens and I imagined going there and buying some diapers and putting them in my backpack and taking them home and hiding them when my parents are not home and hide them in my bedroom closet under my stuffed animals and only wear them when they are not home. But we moved before the construction even started and we lived in the country so no store within a walking distance. We lived about ten minutes out of town and it was tiring riding to town by bike and took too long.
I didn’t get my first diapers until I was 17 and that time I was driving and I had money from chores and no job. I had no card so I had to buy them in the store and I had to constantly look around making sure there was no one around I knew because it was a small town. I also had a story in my head, I was running an errand for my family to get diapers for my grandfather. I will even put on an act too about it so I would get in character about it and not get out of it until I was in the car. Then when I was 18, I had my own checkbook and bank card and I could order online then and with both parents knowing and letting me do it, that made it easier. They didn’t take my diapers away because I was an adult. But I still didn’t order online and still continued buying from Wal Mart or from thrift stores every time I saw some there. I never wore to school because I didn’t want kids to hear the sound and see them on me. I wore a Goodnite once when my period was real heavy so I had an excuse. I forgot to take my birth control so that resulted in my period being real heavy. I took it for hormones and for my period so it made it lighter and and cramp free and no hot flashes and I was not so sensitive.
I am not saying it’s easy being a ABDL as an adult because there is still shame and the embarrassment but the truth is people do not care what you wear under your clothes and it’s just your own anxiety that is making it hard, not the ABDL. This isn’t childhood. but once you accept it and not worry anymore about people finding out your wear them or even care if anyone knows, etc. you will see how normal your life is and how easy it is to wear diapers and if anyone asks about it, just tell them you have a medical issue or you can be honest just to see their reaction and they are random strangers so it doesn’t matter what they think. Unless it’s someone you know, I would just say it’s a medical issue. Once I realized all this, it made it easy for me as an ABDL. Maybe this was when I made peace with it. I have money so I can wear all the diapers I want without anyone telling me I cannot. I would say it can still can be hard if you are too poor to afford diapers and to wear anytime you want or if you can’t find someone who accepts it or find someone who will let you wear any time you want or if your parents are threatening to kick you out of their house or not pay for your school if you do not quit. Mine never made threats to get me to quit because they loved me too much. I do find this a curse in a way because of what comes with it. It’s not a curse for everyone though because it depends on their environment and the people around them. I would never date someone if they were revolted by my diaper usage or didn’t want me wearing around them and were not okay with me wearing them 24/7 or if they were just tolerating it. I would call this a compatibility issue.
I still occasionally buy in stores if any thrift stores are selling any good diapers but I mostly order mine online but not because it’s discreet but because they offer better diapers than the stores here do. I have no problems having diapers in my shopping cart and purchasing them at the counter. It feels normal. It used to be awkward but not anymore.