I think my bowels are getting weaker

I used my diapers exclusively now but sometimes that isn’t possible.

Two times at work I have felt an urge to go number 2 so I would hold it but it would feel like it will come out on its own. I don’t want to go home smelling like shit on the way so I have had to use the restroom there to go.

It happened again today when I was cleaning the former daycare so I held it because I didn’t want to walk all the way to the restrooms but forgot they had one in the former daycare. Then the urge went away and it came back while I was cleaning the break room so I had to use the bathroom in there and boy it was a big one I took.

now it seems like when the urge hits, I can go no problem but it feels like I can’t hold it.