My husband surprised me

Ugh constipation. I feel the urge to go poop and this time I am going to wait until it is strong enough for me to push it out and I hope i won’t get truly constipated where I can’t go at all. I can always get enema is that happens.

Today I came home from work and our son was gone again and there was food left on the stove for me. My husband is a good cook and I wish he cook more often and it help me with my diet but his feet give him limitations.

My mother in law took him again because she stopped by to give my husband some medicine for his pain. My sister in law was here too. I am sure they both saw my diapers I had hanging on my son’s crib with his. I am at a point now where I don’t care anymore. I’m not here to see it so it wouldn’t bother me.

I put my pajamas on and made myself a plate. My husband was going to make me one but I told him I had it. Then I sat down on the couch and turned the computer on and started to eat. I was afraid I was going to get some on my shirt so I put on my son’s bib and sat back down. Then my husband came out and sat down next to me. I told him I had the bib on so I wouldn’t get any food on my shirt and he said “That’s okay, that’s what happens to babies.” I told him I didn’t put it on to be a baby, I put it on to protect my pajamas from getting dirty. He told me I was his baby. Then he took the spoon from me and fed me a few bits. I liked it and I can’t remember the last time he has babied me. Then he stopped and went into the kitchen and I kept on eating. Then I got myself some more and decided to have the rest of the rice that was in the bowl. I put the stir fry sauce on it and the vegetables and my daddy made me a bottle. He brought it out to me and put it in my mouth and told me to take it because he couldn’t hold it up any longer due to his feet. I told him he has not babied me in a while and he said it was because our son isn’t here. I asked him why can’t he do it with him here and he said he didn’t want him to see him baby me. I asked him why again and he said he would think it’s normal. I told him “what do you mean he will think it’s normal?” and he said “This isn’t normal” and I said “so, at least it would teach him to be open minded about kinks” and he said “Can I have some privacy, I don’t want him to see our sex life.” He also told me he will teach him to be open minded.

The whole babying me thing is a turn on for him. I just felt secured and loved like he is a good husband.

While writing all this, I did go to the kitchen and put the food away my husband cooked and I took the bib off and I didn’t finish the rest of my bowl because I got too full and I put my bottle in the fridge too. I also pooped in my diaper finally as I was scooping the vegetables into the container and it all stuck to my butt and some of it was stuck inside me still. So when I went in the bathroom to dump the poop out, I had to sit on the toilet to get it off me and then I pooped the rest out and was done. I put the diaper back on again and it was hardly wet. There was a little brown spot from the poop but the diaper is still good and I don’t think I broke daddy’s rule because I did use the diaper but I did take it off but he is sick and I can only take it off when he can’t change me and he can’t so technically I took care of it and I am reusing the diaper than wasting it. I feel so much better for going.

Busy Morning

I woke up around ten this morning and I spent a little bit of time on the computer and I fed my son and put him in his play pen. I showered and rinsed my diapers out again in the tub as I did. Then I put them back in the bucket and put the lid back on. Then I came out and changed him and he leaked badly and got his play yard bottom all wet. So I had to change him and throw his sleeper in the hamper and I used a dirty hand towel and got it wet and wiped his play yard.

Then I got dressed and got him dressed too and I went and got quarters so I can wash my diapers. My son threw a fit when I had to take two cars from him and put them back with the other toys the bank owns to keep kids busy while the parents are there. I had to scoop him off the floor and carry him out and then I went to the supermarket to get bus passes. He just wanted to run around and I wouldn’t let him so he threw a fit again. It distracted me so I got confused and thought it was the end of June all of a sudden so I thought the store ran out of July passes. I nearly got refunded until the store manager said it was the end of May and I said I did need two June bus passes. So I got my bus passes after all and I got my cookie I wanted. It had no price on it so the lady behind the counter had to get the manager and she gave my son a  free cookie because she said that is what they give all kids. At least it quieted him down and he stopped fussing in the store and crying.

Then I was so glad to be home and I shared part of my cookie with him but he didn’t seem to like it so he threw it on the floor and I ate the rest. He then fell asleep in his chair and I got peace during Titanic and I washed my diapers and his. His diaper champ wasn’t even full yet but since I am washing mine, I will mind as well wash his too so I wouldn’t have to wash his diapers sooner.  

I am reminded why I never want to take my son to the store with me alone because I can’t leave if he starts to fuss and cry and I can’t leave him out in the car alone with the windows partly down because it isn’t the 90’s anymore where it was acceptable and legal. I have memories of being left alone in the car in the early 90’s and late 80’s. I can remember waking up in my car seat and being alone and I would just stare around. Now you can’t do that anymore. But even back then some people thought it was wrong to leave your kids alone in the car and now we have a law about it. It doesn’t bother me. I just blame it on stupid people who didn’t use common sense so they would leave their kids out in the car for a long long time or leave them dying in their hot car. I understand it’s an accident sometimes and I used to judge all parents when it would happen until I read this one Washington Post article. Now I can see how a parent can truly forget to take their kid out of the car and why they would leave them in the car all day long. Luckily it has never happened to me yet but I have had a close call where I got out of the car and locked it and less than five seconds later my mother told me I locked my new son in. Then she laughed about it and so did I. If I were alone, I may have been in the house and then realize where is my son and then remember he is out in the cold car. He was a week old then so I was not used to getting out of the car and having to go in the back seat. but I adjusted quick. Another time my husband and I were almost out the door and we realized we didn’t have our son with so I grabbed his infant carrier with him in it. Imagine if we were on the road and then we remembered our son was not with us. I would have turned the car around and gone back to get him. I know parents have accidentally left their little ones home alone because some confessed it at Babycenter. I will never say “it won’t happen to me” because I will never know. Instead I say, “I hope it won’t happen to me.” Never say never.