“Mom, don’t order Shopkins anymore.”

I love shopkins, I think they are so cute. I have some of the Kinstructions sets and I have a couple Happy Places playsets and some Shopkin magnets and trading cards and keychains and Shopkins figures and some Shopkin beauty stuff and necklaces. I will try and find them at Goodwill whenever I am there. One time I found a pack of them but someone had opened the pack and took all the Shopkins but another time I found an unopened box of a Kinstructions set and bought it.

I will also take advantage of my kids’ book orders by ordering Shopkin books from them. I have done it from my son’s because they always have Shopkins in there and one day he told me “Mom, I don’t want you ordering Shopkins anymore” and I asked him why and he said kids tease him about it when he gets the books. I told him to just tell them I bought them for me because I like that stuff and he told me he did but they don’t believe him. I was so disappointed and said “oh man” like Sniper the Fox. Then my son told me I can order the books again but just one more time. I then opened his book order when I was home and ordered the Shopkin stuff again. At least I have a daughter and hopefully Shopkins will still be popular when she reaches kindergarten unless they start appearing in her preschool book order.

Being a parent sometimes is fun unless your kids tell you to stop doing something because it’s affecting them like being teased about it by other kids.

Happy Halloween

This was my favorite holiday when I was a kid because I loved collecting candy from neighbors and every year I would try to get the most and try and hit every house and even go to the neighborhood below us. I think there was only two times when I was able to hit every house with lights on without getting tired and only that one year where I hit the other neighborhood which was only one block long. But when we lived in Montana, I never hit every house because I would get too tired and cold and having a bag full of candy was enough for me to feel satisfied to quit.

Then I got too old so when I was 17, that was my last year of trick or treating. Now I get to take my kids and this year was a nice day and it was in the 60’s again so it was a dry night and I was expecting it to not be cold but boy was I wrong. I went as a little girl as pictured on my Twitter page. It turned my husband on because I looked like a baby girl. My son thought I looked silly and told me only kids wear pigtails and not adults. I stayed in the outfit for the rest of the day and wore the bottoms to cover my diaper.
I had to go online to look at best neighborhoods to go trick or treating in because where we live, there are never any trick or treaters and none ever come to our house. So I found a neighborhood to take my kids to and I drove them there and parked and we did two blocks and they filled their pumpkin buckets up with candy. I got tired and I got cold so my feet were freezing. My daughter got tired too so I decided to call it quits and we only did two blocks but we did it for nearly two hours and that is not going to the same houses again. There were a lot of trick or treaters so I decided we will do this area again next year.

My son felt his sister ruined trick or Treating for him so I told him he had plenty of candy and I am tired and cold and ready to go home and it’s close to their bed time and we have more candy at home. I looked at the temperature on my dashboard and saw it was only 55 degrees out. What? It felt colder than that, damn humidity. I swore it felt like it was in the forties or thirties. My son wasn’t cold because he felt hot. I noticed lot of the kids were not wearing any jackets or sweaters. I was wearing my Barbie coat to help keep warm I’ve had since high school.

I also noticed I was the only grown up that was dressed up for Halloween other than the adults who were handing out candy. But I didn’t see any parents dressed up for Halloween but they also waited on the side walk like I did while our kids got candy. I only got candy when someone would leave their bowl of candy out so I had a few pieces plus the mini bag of M&Ms I found on the ground.

Here is my photo again since I know this will be buried on my Twitter page soon:

Then we when got home, I put the kids to bed and my husband had blue balls all evening while we were gone because of my “costume” so he fucked me in my bed that night and we put a chair in front of my bedroom door for in case our son tries to come in. he took off my bottoms and my pantyhose and my diaper and cleaned me up and fucked me and then he took off my dress and took out my pigtails and I took my shower and then he put a clean diaper on me and picked out a pair of pajamas to put on me which was just my regular pajamas. Just Hello Kitty bottoms and a mismatched top with two random numbers on it.

My poopy diaper this morning.

I posted the photos on Twitter of me this morning wearing the diaper before taking it off. Here is the diaper I took off.


I didn’t have time to post it this morning because of kids and then volunteering at the Halloween party and doing other things so this is my chance now before I forget.

What do you call your daddy?

I either call him Daddy or by his name when we are out in public or when our kids are around. But when I am talking to them, I refer him as Dad and that is normal for all parents. I associate Daddy with the kinky kind so I never refer him as that when talking to the kids. There is Dad and Daddy. Plus Daddy sounds too babyish which is why I associate it with ABDL or with littles or DDLG. That is something small children call their Dads. Same with Mommy which is why I associate it with ABDL and littles and MMLB. It would be too weird to call my real mom and dad Mommy and Daddy.

This question was posted on Fetlife and I couldn’t say much because they don’t allow talk there about real kids so they might see my response as TMI. I once talked about potty training because it was about potty training your real kids while being ABDL (someone else posted the thread) and someone told me it was TMI for on there and someone else told them to save their sanity, do not read my blog. That is one of my things; doing TMI about anything. I don’t know when to stop. So it’s always best to not mention it at all.

My destroyed diaper

I took it off this morning and I pooped in it last night and slept in it. I almost posted it on Twitter but then realized not everyone likes to see messy or wet diapers like I do so I decided to just post it here again with link only.


Another Twitter page

I can’t seem to stop creating separate accounts for online and real life. I decided to make a new Twitter account just for exclusive ABDL and my life than posting about games. My other one was just created just so I can post my Tomodachi Life stuff making it a story about my character. So my Twitter username is @diaperedmother.



It’s easier being a ABDL as an adult

I don’t think I have posted this yet here because I looked and found no results.

I think it’s very hard liking diapers as a child and having baby desires because as a kid, you don’t have lot of control over your life and no income. You have to earn your own money through chores or doing odd jobs from your neighbors. And plus you do not drive and you have no bank card so you have no way to make enough to buy diapers or to even go to the store to get some unless there is one a walking distance away. The closest store to us that would sell diapers is a mile away and that would be too far for a child. I don’t think a kid can get a bank card until they are eighteen so that makes it impossible to order online and stealing your parents credit or debit card just to order something online, you will get caught because it will show up on their statement and how would you explain to them what you bought online?

Then don’t forget about your friends and other kids. Kids have mouths, they notice more things than adults, they lack filters due to their brain development, they lack empathy for the same reason, they will say something if they notice and make a big deal about it and tease you about it. So even if you do buy diapers, you have to keep them well hidden and make sure your friends will never find them and wearing to school is like committing social suicide. All this anxiety and shame you have to carry and to keep hidden because you know diapers are unacceptable and not normal because you don’t see anyone else wearing them but very small children. Then there are your parents and they won’t accept it or even allow it. I think being a DL and liking baby stuff is very difficult as a minor.

But when you are an adult, you earn your own money now through employment, you have a bank card now so you can now order online and even pick up the case at the local Fedex office if the website offers that option. Your parents can’t make you not wear them unless they tell you to move out or threatening you they will stop paying for your school. Adults are too busy to even notice things around them and even if they do notice, they say nothing because they are too busy with their own lives to even care. So that makes it a lot easier to wear them and not worry about being judged or shamed.

I remember when I was a kid, I liked diapers but felt ashamed and embarrassed about it. I knew it wasn’t normal and this was another weird thing about me. I would occasionally take a diaper from next door and they had a two year old and my mom was friends with the mother. Then when he was potty trained, they no longer had the diapers. According to my mother I would take some from the store and wear them in 6th grade and I even took one from my school too. That was one battle there between us in 6th grade and I so desperately wanted them and I even felt suicidal over it. That is how hard it is being a DL as a kid. Then the city was going to build a store right outside our neighborhood which is now a Walgreens and I imagined going there and buying some diapers and putting them in my backpack and taking them home and hiding them when my parents are not home and hide them in my bedroom closet under my stuffed animals and only wear them when they are not home. But we moved before the construction even started and we lived in the country so no store within a walking distance. We lived about ten minutes out of town and it was tiring riding to town by bike and took too long.

I didn’t get my first diapers until I was 17 and that time I was driving and I had money from chores and no job. I had no card so I had to buy them in the store and I had to constantly look around making sure there was no one around I knew because it was a small town. I also had a story in my head, I was running an errand for my family to get diapers for my grandfather. I will even put on an act too about it so I would get in character about it and not get out of it until I was in the car. Then when I was 18, I had my own checkbook and bank card and I could order online then and with both parents knowing and letting me do it, that made it easier. They didn’t take my diapers away because I was an adult. But I still didn’t order online and still continued buying from Wal Mart or from thrift stores every time I saw some there. I never wore to school because I didn’t want kids to hear the sound and see them on me. I wore a Goodnite once when my period was real heavy so I had an excuse. I forgot to take my birth control so that resulted in my period being real heavy. I took it for hormones and for my period so it made it lighter and and cramp free and no hot flashes and I was not so sensitive.

I am not saying it’s easy being a ABDL as an adult because there is still shame and the embarrassment but the truth is people do not care what you wear under your clothes and it’s just your own anxiety that is making it hard, not the ABDL. This isn’t childhood. but once you accept it and not worry anymore about people finding out your wear them or even care if anyone knows, etc. you will see how normal your life is and how easy it is to wear diapers and if anyone asks about it, just tell them you have a medical issue or you can be honest just to see their reaction and they are random strangers so it doesn’t matter what they think. Unless it’s someone you know, I would just say it’s a medical issue. Once I realized all this, it made it easy for me as an ABDL. Maybe this was when I made peace with it.  I have money so I can wear all the diapers I want without anyone telling me I cannot. I would say it can still can be hard if you are too poor to afford diapers and to wear anytime you want or if you can’t find someone who accepts it or find someone who will let you wear any time you want or if your parents are threatening to kick you out of their house or not pay for your school if you do not quit. Mine never made threats to get me to quit because they loved me too much. I do find this a curse in a way because of what comes with it. It’s not a curse for everyone though because it depends on their environment and the people around them. I would never date someone if they were revolted by my diaper usage or didn’t want me wearing around them and were not okay with me wearing them 24/7 or if they were just tolerating it. I would call this a compatibility issue.

I still occasionally buy in stores if any thrift stores are selling any good diapers but I mostly order mine online but not because it’s discreet but because they offer better diapers than the stores here do. I have no problems having diapers in my shopping cart and purchasing them at the counter. It feels normal. It used to be awkward but not anymore.