I unfollowed one of the Nintendo blogs and Harsh Reality because they had a shit load of new blogs every single day and it was flooding up my Reader. I wish we could filter our blogs we follow because these two made way too many and I just didn’t care about what they wrote because it didn’t catch my interest. It was so overwhelming. But I do have Harsh Reality bookmarked so I can visit it from there any time. His goal is to offend, I guess he offended me by making way too many blog posts. I am offended by too many blog entries a day by the same user 😉
Last night daddy decided to give me a bath. I was about to shower so I took my diaper off and my daddy then came in my room and told me to get on the bed. I figured he wanted sex because he knew I was going to take a shower later and I already had my diaper off so that was the only clue. He cleaned me up with a wipe and rubbed me down there with it and then he fucked me and then he gave me a bath and scrubbed my body and down there. He also washed my hair wish shampoo and he rubbed acne cream on my back and chest where whiteheads like to form and he used a body scrubber. Then he dried me off and I let the water out. He did first but I closed the drain and then I let the water out again. We hadn’t done this in a while because of our kids and my parents and the fact his feet hurt so he is always in pain and they get real bad when he has been on them for too long. But my mother was gone and my dad was sleeping and so were our kids so we had play time.
Then he diapered me and put me to bed and gave me my doll (daughter) because she woke up. She woke up while he was going to put one on me so he had to go to her and I laid on my bed and waited and then he came back and finished me and then gave her to me and tucked us both in. I was only wearing a diaper and no pajamas just like a baby. Then our son woke up and he wanted to lay with me and I said no. He has to learn to sleep on his own anyway and I didn’t have clothes on. Daddy didn’t seem concerned so he asked if our son could lay with me.
My dad told me he was going to see his brother in the hospital and he wouldn’t make it till Wednesday he said. So their youngest brother would be coming to pick my dad up and go out to Montana together to see him. I find it sad he is dying because he has cancer. I am not sure what cancer he has but he is dying. He is only 64. I was never close to him due to his bad temper, etc. and he was never a people person so he never cared to visit whenever he dropped by in town but it’s a shame I won’t be able to see him for the last time because I just found out this morning and I have to go to work and I have kids to take care of. But honestly the fact this is on short notice is overwhelming so I am not going to see him even though I would like to. I never liked things at the last minute and it’s too much to process. The others are just excuses for not going and I think i am just using those so I wouldn’t feel guilty. I can’t remember the last time I have seen him. I don’t think I really care about him and I just feel I want to see him because he is family and that is a normal feeling. I know him dying means I will never see him again.